"Charlie leave me alone!" Shawn said as he ate his muffin and walked in his room.
His friend sighed and yelled "you don't have life. C'mon man live!" He just heard a slap of the doors.

Shawn looked through his room window. London rain was falling and his mind flew back to his home.
He missed them so much.
Losing contact was the worst thing of the living.
But one more thing when he went back few months ago no one lived in his house nor house next to him.
Where his childhood friend lived and she was for him more than friend.

Charlie kept writing down in notebook something and he heard knock on the doors.
Getting up he sang softly and happily.

He opened doors and there stood small brunette girl, dressed up casual. Her hair wet from rain eyes looked exhausted and sad.

"Hi" Charlie gave her a warm smile.

Camila stood there and as doors opened she saw a tall boy with cut on his eyebrow.
"Is Shawn living here?" She asked almost chock on her words. Tired of searching for him after so much time.

Charlie looked at he and yelled "Shawn someone is here to see you. It's girl!" She wanted to cry. She finally found him.

She didn't hear a voice, but she saw how boy in front of her rolled his eyes.
"Wait a minute" she nodded and he almost closed the doors.

After minute of waiting and hoping this will be the last minute of total hell.
Of missing him and not able to hear him not see him.

Tall figure opened doors. He has changed hair longer, but face sadder.
His eyes lose the light what they had one and half year ago.

He looked down at smaller familiar girl.
"Shawn" she whispered on the edge of crying. Her bag landed on floor, legs started to shake.
"Ca-Camila" doors opened to the end. Charlie turned around as he heard almost crying voice of Shawn.

She stepped closer trying to touch him but she couldn't. His eyes softened and not waiting for her next step he wrapped his arms around her body, crashing it with his own.

Camila's eyes gripped around his shoulders and back, head in his neck.
Now crying she melted his body.
"Oh my God" her warm breath gave him chills as he felt it on his neck.

Shawn's friend watched at them  confused but he melted as he saw girl crying in his hug.

Tugging on his soft hair she still sobbed.
As they pulled away from hug she looked at his eyes.
They were full of tears, Camila leaned in and kissed his cheek softly two times.

"I missed you so much" she whispered on his skin smelling him. "I missed you too" his arms ran through her wet soft hair.
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Camila sat on sofa, her hair now dry eyes still red from crying but she doesn't care at all now.

She looked down at her hands as she waited for Shawn to bring them tea, his friend Charlie watched at her non stop what was awkward.

"Here" her friend sat next to her and handed a cup. She took it and thanked with smile on her face.

"How - how did you find me?" He asked with shakily voice.

"I'm here one month Shawn, I couldn't give up" She said looking him in the eyes. "I have a notebook where I collected informations about you" she chuckled about what she just said but it's worth it whatever she all have done.

Charlie watched at them two and couldn't believe what she have done just to find him.
And he didn't even know about her, Shawn never talked.

"I'm so sorry Camila" he truthfully said, she shocked her head "no Shawn. It's not your fault. We just lost contact" her lips touched the white mug and hot liquid burned her throat lightly.

"Tell me everything what happened" she whispered.
He took her hand in his and started to talk.
"So after my mum died I needed to go live here to my uncle's and as you know he hates me" she sadly nodded her head.

"I lived with him like 2 months and I needed my money, all luck I found a job because he said he is going somewhere and that I can't live in his home anymore so..." He looked to Charlie.

"I met him and we are now staying together for long time" Camila met Charlie's eyes he gave her a warm smile.

"But I got enough money to go back. When I went in Canada. I got to know that my house is sold and your empty" she nodded her head and opened her mouth to speak.

"My family moved to Madrid, but I went on college in Italy. From day in day I missed you more. I needed to find you" she left a cup on table and rubbed her eyes.

"Shawn you never said anything about her" Charlie finally said something.

"Camila this is Charlie, Charlie, Camila" he said and his female friend just smiled on the older boy.

Charlie chuckled lightly "is she the reason why you are not leaving your room, or just being sad?" Shawn gave him stare. Camila looked at her best friend and saw his face in hurt.

He didn't answer anything.
The truth is

It hurts to lost contact with best friend who was more than that to you, it hurts when you are not home and all alone.
Nights spend crying over that he had no one.
His mother, dad and best friend Camila.
No one was there. He was all alone.

"So it is. Also the reason why he is drinking" death stare was on Shawn's face.

"You started drinking because of me?" Her voice cracked. Shawn sighed and moved look from Charlie to her.

"No Camila not because of you. It is because of everything. I couldn't take it" his hand ran through his hair.
"I may have all streets but I'm all alone, nothing feels like home here" his words cut her deeply in heart.

His pain she felt it too.

"I feel empty, hurt no light in my life" tear slipped down Camila's cheek.
Charlie was shocked by his words.

He knew he was sad but like this. No.

"Even I thought about suicide, I just couldn't take it anymore, all what happened and what's happened in my fucked life" Camila's hand moved on her mouth as she heard words he said.

She started to cry harder all what she did in this point is hugged him, like her life depended on it.

"Oh Shawn" he wrapped his arms around her back. While she hugged him around his neck.

"But I stopped smoking. Remember how much you hated that" she nodded her head in tears.
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Night fell on the London town.
Charlie left with his girlfriend somewhere and Shawn and Camila watched TV on sofa.

Together under the blanket.

"What now?" He asked her she looked at his hurt eyes.

"I'm not leaving Shawn" he smiled but said "what about your college and family?" She shocked her head.

"I'll study here, in London family will understand" he moved her lock from face what had moonlight shades.

"Shawn - you meant to do that? You felt that way" her voice cracked as she followed his fingers moves.

Nodding his head he bit his lower lips. She felt big strength in her heart.

What if she actually lost him? What would she do?

"You're the same as from pictures I have. Same old beautiful Camila" she blushed on his words neither she didn't know why.

"I like your new hair. It's longer and curlier" she complained him while she touched his hair.

Their eyes met and it caused butterflies in her belly to set free from cage.

The room was lighten by the blue-white moonlight from the full starts sky.
Shades threw on their faces so they can see each other in half dark room.

They enjoyed the touch of each others hands across their faces.
Not knowing what she is doing Camila leaned in as she saw how perfect he is.

When their lips brushed their hearts felt fire and water at the same time.
Leaning in more they kissed passionately and with lust.
Eyes closed, moment like this is for remember. Forever.

She pulled away and started to cry.
"What if lost you Shawn?" She brushed her fingers on his lips.

"I blamed myself for not kissing you before. When you left I realized that half of my heart left with you" he closed his eyes and wiped away her tears.

He didn't know what to say more, Shawn pecked her lips two more times with tears in his eyes.

"Now I feel like home. Your arms are my home Mila" she smiled and more tears ran down her cheeks.

"I love you" she whispered and kissed him one more time "I love you too" he hugged her and cuddle down with Camila kissing her head. She rested on him after kissing his jaw her arms wrapped around him.
Never leaving his body, her lips never leaving his.