Xiumin left the house after getting me medicine. I just held onto the medicine in shock.

★★:"what am i supposed to do now?" I was just sitting on my bed in shock, when my phone rang.

-rrrrr♬

★★:"hello?" It was an unknown number, but i picked up the phone.

-"you're ★★, right?"

"....yea, who is this?"

-"oh, um.. i'm choi jin lee."

-"oh. hi."

-"haha. Can we meet today? it won't take long."

My headache wasn't completely gone, but it was a lot better so i said okay.

I went to the cafe, and she was drinking coffee. Just like suho oppa last time.

choi jin lee: "over here!"

★★-"why did you want to meet me?"

choi jin lee:"well, i thought i should at least say sorry. you liked suho for five years. but i practically took him away from you, so.."

★★:"well than if you know that..... if you really feel sorry....., why don't you break up with him?" I don't know why, that just slipped out of my mouth.

she looked shocked, but continued talking. "...i love suho a lot." She was serious. "we suffered a lot too. i was very ill back then, and he was just a friend. He was always by my side, taking care of me. Then, we found out we both liked each other and started dating."

I realized now that suho didn't even think a bit of liking me. I just came out of the cafe, and ran home. I got in the elevator, and knee-led down. Then, the tears that i thought had all dried up, started rolling down my cheeks again. it was irresistable. It felt like someone was punching my chest. it was so painful.

-12th floor. 

elevator arrived at the 12th floor, my house. The elevator door opened, and xiumin was standing with shocked face. 

"......." 

xiumin looked a lot surprised, and i was just sitting there crying not being able to stand up.Xiumin grabbed my hand and helped me up.

"why, again..."

I didn't say anything. i just leaned on his chest and cried hard.

"★★" Xiumin looked surprised. He called my name, but i didn't answer back. i just kept crying at the spot.

-

after a while, xiumin helped me lay in bed. He stared at me with worried eyes. 

"....xiumin," this time, i called his name first. 

He turned around.

★★:-"be my boyfriend. let's date." i said  without thinking. i just said it.

".." he looked surprised. "...get some rest" He didn't answer me.

★★"i'm serious, after you saying that you liked me, i thought about it. it's not like i don't have any feelings for you. I actually do have feelings for you. kinda." 

xiumin: "★★."

"-what? didn't you want this answer from me? didn't you wanna go out with me?"

xiumin:".......were you really this mean? This isn't you."

He said i was mean. I knew i was mean right now, but hearing directly from xiumin that i was mean, i really thought that i was mean. A lot.

xiumin:"i think you should get some time to rest and think alone. i'll take care of joo-hyun and ji-hyun. I don't think it's good for you to come to school for now. Get some rest."

Then he left the room.

My head already hurted again from crying, but tears kept on coming out again. "i'm being mean even to xiumin." Crying everyday, it was like a daily routine or something now. After crying for a few hours, i fell asleep. I think i slept about 4 hours.

"hungry....." feeling hungry at this situation.. i went to the kitchen. no rice, not even a piece of bread. I just wore any comfortable clothes and went out to near market. I bought some instant food, and was walking back home, when i saw suho and choi jin lee

"....." why. why at a situation like this. They looked happy. I was sad but acted all happy out side. 

suho:"....★★"

★★:"aww, you guys are dating! now that i see, you guys look cute together!"

Suho and Choi jin lee was just standing there, and i was like oh shoot, cause i had nothing else to say. Then, i heard my name and turned around. It was xiumin.

-"hi!" suho was about to say something when xiumin continued on talking. 

"hyung! ★★ and i are dating! I confessed my feelings to her. amazing, right?"

suho:"....awesome!" suho looked shocked at first, but soon smiled .

Xiumin:"then we'll get going. bye!"

Then he grabbed my hand and started walking.

-

We were walking and walking, and i called his name. "....xiumin"

He stopped and turned around.

xiumin:"until your done thinking, until your ready to tell me your decision, i'll be by your side."

-"xiumin..." 

Then he turned, and walked away from me."

★★: "i'm sorry........"

I guess he heard me saying sorry. He kinda stopped for a second, but kept walking.