As i wash my body i wash away the feeling of him. his warmth, his laughter, his smile, his brown eyes that i always found myself lost in, his hair, his touch, his kiss. everything.

While washing i realize how white everything around me is. the bathroom walls, the dove soap i keep in the white caddy above the drain, even the empty bottle of miniature Olay body wash.

I look down and notice the water leaving my body is slightly brown. it's not as clear and it once was; it's got a dirty tint to it. it looks used and old. dark and weird. different.

I pull the curtain back and step out of the shower. i look at the water and see that it was never actually brown it was the shadow of the curtain that made me think that.

I watch the water slowly drain, i notice how the water leaves my once white shower floor slightly dirty and gross and ready to be cleaned again.