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Requested by fianceeofshawnmendes
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Jenny's POV

As I wake up this morning, a cold spot of the bed is only what's beside me, which only means one thing - Shawn left early for the studio...again. It's not really an unusual routine for him to do. Lately, he's been leaving early in the morning, but he's also been coming home a little bit earlier because Andrew gave him shorter hours to work at the studio. The thing is that when he arrives home, he always looks really exhausted, which only worries me more.

Anyway, I reach for my phone on the bedside table, but my fingers land on a piece of paper. A note maybe, I think. Curiously, I sit up and try to read it.

Hey sweetheart! I'm sorry if you found yourself waking up without me beside you. Geoff just gave me a phone call early in the morning saying we had to fix something at the recording studio. I'm really sorry, love, but I'll be seeing you tonight okay? Take care of yourself and the baby. I love you!

-Your rockstar:)

A small sigh escapes my lips but eventually, moments later, I smile. Oh! Yes, I'm carrying a baby...since seven months ago:)

After doing a small, quiet talk with the baby inside me, I decide to head down to eat breakfast. I feel down, especially today that I don't get to eat the most important meal of the day with my husband. Oh who am I kidding, I feel like this everyday.

Well, I understand that it's not easy for him to keep on pressuring himself to create more and more music and have his pregnant wife always clinging to him at the same time.

I finish my meal and go on to wash the used dishes and utensils before deciding to just stay at home for the res of the day.

***

My fingers constantly flip through the pages of the magazine I am currently reading. I actually just finished making dinner for both Shawn and I, but with him still not being at home creates a slight feeling of worry within me.

My thoughts get interrupted as soon as I hear my familiar ringtone. I grab my phone beside me on the couch and press the green button on the screen.

"Hello?" I greet with a sigh.

Karen's voice answers, "Jenny, honey, how are you doing?"

I think for a while and look down at the floor before replying, "Fine, I guess." I can tell that she can already sense the exasperation in my voice.

"Are you okay? Where's Shawn? Is he at the studio still?" Her continuous questions make me slightly giggle. She's such a thoughtful mother.

I run my fingers through my hair and exhale.
"As always, Karen. But please, I'm fine."

"Jenny, you seem off today. You know you can tell me everything, right hun?"

With a little bit of hesitation, I confess to her, "Look, I don't even know if I should be telling you this. Oh my gosh it's just gonna make me sound selfish right now."

"It's okay, I'm listening."

I take in a deep breath as I stand and slowly pace around the living room.
"So,um, for the past few weeks, I've been noticing that almost everyday, I've been waking up all alone. I mean, I know that Shawn has his own routine when it comes to his career, but it's just sad to think that I'm always eating my meals on my own and spending most of the days without him with me. It worries me, if I'm gonna be honest, especially now that I'm carrying a baby. I-I don't even know how to explain it. I guess it just makes me feel...alone."

"Sweetie," she says, "I understand how you feel. I mean I'm a mother of two and my husband works 24/7. But trust me, everything's gonna be okay. We all feel alone sometimes, but we just have to look at the brighter side, honey. Shawn works really hard for you and the baby and he's ready to do everything for you, even if it means leaving you in the morning."

A sad tear escapes my eye as I continue,
"Thank you, Karen. As selfish as it sounds, I just really want things to go back to the way they were before, you know - being able to wake up and he's the first thing I'm seeing, or maybe being able to do fun things together with him again. I just miss it. I just can't help thinking that I might be...losing him."

"Sweetheart, that's never happening. My son loves you way too much to leave you. Trust me, he really does and he's lucky to find a very amazing and caring woman that we know will take good care of him. He'll never abandon you, that's for sure. Please, don't ever doubt yourself, alright? Everything's gonna turn out fine. Just talk to him about it. Oh and if he does abandon you then I wouldn't hesitate to kick his ass."

I chuckle and at that moment, I feel like everything's being lifted off of my shoulders after talking to her.
"Yes, I promise. Thank you so much, Karen. I'm gonna have to go now."

"Goodbye Jenny, take care!"

We end our conversation just after we bid our goodbyes. I smile a little, a small sigh escaping my lips. Suddenly, a very famliar voice behind me is heard.

"Is that how you really feel?"

My eyes widen as soon as I hear him. Turning around hesitantly, I see my husband standing just a few feet away from me, a sad or...pained expression evident in his features.

I try to get myself to talk straight, but my words come out as a stutter.

"S-Shawn-"

He cuts me off, asking me one more time, his voice stern.
"Is that how you really feel?"

"I-uh," Knowing that there is no point in arguing, I sigh, "yes."
Silence creeps up on us. It makes me feel small under Shawn's intense gaze on me. "Shawn, I-I'm so sorry. You shouldn't...you shouldn't have heard that and it was stupid of me to say something like that. I just...I don't know..." I trail off, my voice little.

Before I know it, Shawn is already in front of me, his tall figure towering over my shorter one. He takes my hands into his. I look directly into his hazel orbs, seeing a mixture of emotions floating around his irises.
"Why haven't you told me this before?" he whispers as if his voice is to break soon enough. I swallow deeply.

"I guess I was just afraid to open up to you about how I feel. I was scared that you would think I'm clingy as a wife and that I only want your attention," I speak, my voice gentle as I look down at our entwined hands. After a couple of seconds, his fingers meet my chin and tilt it up so I can look at him. The way his eyes hold so much passion as he continues to stare at me makes my heart swell.

Shawn licks his lips as he starts to lean slowly into me. He captures my lips in a long, passionate kiss, one that speaks the words of his love for me, and my love for him. My arms let themselves hang around his neck as I bring him closer to me. Soon enough, we pull away.

Breathlessly, he says, "Jenny Bernice Wilson-Mendes, you are my precious wife and soon the mother of our little girl or boy, whatever," his statement makes me laugh softly as tears start to form in my eyes.
"But remember one thing: I love you so much, more than anything in this entire world. I love you so much, I wouldn't abandon you for someone else because nobody could ever capture my heart like you did. I love you so much that if I were asked to find another one who's like you, I wouldn't do it because I don't want someone like you, I want you," he pauses for a bit to wipe away my tears that have already fallen from my eyes.
"I'm never leaving you, darling. Never," he concludes.

"Promise?"

He gives me a wholehearted smile, at the same time holding me tightly in his strong arms, as if he's afraid to let me go.
"Promise."

And just like that, he stayed true to his words💛

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This makes me wanna marry him even more tbh