LISA

Walking back to Jennie's suit made me feel a daze inside my heart. Everything inside of me shrieked with the woman walking beside me. Everything about her marks my heart as hers. All of a sudden, my eyes trailed to her sideways. My hands wanted to reach for her hand and to maybe hold her like there was hope for us in the mere future. But it all came crashing down to my hopeful eyes.

Jennie used her card key as the door clicked, opening slowly as she let me in.

I licked my lips and sealed through the big living room. All tidy and clean as every hotel service, occupied to those rooms.

"So what's your plan for the day?". I asked and plopped on the huge, soft sofa.

"Oh, I don't know. It seemed to me that you already had plans Lisa-ya". Jennie quirked her words and trailed one of her hands on the kitchen island, meanwhile the other one was softly caressing her locks.

"Plans? With who?". Confusion portrayed me.

"Sehun, don't you have his number? It seemed to me like you both were on some ideal, plans". The woman then walked slowly, to sit next to me, as her hair caressed her face like a mad maniac.

"He's just a friend-".

Jennie cut me off, "A friend? He has been eyeing you like a freak out there Lisa!".

"I don't understand Jennie".

"What don't you understand Lisa..?". Jennie's eyes met mine once I started to fuel up with the same irritation she was, all of a sudden feeling.

"You are speaking nonsense". I got up from the couch but then the stubborn woman, grabbed my wrist to face her while standing up as well.

"All I'm speaking is sense Lisa. I don't want you to get hurt by anyone". Sincerity appeared in Jennie's eyes as she spoke, but I felt the pity. All of the emotions of caring didn't affect the hurt inside my heart by her voice, "I don't want him to date you - and then break your heart as if you mean nothing-".

I pushed her hand away from mine slowly, feeling my fingers touch her soft skin, made me crumble with her welcoming eyes.

"Jennie, you should understand that no one was able to break my heart as you did".

The blunt woman's eyes then poked to the side as I spoke, "Jennie.. fun doesn't hurt. But what hurts is my feelings. My dumb heart..".

Her eyes snapped back to meet my teary ones, and pain could just come back, just like that.

"W-what do you mean your feelings?".

"It's just I-". Her phone's ringtone came off short, cutting me off from whatever I was tending to say to the older one.

Jennie took a deep shaky breath before answering. "H-hello".

Her eyebrows then etched together as she rubbed the place in between them, "Yeah, I've texted you about meeting up".

She then giggled, "Yeah babe, you are in Paris though, so that we will make for that up". Jennie turned her gaze to my well-built expression before speaking again, "But are you up for it?".

Once hearing the pet name, that belonged to her only existing lover, my whole body shivered with her words and pierced eyes.

"Okay, I will meet you there. Goodbye". She hung up after her small encounter on the phone with a smile.

This what truly makes me mad - sad and hurt. Jennie literally gets mad over me having a guy friend than actually seeing my obvious feelings for her. So blunt and harsh, for reality to come up with the idea of loving someone from a distance.

I pulled myself together and tried to maintain a simple smile. The one that screamed away from the mystery of the void inside my heart.

Jennie moved to her room, and then called for me. "Ugh, Lisa help". I sighed and walked to her huge room. She was somehow struggling with unzipping the marketed dress.

Jennie pulled a sweater to the side and then tried to unzip the rest of her dress, which didn't budge by her weak hand moments.

I ignored my heart rate and pushed my feelings to the side. Before moving behind her back. A huge mirror then reflected our picture as I stared at us. Eye to eye - meeting and syncing on our vivid frame.

Jennie's eyes trailed against mine as I sadly looked away.

"I'm going to meet up with Kai..". She confessed.

I slightly nodded at the view of her face before looking away and actually doing the job at hand. My hand slowly reached for the zipper, igniting our skin together with a huge sigh. I slowly undressed her by my eyes.

Her skin was soft - so delicate yet full of secrets.

Is this the Jennie I grew up to remember? The small Jennie that was scared of riding away in my bicycle, in the fear of the simple movement of the wind's hustle. Did she leave all of that behind?

Once the dress was fully unzipped, I felt my heart thump once my finger touched her bareback. My eyes slowly trickling to the Jennie on the mirror - she looked so scared. She was terrified of the simple touch of someone having her, so how did she let him have her?

"All done..". I whispered against her skin. She bit her lower lip and closed her eyes for a second.

If I wasn't so hurt, I would've found that the sexiest thing in the world. But my heart wasn't fonder of any physical treatment without any full base of feelings.

I patted her shoulder before trying to leave, but once again. Her soft voice stopped me. "W-where are you going, Lisa?".

Without looking behind my back- I faintly answered the blunt woman that I love. "Somewhere where my presence is wanted, Jen".

-

Jennie

'Mind and soul, keep your mind connected with your soul as your heart chooses'. My mom's words tumbled through my head as I started to think about the other girl.

Lisa..why has she been acting weird lately?

And her simple gesture pushed me into a weird daze. It was a feeling I couldn't bid or engrave yet. But it was there.

I sighed and pushed my heart away before entering the coffee shop.

Kai's figure was sitting across the corner, sipping coffee and looking around aimlessly as I moved and marked my way slowly to him.

"Hey there babe". He said once I was in front of him.

I smiled softly, "Hey, to you too".

"I've missed you". He then embraced me in a hug while rubbing my back.

I pulled back and gave him a sweet smile before sitting down in front of him. Kai looked at me with a worried expression, "Are you okay?".

"Yeah it's just.. we have to talk".

"Sure, I'm all ears". He smiled as I started to rant to him about my situation and topic, while he listened closely - and paid attention to every single word like the great listener he is.

-

LISA

I shivered against the cold weather and saw his familiar figure on the sideway. The wind has shuffled me into the streets, as I went to my new company with all of the hurt on my back.

"Hello there". Sehun's bright voice beamed at my startled one.

"Hey Sehun, how are you doing there pal?". He gave me a side hug and walked with me along the streets to where the night was carrying us.

"I'm good since you're here, but what about you? You look sad". He encouraged with a frown and stopped in his tracks.

"Work and—". He smiled before stopping me, "Jennie right?".

"W-what?". I gulped hard as he held his smile in a knowing manner.

"Come, we will talk about it". Sehun then led me into a club, before pushing a chair next to him so I can sit next to his curious eyes.

The bartender smiled once we were in her sight, "What would you like to drink?".

"Whisky please". I bluntly answered, looking away as Sehun sadly nodded and pointed with his fingers - intoxicating two cups to the patient bartender.

"So what's up? What got you all sad with Ruby?". He leaned into the table in front of him and looked at me in a worried manner.

I smiled once the bartender gave me a cup, full of whiskey and it's numbing taste. I sipped my cup slowly and blinked the pain away, straightening my eyes to the man from beside me.

"If I told you..I love that girl, would you be surprised?".

Sehun shrugged his head with a smile, "I don't think I would ever be surprised, since I've seen the look in your eyes when she was there".

"At the show earlier..". I started by taking a huge gulp from the undefinable taste of the liquor. "Jennie had this weird mood swing that made me believe, that maybe for once she loved me Sehun".

"It would seem all stupid to fall in love with your bestie, and from a young age".

Sehun sighed and took a small sip of his whisky, probably more engaged in my lame rambling than the liquor.

"We were only 10 when we parted ways..". The pain started to crawl back into the weak spot inside my heart.

"Just forget it..". I tried to get up but felt all dizzy, "Woah, Woah. Slow down, where are you going?". Sehun leaned closer to me so I don't fall on the solid ground in front of everyone. But I was into so deep, that I already feel myself falling harder to the other woman.

"I want to dance this night away". I whispered and tried to maintain a smile through the unbearable pain.

I yanked Sehun by his jacket towards the dance floor, feeling the music lift me up and then slowly push me back into the reality I've consumed to try to numb.

-

"Okay, that's too much dancing. I need to get in shape". Sehun joked around and grabbed my wrist away from the dance floor.

I whined, "Please, I wanna dance more".

"No, we are done dancing". He commanded as I sadly looked in between the crowd of people.

"But I know what will make you feel better". He smirked and pulled me into the stairs as I clumsily followed him.

Pushing past the couple on the stairs, he then opened a door that led to the rooftop.

I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion, "Are you trying to murder me Sehun? Please don't, I'm too young to die right now. I-I love my mom and—". His laugh stopped me from rambling.

"Who said I'm going to murder you? I just want to help". He pushed me closer to him as we walked towards the end of the rooftop.

"Help? Pushing me from the rooftop, I'm sure won't help yah Oppa".

Sehun chuckled and sat down, pulling me closer to him. "You're so warm". I giggled.

"I probably can't warm you up since you're in love with someone else". He gave me a short smirk as I smacked his shoulder playfully.

"But anyway, do you like the view?". The guy from beside me then turned towards the sight in front of us, seriously.

I turned my head slowly to look at the fascinating, warm - night view.

The sight of the Eiffel Tower made my whole body shiver up against the cold weather. It was all seen under my eyes. The creamy, dark sky, that hugged away the wind under this beautiful scene. "So beautiful..".

"But do you know what would be more beautiful?". He turned his gaze to me with a warm smile.

I hummed as he spoke, "Confessing your feelings for the one you love Lisa". His simple sentence made me feel soberer than the drunk mess I am.

"This is the city of love, we don't get the chance twice when we're in love". He switched his gaze to the sight in view.

"Confess, wait and then move on". I leaned my head in his shoulder and giggled, "Seems like you are more experienced with love".

"Well, I've had my heart broken a few times, so that says for itself I guess".

I crossed my arms, and felt the shadow of negativity come back and hunt me down the drain, "What if she doesn't love me back Sehun? What if I was wrong all along about her?".

He started to rub circles around my shoulder as I let my anxiety corrupt from underneath my skin. "I don't want to ruin our friendship for simply being in love with her Sehun, I-I really don't". Tears followed my eyes as I stared at the uncertain night view.

"If you don't confess, then you're choosing to kill yourself than for her to actually understand your feelings, Lisa". Sehun's wise words started to push away my anxiety.

His hand then soothed my hair as I cried into his shoulder, "Give it a go, and if things don't work out. I promise, I will be here for you".

I leaned my head back with a smile, wiping my eyes before looking back at him. "T-thank you".

"Feeling better?". His bright smile embraced me.

I nodded as he pushed me back to his shoulder, "Just give yourself a chance to love and at the same time to heal".

"But Jennie is my only healing Sehun..".

"Then give yourself a chance to freely love her Lisa. If she truly shares the same emotions, then she will sacrifice everything for you".

How words can make a big difference, but still confuse your heart for beating around time's vivid image of your feelings for that certain someone.

'She will sacrifice everything for you'.

But will Jennie really do it for me?