Kongpob's

Don't blame me, love made me crazy
If it doesn't, you ain't doin' it right

I really really shouldn't be doing this.

The night before my Calculus exam, I planned to attend Taylor Swift's concert. Funny, right? Never in my life, I thought of going to Taylor Swift's concert. Worse, never in my life I would ever do it the night before my exam, I would never even do this for Pokemon.

I really don't know how it happened. But it happened.

Let's rewind everything that had happened.

Two days ago, P'Kik called me, she was crying on the phone.

"Kong?"

"What P'? Why are you crying?"

"Can you go here?"

"Yes, sure."

I ran downstairs, I even saw P'Arthit, probably from his supposed 'school', on the stairs taking two steps at a time.

"Hey Kong? Where are you going? I was just going to your-"

"Can't P', I have to go somewhere."

"Where? Kong!"

"Sorry P'."

I immediately went to our house only to see P'Kik crying on the couch. I went to sit beside her and hug her. "What happened P'?"

"I found out that my boy-no ex-boyfriend is cheating on me," That asshole. I swear, if I see that guy somewhere, I'm going to kick his face. She sobbed even more as she buried her face on my chest. "All men are shits."

"Hey! That's not true."

"It's true. You are shit too."

"Wow P', I'm here comforting you and you still dare to disrespect me?"

"I'm sorry, okay? Just let me rant here, I just found out that my ex-boyfriend is fucking his best friend. Goodness, I'm so stupid. I really thought they are just best friends. And worse, I found out that I can't go to Taylor Swift's concert."

"Why not?"

"It's him who bought the tickets and even if I want to because it's just fitting for me to be there and be with Tay, my boss denied my leave-shit why do I have to be so unlucky? I just want to see Taylor."

"So where are the tickets?"

She took her bag beside her and gave me the tickets. "Here, give it to anyone or to Aim and his girlfriend. I've heard Aim's girlfriend is a Swifty. Tell him they can use it, it's not my money I used anyway, my ex-boyfriend can go to hell but he will never have these tickets back."

I looked at the tickets in my hand and I instantly remembered P'Arthit. He would be so happy.

"I'll use it."

"What?" Yeah what? I don't know why I said that also.

"I know someone who really wants to go there and I just want to see them happy."

She rolled her eyes. "You hate Taylor Swift."

"I don't hate her." Why are people saying that? I'm not a fan sure but I don't hate her.

"Who are you going with? Your annoying neighbor?"

"Yeah, he'll be very happy to go there. He's such a fan."

"Oh. He? I smell some gayness there." Judgmental much? I know she's fond of those BL stuff but my only question is what's with straight girls loving those stuff?

"We're just friends."

"I don't believe in friends anymore. It's either you two are fucking or you two are in love."

/

When I arrived at my apartment, I found P'Arthit sitting on my bed playing with his guitar.

"Hey, where were you?"

"I went to see my sister."

"Why?"

"Uhm I don't know probably because she gave me..." I produced the two tickets from behind me "These?"

His eyes widened. He left his guitar on the bed and immediately ran towards me. "Kong, these are the tickets to Taylor Swift's concert!"

"Yep."

He smiled widely at me. "Kong!"

"What P'?"

"What?! Kong! Is this ours?! We're going?! I can't contain what I feel right now! Is this true? Am I not dreaming? Oh my god Kong."

"Do you want to come?"

"Of course!" He was jumping up and down but then he suddenly frowned. "Wait, don't you have your Calculus exam for the next day? Give them to someone else Kong, I don't want to go there without you and I don't want to bother you."

"It was moved." It's not.

"Really?"

"Yep. I can come. We're going."

He jumped on me and hugged me tightly. "Thank you. I thought I couldn't come anymore, I already accepted it and then this happened. You're the best. I'm so happy right now." He buried his head on my shoulder then he just suddenly started crying.

"If you're happy then why are you crying?"

He was sobbing so hard when he looked at me. His lashes were wet with tears. "Kooongg!"

I wiped his tears away. "Don't cry." But more tears came falling out.

"Kong! You don't know happy I am right now. I'm going to see her. I'm just so excited, this is one of my dreams. Kong, thank you so much, thank you," He cupped my cheeks. More sobs came out from his lips. "You are the best. I'm sorry I annoyed you, I'm never ever going to do that again. Thank you for this Kong."

"Yeah yeah yeah stop crying now."

"I can't, my tears are just coming out," He bit his bottom lip to stop crying but he only cried even more. "I've never been this happy before."

When he stopped crying, he ran around my room while shouting. "I'm going to see her! I'm going to see Taylor Swift."

"P', stop shouting."

/

"Good evening Bangkok and welcome to the Reputation Stadium Tour!"

The place around us darkens.

Don't blame me, love made me crazy
If it doesn't, you ain't doin' it right
Lord, save me, my drug is my baby
I'd be usin' for the rest of my life

P'Arthit begins to shout, again, together with the people around us as Taylor Swift sings in front of us. The tickets P'Kik gave me gave us a spot slightly far away from the stage. I barely see Taylor from where I'm standing but I can still see her.

I look at P'Arthit who's currently clinging on me. He has his chin on top of his arm as he wraps them around my neck. I wound my arm around his waist to balance him as he sways the two of us to the song. He's crying while smiling as he looks at Taylor Swift with so much adoration. Gods, he really is a fan.

I pull out my DLSR camera from my bag and take a picture of his crying face.

"Stop taking pictures of me!"

"But you look so adorable."

He covers the lens but I raise my camera above him and take a picture of him again.

"Stop it Kong!"

I laugh at his irritated face. He looks endearing like this.

For you, I would cross the line
I would waste my time
I would lose my mind

Why is this song so relevant to my situation right now? Come to think of it, I am wasting my time right now and losing my mind. I mean, what the hell? What am I thinking? I should be at my apartment, resting my mind, to prepare myself for my exam but No, I pick this instead.

Shit. I really dare to attend this concert to think about tomorrow's my exam??? I'm so doomed. If I ever get a failing grade, I won't be shocked anymore.

But oddly, I don't regret anything. It's just worth it to see P'Arthit this happy, it all extinguishes all my worries about my exam tomorrow and the fact that I won't get proper sleep.

"Let me hear you sing Bangkok!"

"Don't blame me, love made me crazy if it doesn't, you ain't doin' it right. Lord save me, my drug is my baby I'd be using for the rest of my life"

The people around me shout and sing with Taylor Swift including P'Arthit. I feel awkward all of a sudden, why am I here? I don't even know what she's singing.

P'Arthit must have noticed it because he suddenly hugs me tighter. "Stop thinking anything, Kong. Just enjoy."

I nod but still, I just feel so awkward, not to mention, the majority of the people beside us are teenage girls and I feel-wait I KNOW they are taking pictures of us. I sigh, the reason behind teenage girls obsession over a man to man relationships is beyond me.

P'Arthit drops his voice to a whisper but it's still audible for me as he sings the next line. "My name is whatever you decide. And I'm just gonna call you mine. I'm insane, but I'm your baby."

Wait, what does he mean by that? Is he saying that to me?

And baby, for you, I would fall from grace
Just to touch your face
If you walk away
I'd beg you on my knees to stay

"Kooong!"

"What?" I shout in return.

"Carry me over your shoulders!"

The fuck? Who does he think I am? Superman?

I look at P'Arthit with my usual 'Are you out of your mind' face. "You do know how much you weigh, right? P', I barely go to the gym. Do you want me to faint here?"

He rolls his eyes and hits my shoulder slightly. "Come on. You can do it. You're just thinking you can't but you can. It's called the Pygmalion effect."

The pig what now? Whether I know the term or not, I still can't do it. I know I can't.

"I can't P', I'm not just thinking it. I know I can't."

"How about I carry you too after?"

Very promising.

"Please Kong? I want to see her. This is probably the last time I'm ever going to attend her concert. Please Kong? Have pity on me."

Did you have pity on me when I was reviewing and you were annoying me?

"Okay. Okay."

I kneel in front of him. He wraps his legs around my neck and I stand up. I hold his thighs tight around my hands to balance him over my shoulders.

"I love you, Taylor!" He shouts.

I hear almost everyone around us cheering for him. Damn. Can't I get a cheer too? I'm the one doing the hard work here people!

I see people taking pictures of us. Shit.

When I felt my bones all about to fall, I immediately kneel and put him down.

I pant as I massage my shoulders. "How many hours I've carried you?"

He laughs. "It's just 10 seconds Kong."

What? That's just 10 seconds? I really thought I had him over my shoulder for a decade already. Why does it feel like my shoulders are about to be separated from my body?

I really need to go to the gym.

"Kong, thank you for carrying me. I saw her clearly she's so beautiful and she waved at me. Me! Goodness, I'm so happy! She noticed me Kong!"

"I'm so happy for you P'."

"I am so happy too! I can die peacefully now."

"You still have to carry me." I need to have my revenge.

"What do you mean?"

"I thought you said you're going to carry me too?"

"Well yeah, but I lied."

He's unbelievable.

Oh, Lord, save me, my drug is my baby
I'd be usin' for the rest of my life

Someone, please save me away from him. He's making me crazy.

/

It's already 2 in the morning when we arrive back at our apartments. With the time, anyone would think we'd lost our energy by now. I did lose mine but now P'Arthit. He is still hyper.

"Goodness Kong, she's so beautiful and she's the best. Did you see her a while ago when she was dancing?"

"Yes P', I saw it. I was with you."

"Yeah but..." He continues rambling. I just smile and nod at whatever he's saying even though he's just repeating every word he has said for the past hour.

"You really love her?"

"Yeah. I can relate to her songs so much."

He's so happy, I don't want him to suddenly be crestfallen just because I want to be an asshole who really needs his sleep.

When we arrive in front of our apartments, I bid him goodbye.

I open my door. "Bye P', go to sleep now."

"But Kong, I'm so hyped up right now, I can't sleep."

"Don't you have classes tomorrow-I mean later?"

"I won't come. How about you? Do you have classes later?"

"Yeah. I have an ex-I mean very important to do."

He frowns. Goodness, if I just don't have an exam later, I will stay with him.

"Oh okay," He hugs me. "Thanks again Kong. If it weren't for you, this would not happen to me. Thank you. You just made one of my wishes come true."

I pat his back. "Always P', always."

When I enter my room, I immediately fall on my bed and sleep.

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