i really ain't shit.

& then these chapters b bogus asl so idk why i b takin so damn long.

(excuse all mistakes.)

Compton, California 📍

Kamiri Al'Malik Baker | KB

"You always doing stupid shit. Damn." I looked at myself in the mirror. We left the hospital a good hour ago and we were all at DaeDae's house.

Well everybody but DaeDae.

ion like his bitch but i hope my boy good.

I was still feeling a lil weird bout how I broke shit off with Vadah.

I don't even know why I did that.

I honestly don't know why I do half the shit I do.

I wanna say because it be impulsive but ion even know what that shit mean. I just heard my grandma using the word a couple of times.

It was just that everyday, my feelings for this girl grew stronger and fucking stronger.

I knew I was fucked up when I wanted to kill everybody in that damn hospital room.

Specially her stupid, hating ass sister.

I shoulda offed that bitch.

I got abandonment issues and I feel myself getting attached to this girl.

I know she say she ain't gone leave me but I can't help but think otherwise.

So I just made a problem out of nothing, pushing her away before she can leave me, giving me control over the whole situation.

I don't give a fuck who thought it was stupid. I wish there was a different way but this was the only way for me. My way. This was how I coped.

This was how I dealt with every situation.

Sighing, I flicked the light off and walked out of the bathroom, making my way to the dining room where everyone was at.

"Don't touch me no more! Do it again, Imma rock yo world in this motherfucker!" Squirrel bucked at Chauncey.

"So rock it." The phone sat on the island as they made a dubsmash.

"Both of y'all childish as hell." Daja shook her head.

"Im tired of yo grumpy ass." Chauncey mugged her.

"How old are you?" Aub chuckled and asked.

"I'm so tired of everybody asking me that." He huffed, flinging his arms around.

"Nigga 21 acting 12." Daja rolled her eyes.

"Chill on my uncle." Nay laughed.

"How the hell is y'all laughing? I'm so confused. Both of your sisters laid up in the hospital right now."

"Okay girl what the fuck you want us to do? Go get them?"

"Shut the fuck up. You get on my nerves." She rolled her eyes.

"You doing all this and you was there. Fuck you seen?" I finally spoke up making everybody go silent.

"There was two dudes with masks on and a girl." Nay looked over at me.

"Any of em looked familiar?"

"No. The girl didn't have a mask on but she was lightskinned with a big curly poof to the side. Uh... Mymy. That's what one of the dudes called her." Nay nodded.

"Mymy?" Marv cocked his head to the side and looked at me.

"Mymy." Moriah mocked him and started cracking up.

"Shush." Tiggy shushed her.

"Fuck you!" She exclaimed.

"Don't say that! Damn, get on my fucking nerves." Tiggy frowned at her making them all bust out laughing.

Aub stood up and grabbed Tiggy's hand, then walked over to Moriah and reached for her. "Imma just take them."

Her lil bad ass was always smiling.

"Damn. Mym-" I cut Pj off, letting out a big humorless laugh.

Nodding, I unlocked my phone scrolling through my contacts.

"He scaring me." Squirrel furrowed his eyebrows.

"That's her bro?" Marv asked.

"Mhm." I hummed, looking for this bitch number.

"Wow." Los stood up. "I knew it as soon as you said that shit."

"So what we doing?" Freaky punched his right fist into his left palm. "You know I'm on whatever you on."

"We gotta move smart." Marv said.

"Fuck allat moving smart shit." I clicked on ol' girl number.

"KB chill cuh. If you text her, she gone know you know." Tonio explained.

I stopped typing and looked up at him because he was making sense. "So what we gone do?"

"We can always send one of us after her." Freaky licked his lips.

"Shut up lil thirsty. She know who KB be with. That's easy."

"So send Squirrel."

"Fuck no." Nay and Daja said at the same time.

"She ain't gone want me, my teeth too big." He shook his head making them bust out laughing.

"Long as you know bitch." Tonio nodded.

"I'm so sick of you and yo cousin. Y'all so fuckin rude to me." He stood up.

"I'm just stating facts." He shrugged.

"In these Fendi slacks." Nay danced in her seat.

"Alright, y'all ain't gone learn till I start bussin rounds through this BITCH!" He yelled.

"FOOMP, FOOMP, FOOMP!" Chauncey made a gun with his fingers and puffed his chest.

"Who the fuck you gone bust rounds at?" Tonio looked at him crazy. "Knock you in yo shit."

"Who you gone knock in they shit?" Squirrel asked in the same tone.

"Boom boom, boom boom boom. Knock yo dumb ass out." Chauncey jumped and pointed with every word.

"Who the fuck y'all gone knock out?"

"Squirrel get a lil sidekick and lose his top." Pj chuckled.

"Pj just mad cause we used to be close." Squirrel looked back and spoke to Chauncey. "He want me back but it's okay cause it's enough me to go round."

"Who the fuck is mad?" He frowned.

"Youu!" They laughed at his ass.

"Soulja boy tell em." Chauncey and Squirrel sung in unison.

sorry y'all im so bored LMFAOOO.

"Y'all play too fuckin much." Daja rolled her eyes. "Tell me who the bitch is. I'll beat her ass my damn self."

"Aye. I was thinking." Los spoke up after being quiet this whole time. "Why we don't send Chauncey?

"That's smartttt. She don't know bout him." Nay pointed out.

"But Chauncey so slow he gone say something stupid." Daja added.

"Shut up ian gone say nothing stupid."

"Wait we doing this over time o-"

"Fuck no. I want this bitch dead today." I spoke up cutting Pj off.

"Who the girl man? Ian talkin to no ugly bitches."

"She ain't ugly cuh. Her Instagram is underscore S-A-"

♛

"Where this bitch at yo?" I frowned, turning the corner, looking around for this bitch from the front seat.

"I hope Chauncey ain't doing nothing dumb." Tonio sighed.

"Man ian think the hoe a be this airheaded." Los shook his head. "Nigga flash some money in her face and her legs wide open. Fake ass city girls."

"These hoes a do anything for the dick. Just sadddd." Squirrel shook his head.

"Why the fuck you even came?" I looked back at him.

"Why you being mean? I can't go places now?"

"You'on needa be around." I mugged him.

"Dawg I'm tryna help out. That's my big sis." He frowned.

"It don't matter, find another way to help. Should've stayed at the hospital with her ass."

"Oka-"

"Squirrel just stop. You already know he ain't in his right mind."

"Bitch my mind right. Shut up." I frowned at Kris and turned back around to the front, looking out the window.

It got quiet in the car and we all sat in silence. No music or nothing.

Personally, I hated the shit. Music could take my mind away from everything I was thinking.

I just couldn't help but think this shit was my fault. That everything fell back on me.

Okay yeah I wasn't there but she my lady. If I'm not able to protect her, what the fuck am I here for?

Bitches who didn't even know who she was, want her head all cause of me.

Now she was laid up in the hospital with a slit down her damn stomach.

Couldn't nobody tell me it wasn't my fault.

"Baby lock them doors and turn the lights dow-"

"Squirrel shut the fuck up." They said in unison.

"Okay."

"Man what's taking this nigga so long?" Los huffed.

"Cuh gotta bust the cheeks for she die." Squirrel bust out laughing. "KB you bust the cheeks?

I poked my tongue into my cheek, trying to keep from laughing. I couldn't stand Squirrel but the lil nigga knew he was funny.

"You know he did. He ain't gone admit it tho. He claim he being loyal."

"Cus he is. He better not be cheating on Lil Baby."

i'd never.

"We ain't even together no more."

"Waaaaa? The relationship ain't last shit but a day. She even get to brag on you yet?"

"Nope. Nigga cut it off before she could. Commitment shy ass nigga." Tonio was always talking shit.

"Bitch shutup that's not even what happened." I mugged him.

"So what happened?"

"Nothing nosy ass." I rolled my eyes, not wanting to think about it.

"I'm telling y'all what happened. He hate for me to be right but I know the real. He found a reason to cut her off so he ain't have to talk to her no more."

"Tonio g." I closed my eyes.

"KB you gotta stop pushing people away just cause you feel like they gone leave you. That's selfish as fuck. You took that girl virginity. How you think that left her feeling?"

I hated when Tonio started talking cause that bitch always made me think. He swore he was a preacher.

"Yeah g you being inconsiderate."

And here came Marv dick sucking ass.

Shrugging, I ignored him stubbornly and looked out the window. I was tryna protect myself, I wasn't thinking bout nobody else feelings.

I done been hurt before, that ain't no feeling I'm tryna feel again.

That's another reason I hated that relationship shit. You ain't just thinking bout you for yourself. You thinking bout how somebody else gone feel bout yo actions.

"He grown cuh. Let em make his own decisions. He gone learn, that's how life go." Los always weighed us out.

"We can take a ride on my big green tractor." And then you had this retard. Squirrel was just plain random and stupid as hell.

"Squirrel shut yo ass up." Pj groaned.

"Damn can we get some radio up in this bitch?"

"Brah y'all shutup. There they go right there." I sat up seeing them come out her house.

Samaiyah was fixing her skirt and Chauncey had a fat ass smile on his face.

"I do not like this man." Los bust out laughing.

"He a fucking clown."

"I just wanna get out this car and bash her fuckin head in the concrete." I gritted.

"Things just got really dark."

"Come on follow them K. Or you not okay to drive?"

"I got it." I slowly trailed behind Chauncey's car.

"Wait where he agreed to take her?"

"Richard's."

"The fuck?! That expensive ass restaurant. Why the fuck he finna spend all that money on a bitch that's finna die? My twin posta be smarter than that."

"He not taking her inside dickhead." Pj looked at him.

"Talk to me nice or don't talk to me at all thanks."

"I would've took her ass to the beach." Freaky spoke up.

"Thats smart. We can kill her out there." Squirrel snapped.

"You ain't killing no fucking body." I rolled my eyes at his stupid ass.

"Why not?" He pouted. "I thought we was finna shoot, shoot these bitches."

"We is. You not." Kris snorted.

"Wow. Y'all do me so wrong."

I followed behind Chauncey, tuning them out. The restaurant was pretty When we finally got to the restaurant, I parked the truck in the back, a good two parking spaces away from them.

"We bout to have a stake out? Cause if so, we can just go get some food from in-"

"Stake out my ass. Pass me that rag, them gloves, that mask, and that chloroform." I spoke to Pj who was the closest to it and cut the car off.

Once he handed it over, I put the gloves on and put the mask on my face, then opened my car door instantly drenching the rag with the chemical.

"Man why the hell you putting so much?" Tonio grew alert, grabbing my shoulder.

"He tryna kill the bitch duh."

"Move around." I shrugged him off of me. "If ion put a lot, it's gone take longer for her ass to knock out. I know what I'm doing. Shut up."

I looked up when I seen Samaiyah and Chauncey finally get out his car making me get out my truck.

Closing the door behind me gently, I snuck up behind her and spinned her towards me. I nodded at Chauncey, giving him the ok to go back to his car.

The look of horror on Samaiyah's face made me smile. Just as she went to say something to me, I placed the drenched chloroform rag over her mouth, causing her to instantly pass out.

I picked her up before she could fall and slung her over my shoulder.

"Open the trunk." I spoke before walking towards the back of the car.

"Grab the handle." Squirrel spoke from the inside.

I threw her bobblehead ass in there, not caring how she was situated.

"So go to this address you just sent me?" Chauncey's voice came through Squirrel's phone.

"Yeah. Meet us there." I cut the car on and swerved out the parking lot.

♛

"Do it Squirrel damn! You wanted to come!" Marv pushed Squirrel.

"No! I'm just here for moral support." He furrowed his eyebrows, looking taken aback.

"Just do it Marv." Pj sighed.

"Ian hitting no female." He shook his head. "Chauncey you do it."

"Who finna do what? Ion even go here."

Sucking my teeth, I raised up off the wall and walked over to the middle of the room where they were standing.

"Awh shit. He finna wake her up just to knock her ass back out." Squirrel shook his head and walked off.

I cocked my hand back and slapped fie from her, making her gasp all dramatically waking up.

"Where am I?! Where am I?! Help" She moved wildly.

"Shutup bitch." I punched her again.

"Is he good?" I heard squirrel whisper.

"HELP!" She tried to move her hands but stopped realizing she was restrained. "RELEASE ME!"

"Why she talking like she from the 1300s?"

"Squirrel at this point just get out." I couldn't beat this bitch up how I wanted to with him in here.

"Wait why? Im sorry I'mma shutup now foreal." He whined.

"KB please."

"Bitch fuck you." I scrunched my face up at her ass. "What, you envious now? You beating and cutting my shorty now? Thats how you coming? You like that now?"

"I-"

"Aht aht. Ion even wanna hear it." I shook my head walking away from her to a near table.

"Yo lil ass fooled me on hood." I chuckled picking up some pliers. "I thought you was sweet."

"KB I pr-"

"Bitch didn't I just say shut up? Shut yo ass up."

The room was so quiet you could hear a pin drop.

I grabbed one of the knives on the table, one of my favorite knives actually.

"Daja!" I shouted, cleaning it off.

She can in Nay not too far behind her.

"There you go." I nodded towards Samaiyah.

"Untie her. I want my fair ones."

"They finna beat her ass." Freaky shook his head. "I hate to see it."

After Pj and Marv helped untie her, Samaiyah threw her set up and Daja started throwing quick ones.

"Daja fight like a lil ass boy." Pj scrunched his face up.

could teach vadah a lil some some.

"That shit sexy." Freaky licked his lips making them all look at him with scrunched up faces.

"Thirsty ass."

Daja stuck her right leg in between Samaiyah's legs and tripped her up making her lose her balance and fall back.

Samaiyah kept trying to grab her hair and ion know what Daja had going on up under that beanie, but it won't pretty.

"Sorry ass bitch!" Suddenly, Daja pulled out a knife and just started stabbing ole girl.

"AHHHH! Get her off of me!"

"Daja! Chilllll!" Los immediately ran over to her and grabbed her up.

"I'll kill that bitch!" Los dragged her out the basement.

"Even though she stabbed all up, can I still get my rounds?" Nay asked.

"Man no." I shook my head cause Daja was fuckin me up. She won't posta stab her. I was. That was my damn job.

I ignored them irritability and walked over to Samaiyah, picking her up and throwing her in the chair.

"I know you ain't did all this by yourself. You was with two niggas. I want names."

"I don't kn-"

"Aht aht. Bitch I got weapons, I advise you to tread lightly." I held up the pliers. "For every lie you tell, a tooth gettin pulled."

I crouched down to her level. "If I even feel like you lying to me."

"KB." She whimpered. "Please."

"Who you was with shorty?" I slid the knife down her face slowly cutting her.

"Damn you'on think I'm losing enough blood?" She cried out.

"Bitchhh." Chauncey and Squirrel bust out laughing.

"Just tell me who you was with. That's all a nigga wanna know."

"I'm telling you I don't know them." She cried.

"So they just held you at gun point and told you to rob and stab my girlfriend?" I forced her jaw open.

"No— Ca—" Unknown words spilled from her mouth as I stuck the pliers in her mouth and pulled a tooth. That fat ass front one to be exact.

Blood poured from the tooth I pulled and filled up her mouth as she screamed in agony.

"Spit it out." I smiled in satisfaction.

She spat and looked at me in horror. "KB I only knew one of the dudes. The other one—"

Shaking my head I pulled another one roughly, this time getting that lil sharp tooth on the side.

She continued to scream, her cries not making me feel an ounce of sympathy. Ian care.

"KB you gotta believe me! I only knew one of the guys!"

"Oh my God bitch do you learn?" Squirrel cut her off and slapped his thigh. "Just be real so he'on gotta pull out another one of yo teefis."

"Don't tell her none." I smirked and picked up the knife.

I slit her across her stomach. The same way she slit Vadah.

"Please." She started to hyperventilate. "I'm losing too much blood!"

"Bitch you finna die anyway." I stood up and pulled my gun from my waist.

"Wait! If I tell you, will you get me medical help? I'll tell you, please just don't kill me." She tried to reason with me.

I lowered my gun slowly, looking her bloody ass over.

"KB nigga what you doing?" Freaky asked in a hushed whisper.

I ignored him and continued to stare at her
"You said you only knew one of them. Who was the nigga?"

"Promise you won't kill m—"

"Bitch WHO?!" I raised my voice making her jump.

It went quiet before she decided to speak up.

"Esco." My heart dropped when she said that and it immediately clicked.

Nasiah.

I shook my head and emptied my clip, ridding her body with bullets.

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if you already knew it was nasiah, 🖕🏾 you.

i hate being predictable, y'all wasn't supposed to knowwwww. 😂😩

some stuff in this chapter was so dumb like ugh, i do and think of stupid ass shit.

is it all over the place? y'all get it? anything i needa clear up?

oh and what y'all b saying? (vuh•dah), (vay•duh),(vah•duh)???