Changkyun's POV

"Where is your room?" He hissed and I showed him the door. He let go of my neck but it was only so I could unlock the door. We walked in and I was violently pushed against the door. Wonho stared at my face, examining every detail. I expected him to say something, however, when his eyes landed on my lips he smashed them together.

I was pulled once again this time towards the bed. I fell on it and Wonho crawled above me, literally tearing my shirt.

"I thought you didn't want me," I smirked.

"I don't," Wonho hissed and his finger slipped down in the middle of my body. I felt it on my belly button, but he didn't stop, it got closer to the band of my boxers before he slipped it inside. My hard, throbbing for him, cock was the first thing he reached, slowly rubbing the head of it. I gulped, my back arched and I tried to stay still. I wanted this, I needed this and I needed so much more than that. "I want your body," he told me and I gulped.

"Are you fooling me or yourself?" I chuckled but he pressed his finger harder against my tip and it made my voice crack.

"I'm not fooling anyone." Wonho hissed.

"If you only wanted my body you wouldn't be here right now," I told him and closed my eyes, feeling his finger going down.

"And why do you think like that?" I felt his breath on my face so my eyes opened and I tried to focus his face.

"You are too afraid of Sam finding out. You could've easily found someone else to fuck." I mumbled and raised my head to kiss him, however, Wonho didn't let me.

"You forgot the terms of use, or?" He removed his hand and unzipped my pants before pulling them easily through my legs. He did the same with my boxers but I still hadn't answered his question, so he started talking again. "I'm asking you if..."

"I thought they no longer apply," I smirked. "You don't have a..."

"Did I say that they don't apply?" Wonho hissed looking at me.

"N-no," I stuttered. I tried to take a deep breath, but I felt Wonho's hand grabbing my wrists with one of his hands. With the other one, he quickly took off his tie and tied me.

"What the fuck is that?" I asked him and he chuckled.

"It's just to be sure that you're not going to try to touch me."

"Are you fucking serious?" I exclaimed.

"If you don't like it I can leave." I groaned when I heard his low voice in my ear.

"I hate you," I mumbled and heard his chuckle. Then I felt his hands on my legs, opening them.

"You want to tell me someone you hate made you that hard?" Wonho smirked as his palm wrapped slightly around my shart. He started moving it slowly up and down but his movements as well as his grip were making me barely feel anything. He was teasing me right now. I was well aware of that, but my body wanted more. I hadn't even realized when I had started thrusting my hips against his hand, but the next thing I knew was that he used his other hand to pin me against the bed.

"Fuck me already, you stupid piece of emotionless shit!" I yelled and he let go of me. He slowly started unbuttoning his shirt as he let me watch him, knowing that this was going to turn me on even more. This was the biggest teaser I had ever seen and I hated him for that, however, I couldn't deny how much I loved the feelings he was giving me. I took a deep breath. This was the peace before the storm and I knew it very well. Yet, I wasn't aware of what he would do to me in the following hours, but I knew I would like it... And maybe the only reason why I was going to like it was the fact that it was Wonho and I was dying for him.

"Come on, call me a piece of shit again..." His low voice sent shivers down my spine. His hands slowly unwrapped his package and he started walking around the bed. I had no idea what was happening, as I just watched him get closer to me. Before I knew it, his dick filled my mouth. "I dare you to do it again!" Wonho hissed and started fucking my mouth.

My eyes filled with tears. Not because he was hurting me but because I was choking on him and I needed oxygen. Something he wasn't going to give me soon. It was only the second night I was going to spend with this man, yet, I was already amazed by the things I was ready to do only because it was with him. I wasn't going to let anyone treat me the way he was doing, however, I was finding it extremely sexy when Wonho was acting like that.

"Oh, are you crying?" He mumbled with a fake caring voice. "Too bad I'm an emotionless piece of shit and I don't care about these things."

Hearing this I moaned. I fucking moaned! Fuck you, Wonho!

He let go of me and looked at me, probably as surprised as me about what I had done. I was panting heavily, trying to draw in as much air as possible to replenish my oxygen-depleted lungs. He bent closer and smiled.

"Seriously, Changkyun? How far can you go?"

"As much," I breathed in and out, "as you,'' I breathed in and out again, still trying to normalize my breathing, "want me to." I sighed and closed my eyes, letting what was left of my tears slip down my face. "I'm sorry I called you that way," I whispered, being as sincere as I could.

"So now you are sorry..." He whispered. His fingers wrapped around my chin, raising it. "Are you ever thinking before speaking?"

"You are making me lose my mind," I admitted. "How do you expect me to think?"

Wonho chuckled. His hand made its way between my tights and he raised them. He grabbed my ankles and pushed them down to the mattress, causing my tights to press against my chest.

"Don't move!" He ordered me and I felt his finger sliding inside of me. My eyes widened and my mouth opened as a shaky moan came out of it. His face was still close to mine and I could see how much he was enjoying what he was doing to me. He didn't give me time to adjust to his finger, he started moving it fast, and soon he added another, not slowing down even a bit.

"It hurts!" I groaned after a couple of moans were released from my mouth. Wonho chuckled and just continued. He slapped my face, leaving me with an open mouth. The previous year he wasn't acting like that. He was hardcore on me, yes, but he wasn't making me feel like a stupid bitch who was used simply for satisfaction.

"Shut up! I don't care!"

I should've kept my mouth shut because he was going to make sure to let me know that I was a stupid sex toy to him and nothing else. Which, I wasn't going to lie, hurt me. Maybe because I expected that he wanted me too. Not only for my body. I guess I just had high expectations and I shouldn't have.

A third finger was in and I squeezed my eyes, feeling tears forming in them. Even if there was pain I liked what he was doing to my body. I knew he would make me feel good because that was what he did the first time. However, this fact wasn't helping me feel less used.

I gulped, trying to make myself forget about it. I needed to accept this was just a fuck and nothing more. Most probably it was going to be the last time so I really needed to enjoy it.

"I know you're gonna hurt me more if I tell you this. I know that you're drunk and you wouldn't remember at all..." I started talking but the fingers of his free hand slipped in my mouth and I could no longer talk. Then he slowly removed them from there, and his eyes locked with mine.

"Why do you want to talk that much?" Wonho asked me with a calm voice before another finger was added.

"Because I won't be able to tell you this tomorrow when we're sober and I'm afraid I will never see you again!" I hissed and moaned from the pain. He kept on thrusting, four of his fingers inside of me, and stretching my muscles as if there was no tomorrow. "F-fuck!" I yelled and he added his thumb, almost slipping all of his hand inside of me. My eyes got teary and I wanted to push him away. Right after that, I felt the biggest pain in my entire life. His whole fist slipped inside, and when I clenched around his wrist I felt a bit better, my muscles stretched and in pain. I gulped. "Hurt me if you want to, I want you not only because of your body, and your stupid plans to ruin my ass are not going to change that!" I yelled and he pulled his hand out of me, looking at me confused.

"What do you mean?" His voice was rather quiet.

"Isn't it obvious or are you really that dumb?" I rolled my eyes. He didn't like what I called him because his jaw clenched.

"If you plan on acting like that~" He started but I interrupted him.

"I like you, Wonho!" I almost yelled. "Isn't it obvious?!" I inquired but he didn't say anything. He was just staring at my face. "Just... forget what I said. It doesn't matter..."

"Is this why you made sure I was drunk last time?" He whispered. This was the most ridiculous moment, in which I was confessing my feelings to someone. And I felt ashamed and vulnerable because of that. I took a deep breath, trying to think of what to say. He let go of me and my eyes followed him as he approached the window. The curtains were down and he couldn't see anything if he didn't separate them from one another. So he did it, his naked body being exposed.

"I told you to forget what I said!" I yelled, feeling empty and even though the pain was slowly fading away, I needed him. I wanted him and I wanted to be with him so badly.

"This is why you wanted me to..." He mumbled. "You wanted me to break up with him. 'Cuz you liked me..." Wonho whispered after a few moments of silence.

Changkyun, this was the stupidest thing you've ever done!

"Shut up, Wonho!" I hissed, looking away from him.

"Since when?" He whispered after a while.

"Can we sto~"

"Since when, Changkyun?" Wonho cut my words off and I sighed.

"I don't know," I shrugged and looked at his back. His massive, muscular, sexy back. Changkyun, that's not the right time! "Every year I would see you and think how much sexier you've gotten for the past twelve months and I would want you more and more. I thought maybe this was because you were just... Hella sexy... but then I would go home and the only thing I could think about was you and basically count the days until I would see you." I blurted all at once, while he was still standing next to the window, not moving even a bit.

I gulped. So he wasn't going to say anything? 

"I... I know you don't like me that way, I understand it. Let's just... forget about what I said and fuck." I sighed. I didn't know how I was going to do it but I had to. I had to let go of the idea of having him next to me. And I had to start living, I had to move on. Something I didn't succeed in the last time I tried.

"If I say I don't like you, I would lie. But at the same time, I've never thought about this as something more than just sex, and I..." He slowly turned around. "Why did you let me do everything I did?"

"I have no idea. I like it. No matter what you do to me, whether you're gentle or not... I just like it when I'm with you and I like you." I whispered, sitting up and crossing my legs. "I would never let anyone do any of that to me," I confessed and looked away.

"But you let me? Why would you?" Wonho's eyes were literally digging holes inside of me.

"Because I like you, Wonho! I already told you."

"But we can't and you know that!" He told me and I groaned. "Don't act like a child, Changkyun."

"I am not." I hissed. I just wanted to feel him close.

"You are not just someone! You are not just a bitch or one of the stupid dancers like Hyungwon. You are a capo. One of the top ones and you are in Sam's closest circle of people. Do you realize we can't be doing that? Any of that!" Wonho started walking around the room, collecting his clothes and starting to put them on. "I signed a contract and so did you," he hissed. "We should stop." He finalized as he stopped and looked at me, almost fully clothed. "Give me my tie!" He hissed. I raised my hands, tied with it, and arched an eyebrow.

"And how? I had no idea that a man with your build would be that much of a coward..."

"What do you want me to do?" He asked, approaching me. His hands started untying me, but when he was close I took the chance to raise a bit and kiss him. Surprisingly, this time he grabbed my chin and kissed me back.

"Just stay," I whispered, millimeters away from his face.

"Changkyun..." Wonho sighed but I wasn't going to let him win. Not this time.

"Come on... You don't want to be with me because of your contract? Fine! You don't want to fuck me because of your contract? Fine! But does your contract say you can't sleep in one bed with me?" I inquired and watched as he rolled his eyes to the side and he sighed.

"Well, technically no..."

"Then stay!" I cupped his face, not letting him get away from me.

"It will be better if I go." He whispered but I shook my head.

"No! Stay!" I insisted and kissed him again, hoping that this might make him change his mind.

"I should..." He whispered, but I sighed.

"I'm not going to stop you," I said as my hands slowly let go of him. He started putting his tie on, looking at me on the bed, naked and abused.