Ladies and gentlemen welcome aboard to this emotional and nostalgic journey you are going to have. I would suggest you to keep a tissue box with you if you are an emotional person. Cause I needed one while writing it.

And another thing. You should listen to the girl version of 'Let go' while reading. For a better experience, you know.

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Hey Baby bear,

You do know, right? That I love you? That I love you more than any other things in this world?  I know. I know that you love me. Maybe a lot. But not as much as I do.

Have I ever told you how I fell in love with you? You know I was never an ARMY. But I listened to your songs. I respected you all. I guess I told you what my first BTS song was. Yes, it was 'Fire'. And the funny thing is I never noticed you. Yeah, I saw that boy playing some kinds of games on a rusty, old screen but that's all. In 'Blood, Sweat, and Tears', a blonde guy actually creeped me out with his creepy smirk and scarred back. And I don't know why but I don't remember you from 'Spring Day'. Why? Sorry, XD. But I remember 'DNA'. A guy who looks like a character out of manga did catch my attention but I was too awed by Namjoon hyung's hair that I forgot about you. Sorry. And finally, I watched 'Hwarang'. That cute, little guy Hansung made me cry for a fictional character for the first time in my life. Though I had watched it for Hyung-sik Oppa, Hansung trapped me in his charm forever.

Do you remember the day we first met?  I was very nervous. I know I didn't seem like it but it is true. Meeting your 4-year long crush is not something we get to do every day. And the next 7 days were one of the best days of my life. Cause I got to know you. Not as a fangirl but as a friend, as someone closer.

When I got that note of yours, Allah knows how excited I had become. I wanted to climb up the Bangladesh Bank building and let the whole world know that my crush likes me back. It was an overwhelming feeling for me. But, sadly, I had to turn you down and only Allah and I know how much it pained me. Later when I found out you converted to Islam, I bet no one was happier than me. And then I came here and finally we got together, against all odds.

We did spend a lot of time together. We laughed, we cried. All those misunderstandings and fights but somehow we have always made it out. All those arcade dates, Museum dates, Roaming around in the streets of Itaewon, Han river dates. That one time in New York when you took me to visit Long Island, my favorite Percy Jackson place. We did a lot of things that always stay in my mind as if they happened yesterday.

I know you might be wondering why I'm talking about all these, reminiscing the past. Actually, I needed to. Cause those are the things that are going to stay with us. Going to help me live. Cause we won't be able to make more.

I know it hurts. It hurts to let go of someone whom you love. But we have to. I... Have to. For the greater good. And you know what, we can let go of someone only when we love them with all our hearts. Cause we want to see them happy, we want to see them shine. I know I'm being selfish, I should've asked you. But if I'm not wrong, you wouldn't have let me go. Maybe. 

Maybe we are not meant to be together. Maybe our string of fate has ended here. I'm writing you this while trying hard not to break down. But I don't think I'll be able to hold down for any longer. But you please don't cry. Cause you know I can't see tears in your eyes. We'll have to say goodbye without tearing up.

Taehyung. I really tried to find out other ways. For the sake of our good days, I looked for other ways to make everything alright. But... This is the only way. This is the only way everyone will be happy. You will be happy. I know how much you love your work and I don't want that to hamper because of me. I just hope you will be happy and get to do what you love.

I'm sorry I'm breaking the promises I made to you, the plans we made for our future. I'm sorry I'm letting go of your hand. By doing these, I just want you to know that your happiness matters the most. Your ARMY matters the most. Maybe more than my own happiness.

You are the person I love the most. And I've tried to keep you close. But I couldn't. Now that I couldn't, I'll have to say goodbye.

Taehyung, had we made any mistakes? Maybe, yes. Maybe I should've never come to Korea. No, no. Maybe I shouldn't have taken that opportunity to be your translator. Maybe those seven days was a mistake?  Maybe you shouldn't have fallen in love with me. But what happened has happened. We can't undo it. Hah. Didn't I tell you I won't be able to hold my tears? I was right. My tears are flowing down. Please don't mind if you find any stain on the paper. So what was I saying? Yes. Now that we are saying goodbye, let's do it with a smile on our faces. If we ever get to meet again, I'll obviously welcome you with a warm smile. I hope you will do the same.

 You know, you can't be replaced. Ever. Even though I asked if our meeting was a mistake, I would always go back to the day we met for the first time. The day you confessed to me. I would choose you again anyway. I won't even hesitate. 

Taehyung. I love you. And I always will. But I want you to move on. It won't be much harder for me as I'll just go back to my fangirling life but it's going to be hard for you. But can you please always remember the color of the sky we saw together? The scent of the road we walked on together? And please don't look for me. I'll always be there. In the million likes of your tweets, I'll be one of them. In the million views of your MV's, I'll be one of them. I'll always be around you. 

Love you,

Your Angel

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Ummm. Hi. So... What do you think of this chapter. Actually, I'm not really good at these types of things, so it might suck. I basically played a word game with the lyrics of 'Let go', if you noticed. 😅

But the first part is true. For me at least.

So... Do let me know through a vote or a comment. Lots of Sarang...😘😘😘