"I done made sacrifices, so many sacrifices
I done gave up so much free time knowing time ain't free
Fuck it I sacrificed it
My girl show me love, she know I made sacrifices
And if it's real real love then you make sacrifices
To get ahead man you gotta make sacrifices
Fuck it though that's how hungry my appetite is"

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Chapter 60: sacrifices

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|Odell|🐻

I just looked at Ari....

"Hello" she said, "did you hear what i just said?"

"Yeah" i said, "but why you acting like this, why you saying all of this shit"

She took a deep breath...

"It's not just me that said that shit, your own baby mama said it" she said, "she asked me to ask you if you can do it, i really wasn't tryna to do this because you seemed like you really wanted to be a good dad to this baby, not only that she told me.. that she might have fucked someone as well also before fucking you"

I just looked at Ariana as she said those things...

I don't know whether to go back to the hospital cuss her out or just fucking smash the place

Because i ain't too happy about this information that's been given to me...

I just decided to count to ten because this shit is blowing me...

"Baby" Ariana said..

I continued counting to ten...

I felt her hand touch my shoulder...

"You okay?" She asked me...

I just nodded not trying to talk because what i might say...

Might shock her...

I finished counting to ten, and i felt calm... i'm still angry but i'm more calm now..

"So what's gonna happen now?" She asked me

And then, i became pissed again, not at Ari but at the whole fucking situation...

"First of, i'm gonna go to my lawyer right now" i said getting off the counter...

She followed me shortly after and blocked the door..

"Ari, move" i said

"Okay wait baby, just calm down" she said..

"CALM DOWN?!?!, THIS BITCH MADE MY LIFE A LIVING HELL AND YOU TELLING ME I HAVE TO CALM DOWN" I exclaimed, "nah fuck that shit move"

I pushed Ari out of my way...

And she landed on the floor...

Fuck Man

That wasn't suppose to happen...

She looked up and looked like she saw a ghost

"Baby, i..." i spoke up..

"Just Go..." she whispered

"No Ari, i really just want to...." i said

I didn't mean to push her that hard...

"JUST FUCKING GO" she exclaimed..

I really didn't want to make the matter worse..

So i left, i went inside the car...

"FUCK" i screamed...

My world is being flipped and i don't like it...

I pulled out my phone and went to into a group chat that i had with my boys...

I simply texted

Meet me at the bar... i need to talk to someone...

I started my car and drove off...

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"Your life sounds like a fucking movie" Ben said taking a hit from his blunt

It's just me, ben and Druski...

Jarvis is at home with his wife, so he couldn't be all out with us...

"I have to agree with ben on this one because this shit is beyond me" Druski said...

"Not only that, I pushed Ari" i said

The boys just looked at me

"What?" I asked

"Did you push her on accident or you just pushed her" ben asked

"It was an accident" i said, "this shit got me acting all out and i hate it"

I've never been the type to put their hands on a woman, i don't even put my hands on my mom, my sister or anybody

So seeing how i just pushed Ari like that, made me sick to my stomach

My anger is getting to the best of me and i hate it...

"Listen bro, i just think you should go talk to your lawyers tomorrow morning about this whole situation i can see it got you spiraling out of control" Ben said...

"Yeah bro, you should go to your lawyer bro and just talk to him about what's going on with everything" Jarvis said...

"Yeah, i needed this talk, thanks guys" I said

"you welcome" ben and Druski said in unison..

And with that i left the bar...

I hope Ari is okay...

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I got inside the house and saw bags by the stairs...

Oh shit...

I looked up to see Ari walking down the stairs..

"Woah, where you going?" I asked her

"I'm leaving" she said...

"You leaving?, nah you not" i said taking her bags up the stairs...

"Yes i am, give me my fucking bag" Ari said

I could see she's still pissed about the push...

"Listen Ari, i'm so sorry about the push, i didn't even mean to push you like that" i said..

I really didn't mean to push her at all...

Just my anger got the best of me and i've had episodes when i was a teen and before i got drafted...

Trust me... they weren't pretty...

"Odell, just let me leave please" Ariana said...

"No, we need to talk about this.. i'm not letting you leave until we talk about this please" i said...

Ari put down her things....

"The only reason, why i'm still pissed about the push is because that shit triggered me because of my past.."

Immediately she started crying...

Holy shit

I just hugged her...

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|Ariana|💕

I hate how i'm going through the motions because of the baby and everything else...

I knew Odell was angry and he didn't mean to push me like that...

But that push triggered a memory, i thought i had forgotten for so long

Flashback - Tw: Domestic violence, Rape

Ariana Fletcher was hiding in the bathroom..

Her Ex boyfriend Rick came to her house and is having another episode

Yeah... that episode...

He was drunk as usual..

"Yo Ari" Rick slurred his words, "where you at"

Ariana didn't say a word as she was in the bathroom just hiding from her crazy abusive ex boyfriend...

Rick has been beating on Ari for the longest and to add on to that...

She hasn't been telling her friends the truth...

She been telling her friends that they good but to be quite frank...

Eventually she heard the door unlock...

Ariana was quick on her feet, preparing herself for the fucking worst...

The door swung open..

"Here you are you slutty bitch" Rick said, "come here"

Ariana was trying to escape but a las, that didn't work...

Rick pulled her in the room and threw her on the floor..

He took off her pants and panties...

"GET OFF OF ME" Ariana exclaimed..

She really dreaded this moment and she hated what was about to happen next..

"Shut the fuck up, you were busy talking to that Herbert nigga" he said taking off his pants, "i'm gonna show you who you belong to?"

Eventually he got on top of her and Ari was fighting to get him off

He punched her in the mouth

"Stop being so difficult" Rick said

He put his dick in forcefully this time...

"STOP" Ariana Cried out, "Please stop"

He punched her Again letting her know to shut up...

She kept quiet and the tears started rolling down her face..

Flashback over

Rick fucked me up in the worse way and i mean, the worse way...

He mentally and physically abused me..

I eventually left him for Herbert and you can see how that turned out...

I hate how one push triggered this emotion...

"Baby, i'm sorry about that, i promise, i'd never do it again" he said, "even on my mom's life, i won't do that shit"

"I know you won't do it again" i said..

He gave me a kiss on the forehead

"I love you and i'm sorry about what i did" he said...

"It's okay" i said, "i think i should go and see someone"

"What you mean?" He asked me taking the bags...

"I think i should see a therapist or something"
I said, "just by myself"

I know it sounds crazy but i think this should help me..

I have a lot of stuff that i need help on...

"If that's what you want to do, i'll support you 100%" he said kissing my cheek, "i love you"

"I love you too" i said...

"I'm so sorry about the push" he said, "i really didn't mean to do that"

"It's okay" i said, "i know you didn't"

He took all of my stuff and went up the stairs..

I just sat on the stairs just thinking about what just happened...

"Ari, can you just come to the room for a second" I heard Odell...

I went up the stairs and went inside the room and saw him on the bed laying there...

"What's up?" I asked him..

"Do you want to come with me to see my lawyer tomorrow, we gonna do the dna test and tell him everything that's gonna happen in the case and give him proof" he asked...

Oh wow...

"Yeah, i can come with you" i said sitting next to him..

"Great" he said getting off of the bed, "we going at 8 in the morning"

"Wait wait why, i have to wake up early" i said being all shocked

Yes, i hate waking up early, it's just annoying...

"Yeah" he said getting in the bathroom..

I laid down on the bed

Man today was just all types of fucked...

I just rubbed my stomach...

"I love you" i whispered to the bump...

When am i gonna have a day where there's no drama because a bitch needs it

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We in the office just waiting for the lawyer

He held my hand...

I just looked at him..

"What?" I said smiling

"You look beautiful baby" he said

"Thank you" i said

The lawyer came in the room...

"Ah my favorite couple"his lawyer said, "what are doing today"

"Ahh well Odell here came to give you some proof of Nicki being a bit mentally unstable" i said, "also, she admitted something to me that i should tell you"

"Really what is it" he said holding Odell s phone watching the video of her coming to my photoshoot

"she said I might not be the dad" Odell said..