It's been 3 weeks since me and Bellamy had made up our deal. He texts me and tells me where to meet him, I meet him we fuck and then leave as if nothing happened. I've texted him a few times, even though I want to keep fucking Bellamy, it hurts every time, it hurts me to just walk away and act as if nothing happened. I know when we came up with this deal that we couldn't gain feelings for one another, but I've gained feelings for Bellamy, and I don't know how long I can keep them a secret. Especially if we keep fucking.

"Ms. Griffin, can you tell me the answer?"

"Huh? What?"

"Pay attention Clarke. We have a test coming up in a week and you need to know this material. I want you to see me after class to talk." My professor tells me

I nod my head to let him know I heard him. I must have been day dreaming because I don't remember anything up until just now.

"Thinking about Bellamy?" Raven whispers

"Shut up and pay attention. We have to know this material for the test we have in a week." I mock our professor

We both stifle a laugh and start taking notes.

After class I waited till everyone left to talk to my professor.

"Is everything okay Clarke? You seemed a little out of it today."

"Oh no, professor William, I'm fine. I just didn't get much sleep last night." I think quickly of a lie to make my story seem more reasonable. "I had a headache that just wouldn't go away."

"Okay. I just wanted to check in with you. If there is ever a problem just come to me, Okay? That's what I'm here for."

"Okay, thank you professor. Have a good rest of your day."

I leave the class room and let out a sigh of relief. I thought he was gonna yell at me for not being present in the discussion today. I'm standing by the water fountains, waiting to fill my water bottle up, when I feel a hand grab my wrist.

"10 minutes, janitors closet in the gym."

I could recognize that voice anywhere, Bellamy.

He leaves before I can actually respond. The thought of fucking him again gives me butterflies, but I can't keep hurting myself. I decided that this time would be different, I'm gonna tell Bellamy how I feel.

I throw away my plastic water bottle and head to the gym. He's never had me meet him in his room, or even mine, it's always random places like a janitors closet or the chemistry room that's never used.

When I get to the gym Bellamy pulls me into the closet and instantly starts kissing my neck, he kisses all the right spots.

"I've. Had. A. Stressful. Ass. Day." He says between kisses.

"Okay, Bellamy." I push him off of me. "We need to talk."

"When we made this agreement we agreed to just have sex, talking was not part of the deal."

"I know but listen. We also agreed to not develop feelings for one another and-" I trail off

"Yea, that's true. I haven't developed any feelings for you. Have you developed feelings for me?"

I knew my chances of him developing feelings for me was slim to none, but hearing him say it hurt.

"I can't do this anymore. I have to go."

And with that I left. I grabbed my bag and ran off. I felt like a complete idiot. I wanted to cry but I also wanted to get really drunk and break something.

I got back to my room and I flopped into bed. Still with my clothes and shoes on I curled up in a ball under the covers and cried.

"I guess I'm not getting drunk and breaking shit." I mumbled to myself

I felt dumb crying over him, but I couldn't help it. I wish I never agreed to the stupid deal in the first place, I wish I never developed feelings for him.