You wake up hearing the sounds of water splashing from bathroom, you rubbed your eyes and sat up, after short time Jungkook walked out of the bathroom and saw you're already awake.

Five in the morning, he was preparing to go to work.

He casually threw a towel on the bed and demand "Come here and wipe my hair." you yawn and obediently went over to help him wipes his hair being very careful, he stood beside bed while you're kneeling on the top of bed, still he's touring over you, as long as he reached out, he could hold your slim waist and that was also what he did.

There was no reason for him to not feel romantic when his soft and sweet wife stand front, last night .... he couldn't make it, so he's not satisfied and pushed you on the bed.

"Eh!" subconsciously you yelped, Jungkook glanced on the bed, not to disturb his son's sleep, he asked his wife to wrapped legs around his torso and brought you to the guest room, his hands moving on your delicate skin, hot enough to set your senses on fire ...

After done with things, you wanted to go and have shower but his strong arms wrapped around your waist and hugged you.

You tapped his hand and asked him to let you go, you looked at his bottomless eyes and suddenly air seemed to be frozen, you touched his nerve? you lowered your head and wanted to pass him the message that you wanted to use the bathroom, Jungkook was silent for a while and then loosened his arms.

Each time, after having sex, you would rush to wash, to prevent from getting pregnant again if that possible "Y/n, do you think I don't know what you are afraid of?"

You slowed down your steps and turned back "Seol is growing, I know he's young but if we naturally have another child, Seol won't dislike his siblings."

You're stubborn and saw him losing his temper, Jungkook became furious and walked out of the guest room, well you went to wash yourself, you know that corruption was not something that could be done just by cleaning.

Women have 3 holes, peeing out of system won't wash out all the semen your husband spurted in you, they all function differently.

You have to go and have a check up, you had a high blood pressure and you're still taking meds, you had lose weights and your diet is healthy, you don't have to worry about physical activities as it helps also.

But of course, getting pregnant sooner was not in your plan, at least not right now.

In your mind, Jungkook's angry face had been hovering, making your morning bad, after done with breakfast you went to the hospital for an examination.

Your period was irregular, doctor suggest you to not take stress, as the young people nowadays are under a lot of pressure, take care of your diet as you're breastfeeding your son, if mother follow up the routine, child will receive good balance of protein.

Doctor prescribed you some medicine, doctor injected a Depo-provera, it helps to prevent you from getting pregnant, you hide the medicine under the pillow.

Seol was extra clingy today as he doesn't leave you, so you decided to take him to the NGO but Mrs Jeon give a visit... it was rare for her to come at the apartment to pick up her grandson, as she would always send someone to ask or inform Jungkook.

You greeted her and make some tea, it wasn't your working day but children's wanted to have mini food party, so you carried a bag ready to go but your son was unwilling to leave you and keep hugging your neck, Mrs Jeon frowned "Where are you going?"

You pursed your lips and about to take out your phone to write "Well, it's hard for you to talk." she waved interrupting "I'm taking Seol out, you can do your own work."

The little fellow refusing to let you go "My dear Seol, come to grandma." Mrs Jeon doted on him, she knew how to establish prestige, you coaxed your child and asked him to go to his grandmother, Mrs Jeon took Seol deliberately.

And kisses making little one to giggle, you watched as they left, you sighed.

Originally, you wanted to let Seol play with the children at NGO but well ... seems like they won't let you do that, as a mother... it's hard to watched your son taken away from you, don't know how one mother asked another mother to leave her child.

Women .... really can't understand each other's feelings.

NGO's children never saw your son and husband, only old staff's know about your marriage, otherwise you don't keep telling about yourself.

When you walked towards the building, everyone was enjoying while eating, as soon as you arrived children put the plate full of food in front of you.

Let's eat...

Some gesture and some talk, in this NGO, some are mute, some are deaf and some are both .... god .... doesn't make everyone same but...

Here, in this organization everyone treated equally, here's no rank like in society, you smiled and gesture.

Thank you, let's hurry to enjoy the food.

"You're late." Eunsang sat opposite of you and set his plate.

There were something I had to do at home, so I came late.

Eunsang frowned slightly "Do you need help with something?" you shook your head and smiled and gesture him to eat, Eunsang is learning psychology and he can read by the facial expression, that you're forcing a smile, obviously you looked little upset.

Therefore, Eunsang didn't ask anything and give you some time for yourself to adjust your mood.

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Jungkook's mood wasn't good either since the morning, he was absentmindedly staring at project, in the meeting hall, he was not focusing causing some of workers to gossip, when he heard a noises, he was dissatisfied and asked them to continue with project and discuss the new ideas before presenting.

The matter of his wife, afraid of getting pregnant made his heart itched in anger.

Day went like that and he wanted to discuss something with his wife, so he get off work earlier to go home.

When Jungkook arrived at home, he saw maid was cleaning, this maid work at Jeon family's house and sometimes she was asked to clean the apartment of Jungkook's resident with his son and wife.

"Where's Y/n?" he asked as you took a leave for few days and you supposed to be at home.

"Mrs Jeon went to the NGO to attend the children's celebration of winning the program."

Jungkook frowned "Did she take Seol with her?"

Maid shook her head "Originally madam wanted to take little sir but Madam Jeon happened to be here and accompanied little sir outside." with that information Jungkook walked out of the apartment.

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You finished eating and now helping to clean the area, after that you guys prepare some snacks, it's been 2 hours and you already missed your son.

What he was doing? Was he crying? Probably, wanted to drink milk.

Sighed.

As a mother, you completely wanted to have your son with you, as an invisible wife of Jeon family, this pressure is indeed great, no one asked about your opinion about your son at all, actually Jungkook had never treated you unfairly but the matter of him wanting someone to accompany him to business parties...

He never asked you to be his companion, perhaps he's ashamed of having mute wife?

You still remembered the first time, there were a couple party after marriage and you received a invitation but Jungkook decided to go alone, since then you never took initiative to go for any parties he attended.

Just as your mind was wondering, someone tapped your shoulder "What are you staring at?" Eunsang lowered his head "Are you alright? do you need help?"

You shook your head and noticed that he's so close.

I'm okay, don't worry.

You gesture and wanted to distance but you step on something losing your balance and landed on his arms, Eunsang was stunned and held your waist, it was thin... he didn't expected that....

"Be careful."

You pulled yourself and bow your head, scolding own self for being clumsy, Eunsang was little concern "Y/n, something is bothering you, you can tell me if you don't mind."

You waved your hands.

There's nothing.

Just as you wanted to explain to him, someone pulled you, scaring you... your back pressing on someone's chest "My wife will tell me if something is the matter, you don't have to worry about it."

Jungkook looked at Eunsang coldly "Huh?" Eunsang is a deaf, so he didn't catch most of the words said by Jungkook but obviously Jungkook is holding you, so he should know the relationship between you two.

Your marriage with Jungkook is not secret but there's no need to spread it everywhere, Eunsang was new teacher here ... So he definitely doesn't know about it "What's wrong? Didn't she tell you that she's married?"

Jungkook's eyes are sharp and he tightened his arm around your waist making you frowned uncomfortably but you smiled and try to pass the message to Eunsang telling that Jungkook is your husband.

My husband.

In the file of NGO, you're stated as married but you don't wear wedding ring and Jungkook never visited here, so normally people would not know about it.

About wedding ring thingy, at the couple party when Jungkook dismissed you to go with him, you tore party dress and threw the ring, later when he finds out he gave it back to you but you refused to wear after that, it was him only one who was still wearing the wedding ring while yours was inside the drawer.

So, when Eunsang learned about your marriage, he's obviously shocked and looked disappointed, you can see the sadness in his eyes but he force a smile "Since your husband is here, you can show him our place."

You nodded, Eunsang left from there, you looked at his back and felt little lonely, he's great person, didn't know what kind of illusion you have but you really felt comfortable with him, he understand you and care about your opinion.

Asked about your like and dislike, evey women would be move by type of man.

It's like.... you and Eunsang's world is same, Jungkook saw how you're staring at other man's back while he's holding you, he pinched your waist, you frowned and wanted to push him.

"What's wrong? You're sad when he knows about your marriage? being pitiful and flirting with other man?" his deep and cold voice was full of sarcasm "Don't you know that you're the mother of my child? falling for other man? Wanted to replace my position?"

His vicious tongue started to act, immune with poisons, you get rid of his arm and glare at him and type on your phone.

( Can you at least respect me outside? )

( Your parents doesn't like me and I'm just a stained in your family, do you have to act like you own me? )

He read and sneered, at this time he should have ignore you and left but instead he find himself standing there and looking at you, who's getting angry for no reason! While he should be the one ... after finding his wife's doings.

"Let's go back." he held your arm, you didn't move and stare at him, you knew way back home "Y/n, I'm busy and I came here to picked you up." his voice became deeper with trace of annoyance.

After a moment, you followed him... children's and teachers wave their hands as you get into the car, NGO's people never saw kind of rich man coming in their organization, they're amazed and praising the Jungkook as he's one of the person who donate millions on this organization.

Teacher Y/n's husband is so handsome.

--- The road on this way made Jungkook so sick and angry, there's no development on this area and dusts are everywhere... he was trying to suppressed his anger.

You quickly went to room to get changed and Jungkook entered into the kitchen to gulped down ice water but it didn't extinguished his anger and banged the door, you're shocked by his sudden intrusion and scared as you're changing your clothes halfway, you drew your hands to covered your chest.

But your subconscious action irritated him even more, you cared about being conservative when it comes to him? As a husband which part of yours was hidden till yet?

He sneered and sarcastically said "Y/n, don't you see that mute like you has the ability to seduce a man? I admire you... but you better figure out who you are, Jeon's family's reputation was already ruined and up to now, it's all a joke, if you dare to cheat on me, I will make your life a living hell!!"

You felt really bad, all over your body was feeling bitter and eyes became sour, your heart burning with pain and you looked helpless and put down your hands, your body is a fallen leaf.

Lonely and helpless.

Am I bitch to you? Always getting on a bed whenever you asked for?

In your entire life, you never acted stubborn, your half naked body was trembling and giving him a dead glare, two of you seems frozen, after a moment Jungkook punch the door and walked out ....

"Damn it."

Your hateful gaze and trembling body was lingering in his mind, half filled tears in your stubborn eyes, if you could talk then he's sure that you would make his ears bleed.