It was kind of late now.
"I wish someone could take me back to the day me and Riki met."
I had such a little amount of time to spend with him. I wish i could have met him earlier.
"In another life, we would be happy"
I was lost in these thoughts all night. I looked out of the window and the sun was already staring to rise. It was another day and a day closer to my death.
I stared at the clock in my room for about a hour and when the clock showed the number 7 i finally got up.
I went downstairs to make myself food but i heard our doorbell ring. I went to open the door just to see Riki.
"I promised to do a breakfast for you everyday" he said and invited himself over and made his way to the kitchen counter.
These 2 past weeks were the happiest ones of my life. Riki made me feel so special like no one has ever made me. He was always here. We made lots of memories.
Going on bike rides, trips, hanging out, lots of sleepovers, shopping together and more.
Riki made sure that i never cried during these days and i didn't i actually forgot that i had my death date already. It was true that everyday my body was weaker and weaker.
It was one day before i had to go forever. I was already in the hospital for two days since i was too weak to even walk.
Suddenly Riki came to my room with.. Pink hair?
"Love, i dyed my hair pink just for you, i know it's your favourite color"
It made me sob. He was the best boyfriend i could ever wish for.
"But you hate pink" I said.
"I don't hate it since you love it so much" i burst into a tears.
"Hira what did we promised? That you won't cry. It hurts me"
"I know i just love you so much, thank you for everything" i mumbled and hugged Riki.
"Just so you know this days were the happiest i have ever been" Riki said making my eyes fill with tears again.
"Please don't do this, don't cry" Riki patted my head while his eyes started becoming teary as well.
"Wait here, i will be back" Riki went out of the room.
After some time he came back to the room with a wheelchair.
"What are you doing?"
"There will be sunset in a few minutes! Come onn"
I laughed and hopped on the wheelchair. Riki was pushing the wheelchair infront of him till we reached the elevator. He pushed the highest button to the roof.
The elavator roof opened and i saw a gorgeous sky. It will be the last sunset I'll ever see.
"I am sorry i wasn't able to stay Riki" i said while i stared at him.
"And i am sorry i wasn't able to save you" Riki said back and then stared at the sky.
After a minute he said.
"I fell for you, but i didn't wanted to admit it at first, my mom was sick the same way you are and that really broke me"
I looked over at him when i heard the words he said.
"I am so sorry i broke our pinky promise, my loverboy"
Riki started crying and i could tell he was hurt.
"You were my first love and the last one and I'll be forever thankful for that experience" i continued while Riki cried his eyes out.
I had to tell him everything so i won't regret it. All of my friends came to visit me yesterday so i already said goodbye to them but this last goodbye to Riki will be the hardest.
"Look Hira, the sunset is the same as it was on out first date" Riki shouted and i looked at the sky.
It was magical it looked like from a fairytale. We stared at the sky in silence till the sun disappeared behind a hill.
"Sometimes i dreamed of disappearing but right now when it is time im not ready" i said when we were just left there in dark.
Riki stayed silent and pushed my wheelchair back into the elavator. We were already in the hall and Riki was pushing my wheelchair back into my room.
We reached my room and we went in. I got off and sat on my bed.
"I will forever love you, my lover boy."
"You were the right person, we just didn't have enough time"
When i heard Riki's words it made me sad. We had a beautiful time together though.
The nurse came to the room.
"Hira it's time" she said making both of us start sobbing. She fully discharged me from the devices and monitors.
I started feeling a kot of pain without the painkillers. My stomach started to hurt so much. I really felt like dying right now. I shed lots of tears while Riki stared at me.
RIKI'S POV:
I was staring at Hira crying in pain not being able to help her. I just wanted it to end. She didn't left peacefully but in a lot of pain. The monitor started beeping and i was staring at Hira's lifeless body at the realization that she won't smile at me ever again or hug me.
She wasn't able to make me feel loved anymore. I couldn't feel her soul in the room anymore. My body didn't had strength and i dropped onto my knees crying hysterically while i lost another woman. The two girls i have ever loved were gone now leaving me all alone. The nurse standing next to me started saying that she is really sorry for my loss.
This was not a dream i could wake up from. This was harsh reality. The nurse grabbed a plastic bag and putted it over Hira's body making my cry even harder.
This was the last time i saw Hira's face
Hira took her soul with her body that evening. Only if i could see her happy face once more.
There was no beeping since the nurse turned it off. I wasnt able to hear Hira's hearbeat ever again. See her excitement in her eyes everytime she saw me. I was overthinking my whole life in the moment.
Heeseung barged in the room and saw me on the ground and Hira's body wrapped in a bag. He kneeled down beside me and comforted me. For the next hours i couldnt stop crying.
"I am always the fool with the slowest heart Hee" I whispered to him while he cried his eyes out aswell.
"Riki you aren't, you cant choose the people you love" Hee said making me feel love at least from him.
We were sitting on the ground all night while Hira's body was alreadyb gone. We were both crying beside an empty bed.
"I wish Hira would just open the door and say that its some silly joke"
"I know Riki, i know" Hee wiped the tears away from my face.
"Come on to the bathroom, just to wash your face Riki" we stood up while Hee hold me.
It was already 5 in the morning while we stood infront of the bathroom sink.
"I hope she will rest well." I said.
"Of course, she is in better place now, she passed away while she felt loved by you i am sure she is happy" Hee answered and i hugged him.
"Thank you so much" i mumbled making Hee squeeze me harder in his arms.
Hyejin and Sunghoon arrived soon and went into the room. They saw i was in very bad condition and both of them hugged me.
They eyes were filled with tears and this was the worst night i have even experienced.
1 week later.
It was one week since Hira passed away. Today was her funeral. I dressed in black from head to toe and went to the cemetery.
Hee, Hyejin and Hoon were already there. When they saw me they immediately hugged me. Since Hira's death i spent all day crying in bed not wanting to live.
Those three helped me so much though. They made me feel a little bit better and they always came to my place.
"Today we are standing here at the memory of Hira"
As soon as i heard those words i bursted in tears. I was a fool crying my heart out while everyone were just tearing up. Hee hold me in his arms till the ceremony ended.
Hira's parents didn't show up because of their work and that made me sick to my stomach. How could they? I just knew that Hira is sad right now because of that.
They burried the coffin and i stared at it disappearing from my sight. As soon it went to the ground. Everyone bowed and left not looking back for once.
Our friendgroup stood there and i bent down to put a tulip bouquet on her grave.
"I hope you will rest in peace, my lovergirl"
THE END
i am sobbing sm bro, what did i just wrote? I promise i am paying for everyones therapy <3
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