Okay. I'm going to clear everything. She's going to graduate and while she's in training, she's now reviewing. In the My De Luca Bride, she celebrated her birthday, not her graduation.  Now let's dive into the life of Biya. Enjoy! :)

7: The Days I Made Myself Forget Again

Biya's POV

I'm back to square one. Day one of not meeting Emil and I hoped that things will get better and better now that he's totally gone in my life. Well, not completely since I can't forget him. I will forget my feelings for him though. That was my first mission. I will do my best to forget every feeling I have for him. Just the thought of starting over again tugged my heart painfully. It felt like there was a tug of war inside me; my mind pulling the rope trying to win the thought of forgetting Emil and my heart tugging its way to win my deep feelings for him. I hate this conflict of mine.

"Biya! Are you done?" I heard Elda call for me in the living room. I quickly shook my head to focus on the present.

"Just a sec!" I shouted back as I fixed my hair. I grabbed my heavy bag and my coat before I ran out of my room.

"After our duty we will be going straight to the library, right?" She asked as she adjusted the strap of her bag.

"Yes." We got out of the room and Elda locked the door before we walked out of the building. The moment we were outside, the blinding light and the loud shouts greeted us.

"I told you!"

"There she is!"

"Biya lives here!"

"Why did Mr. Carini visit you here, Signorina?" Multiple questions were thrown to me and Elda was in the middle of my war. We stood there as if the swarm of people was Medusa and we were the victims who just turned into statues.

"What should we do?" Elda whispered to me. I looked around and spotted the guards who were now making their way towards us.

"Please move. Move!" Big men came to our aid and helped us get out of the suffocating environment. Two other men started guiding us out and I told Elda to look anywhere but the ground. After 20 minutes, we finally got out. Another guard had hailed a cab for us and we thanked them before we zoomed away from the scene.

"Jesus! How can you survive that kind of craziness, Biya? My God!" Elda huffed out a breath while she wiped the sweat that formed on her forehead.

"How did they find out?" I muttered as I looked down on my lap in confusion.

"Duh? Emil visited you there. Of course people got curious and now they found out that you are staying there, we might as well get out of the building earlier than usual." That made me angry. Damn him for affecting my life. Damn him for making me love him this deeply and now I am receiving the consequences of it.
Day Two. The same situation repeated itself even though we were 30 minutes early. It worried me that this would continue for days and it was affecting me and Elda. Whenever we got home late at night tired and wishing to have a peaceful night, all we got the moment we arrive were them always bombarding us with their questions. It was making me more tired than usual. As I fell on my bed in exhaustion, my phone rang. It was Momma Lorie.

"Hello Lorie." I tried to act happy but deep inside, I was not feeling like that.

"Oh dear. Are you okay?" She knew that I wasn't okay but she was trying to start her approach.

"I'm tired."

"If you want, you can come home. Jared will drive you from here to there everyday or we can change you apartment and get you security in your place." She offered and it made me smile for her care.

"Thanks but it will just waste money and time. We're fine here. Maybe after a week, they will be gone."

"I don't think so, dear. You are all over the news. Paolo even wanted to send bodyguards for you."

"No. No need for that." I heard her sigh. Then, I heard Paolo speak.

"Well, your dad will send some men for you no matter what you think. It's for your safety."

"But-"

"No buts, dear. There will be men at your front door tomorrow morning to help you get through the day and secure your safety." I think I can't argue with them anymore so I gave what they wanted.

"Okay Lorie."

"Don't worry about them. We took care about it." They have talked to them already? It meant that they already planned it before they told me.

"Okay. I'll see them tomorrow then."

"Good. Very good. Now that will assure us that you will be fine." You mean I will be fine physically. Emotionally, I wasn't.

"Thank you. Please tell dad 'thank you'."

"Okay. Rest now. Good night."

"Good night." Our call ended and I closed my eyes with a sigh. I put my beside me while I rested before I'll take a shower. I was so tired. When will this end? When can I forget when everytime I go out of the building to start my day, I'm greeted by people who reminded me of him. Of how famous he is. A wet trail left my skin as a tear fell. Why can't I have my simple life back? Why do I have such a price for just falling for a man that made my life a fairytale and a nightmare? If only I was warned how dangerous to fall in love. If I was, I would have tried my best to not fall for the trap. But if I did try, would I have won over the temptation? I don't think I would. Emil was something no man had made me feel. He made me feel secured. He made me feel precious. He appreciated me no other person except my family did. He made me feel as if I was the most beautiful woman in the world. He was my everything. Again, memories of him replayed in my mind and I can't help but release the painful emotions that I have got. Salty tears fell and as I poured my soul out, the weather joined me as it wept. If only I can pour everything out like a storm. But then, I can. My promise to him. that was my storm. I will return with everything that I have got the moment I will have the strength and power.

"Oh why do I have to rely on revenge just for you, Emil? Is that how much I love you?" I was angry to myself for that. Agh! I got out of bed and went straight to the bathroom. I stripped out of my clothes and opened the shower. As I stepped in, I slowly got wet and I did nothing but stand there while my tears continued to fell. I shouldn't be crying for him, I thought to myself. But then, how can I let everything that I have felt for him if I didn't? Some might think that it was ridiculous for me to cry over him but it wasn't when you loved him so much. I should cry and cry. I should let everything out in order to move on. With the solution that I have, I spent the rest of the night doing what I do best. Cry.

Days past and the number of people in front of the building started to decrease. My bodyguards did great help as they helped me get through the day with less difficulty. I could move much easily and get to any place that I would like because of them. It wasn't so bad to have guards after all. I got busy doing my best in the hospital and in reviewing. The doctors even got surprised that we were already reviewing and were betting who will get the highest score. Percyla also called every now and then asking me about my day. It felt good that my friends and my family are here for me and they helped me get better. Days past by and people started to get uninterested about me and Carini. I, too, grew tired of the issue and began to really ignore it. I would easily walk pass by the paparazzi and the people who are looking at me differently. I was forgetting about it and I knew to myself that I was improving. By February, the depression faded and was replaced by the roller coaster ride of being a student in the medical field. I would go home very tired not because of Emil but because of my tasks in the hospital and in reviewing. I would look haggard not because of him but because of my job and I was okay with it knowing what the future held for me. By March, I was feeling better. Whenever Emil was mentioned or I would hear about him, I wouldn't get affected like before. I have not shed a tear for him for the past three months. Sure, I admit that there still was a tugging feeling that I have in my heart. I think it's because of the memories that we shared but I think I don't have the same feelings for him anymore. He was my past and he will always have a part of me. My revenge for what he did and said to me drove anger inside of me and I still have that. I knew in my heart and mind that I will meet him again. Maybe in a social gathering or when Percyla and her friends get together? I was preparing for it and I knew that when I meet him again, I won't be getting emotional about him for my feelings for him had disappeared. I made myself think of him that he wasn't worth my tears anymore for he did something horrible that changed me. He wasn't worth my feelings for he won't return. I will only return to him everything that he did to me. I will make myself return in a new Biya.

"Oh my God! Finally! We have done it!" Elda cheered as we finished our last day of our training.

"We should celebrate!" Another friend that I got to know in the hospital announced and everyone agreed. Her name is Shareen but we just call her Shar. She's a beautiful girl with big black eyes, long eyelashes, perfect nose, full lips and black hair. Everyone liked her for she is kind and sometimes shy. She was the nice girl of our group.

"We would graduate in just three days and going to the bar is worth everything." Cej agreed to us. He's a tall man but he was the opposite of Shareen. He's outgoing but he's friendly to others especially to his patients. He has bright green eyes thick lashes and brows and has a stubble. He always wears his glasses since he can't see clearly without them.

"Tonight?" I asked. Aren't they tired?

"Let's go tomorrow night so we can recharge ourselves tonight. How about that?" Elda suggested and we all agreed.

"Perfect." Then we separated ways as we went to our own apartments. As we got into our cab, my attention was caught by a man who was looking at me. He was wearing a tailored black suit and he was holding a phone. He was finely built and since he was far from me, I really can't tell about his features. However, he was handsome even from my view and the dangerous part was, he was smiling at me. I returned it in act of politeness. As the cab began to move, I can't look away as curiosity to why he was lookingat me got the best of me. Then he nodded at me before he entered the hospital. What was that?     

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