In 2017 in 8th grade we had to find out what profession we wanted to do in our future. I tried 7 trial apprenticeships in 3 professions: nurse, ingenieur & office worker. I even did 2 multichecks (Test with all subjects) for applications. Because i didn't got an apprenticeship after 9th grade, i had to go in another school for 1 year + to do a practic in a cleaning company in my city. I hated to step out from old school life to career life. I was also bullied in the class because other people saw me as a weirdo. I had for the first time in my life another crush in my class named Thivaker who was tamil. He was masculine, confident and did karate. I remember one day where i went to the wrong ship harbour and had to go to the other to wait for the class returning from the cruise. We had to invent a game as a 3 headed group. Thivaker invented that one is on the top of the tree and the others had to run rounds with a ball and to give it to the person who climbed the tree. I had to climb the three because my mates were too scared. I hated it. One time i chatted angrily with Thivaker because he interupted our group project and we lost time. At the next day he threw a tantrum at me in front of the class and threw my supplies away but i said nothing to prevent more trouble. He and his friend never got punished even when he played without hiding with their phones in front of the teacher. Utterly ridiculous. How could i ever love such an irresponsible disgusting guy like him who can't control his emotions. One day i tried to do an revenge/gift to him anonymous. I found his address on his application because he didn't changed his password. I was a minor back then. I found out his teachers name and address of his karate school. I preprared a gift with deodarants, perfume and a fake letter of his karate school so he would thing he got it from them as an award for his efforts. It took 2 hours and i placed the gift in his mailbox. (Wasn't sure if it really was his). Nothing happened after that. Meanhwhile i was in a practic in the company called Lasala. There were rude employees. Especially a 21 year old women who had to train me kinda. She was passive aggressive and for every little mistake she yelled at me, gave mean comments or punched the table. After 6 months i got angry too and she critized me for that. Wow, you can be angry all the time but not me? One time a 30 year old women gave me a task to do bills. I continued it during the break to do it. THe other 3 warehousemen misunderstood me and thought that the women forced me to work also during breaks. She got so angry and let it out on me like i was a boxing sack. I had to do warehouse work only for 3 months even tho i was applied as an office worker. I had a conversation at the end with my dad and job coach and it went awfully. I quit after 7 months and promised myself to never step a foot on it again. It was in 2018 - 2019.