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Y/n's POV

Niki turned me around and kissed me passionately. One of his hand was on my neck, and the other was on my waist, as he pulled me closer to him by both of his hands. My arms traveled to his chest as I kissed him back.

Niki always knew how to make me happy or how to get me to forgive him. We are dating for almost five months now and we still haven't told anyone. Literally no one, and I mean NO ONE, knew about us. In my brothers and the rest of the boys eyes, me and Niki are just friends that sometimes like to be clingy (usually it's me who's clingy because Niki is always acting cold when I'm around him with other people). In other people eyes, I hate Niki and Niki hates me. If you ask whose idea was to keep the relationship a secret, well, it was both of us. Mainly me because I wasn't sure, and still am, how Jake would react, and I was scared that my parents wouldn't like the idea of me dating Niki. My parents and Niki's parents were a bit of a rivals back in a day, now they're good, but I still wasn't sure. Anyways, back to the kiss.

Even though it wasn't the first and not the second time Niki was kissing me like this, it still gave me butterflies. His soft hands caressing my waist and neck, as his lips were touching every inch of mine.

The kiss lasted for some time and I knew that Niki wasn't even close to ending it, but, like in all typical love story's, I heard someone walking upstairs and probably to my room. I really didn't want to pull away but I did. The only thing is that when I started pulling away, Niki kissed me deeper and held me tighter.

After a few more tries I finally managed to pull away. The only thing is, I pushed Niki away from myself. Hard. After I pushed him, I looked at the door but whoever was walking upstairs stopped midway and walked back down. Now I felt bad and a bit scared about what Niki will think or do.

I looked at him and his eyes were once again cold. No one was around, but he had a coldest expression on his face that he ever had while we were alone. I knew that he won't let it go easily.

Having a secret relationship has it good and bad sides. Good is that no one asks you "how is your relationship?" or "you look so cute together! How was the first to fall?" It would be even more annoying if one of us, or both, were in a bad mood or something just didn't sit well that day, people would ask "did you and him had a fight?" As if we can't just be in a bad mood sometimes.

Bad side is that we can't be together most of the time. I mean, yeah, when Jake or any other guy from the group invites me to hang out with them, then we see each other and technically are together but it's not the same when we're alone. I know that Niki hates not being around me but at least he could be not so cold towards me when we are together in front of others. It doesn't hurt.

Now Niki was standing in front of me and burning a hole in me with his stare. When I thought that he was going to just walk away and slam the door, he did the total opposite. He did go to the door, but instead of walking out he locked the door and then turned to me, his cold eyes were even more dark now. He slowly started walking towards me while talking.

"You really thought you can just push me away like this?" He said as he took a few more steps towards me. "Even though we're a secret," and one more step "even if someone is coming to the room we're in," and two more steps "if I'm kissing you," one more step and he'll pin me against the wall "you can not push me away." And the last step was taken.

Niki was pinning me against the wall, kissing me deeply. One of his hands on my neck, making the kiss deeper, other hand against the wall so I couldn't get out from the wall. I didn't kiss back this time, instead, I was busy trying to push him away. The more I tried to push him away, the deeper he kissed me. The hand that was on the wall fell on my waist as he pulled me closer to himself.

Now I was hoping that Jake won't try to get inside my room or that no one will come to sense that Niki isn't around. If they do, they will come to my room to ask if I know where he is. And if they come to my room, at least one of them will notice that the doors are locked. In short, if they notice that Niki or I aren't around, it's going to be bad.

"Stop." Niki said in between the kiss. I didn't listen to him at first but later I gave up. I still didn't kiss back though.

After what felt like eternity, Niki pulled away a bit, but only his face. His eyes were on my lips and he breathed heavily and deeply. "Y/n..." Niki's voice was soft and warm again. I didn't respond, waiting for him to continue.

"I love you... and I hope that even though... I don't show it often... I hope that you know it... I love you baby..." Niki whispered and kissed my forehead. After a few seconds in silence, Niki spoke up again. "I know that I am cold when we're together around others but... I'm sorry, I just want us to continue being a secret." Niki said and looked me in the eyes. He had a soft smile on his face. I almost couldn't see the smile but it was there.

I didn't know what to say so I just hugged him. I still wanted us to be a secret but him being cold towards me, hurt me sometimes...

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I listed to Ren the whole time I was working on this chapter.  The only thing that annoys me is that when you write "Ren" in any of the search, you almost always can't find him.

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He make AMAZING Japanese music and I love him.

Okay, now I need to go to sleep. Byeee 🤗❤️