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Everything that could go wrong tonight went wrong. I just threw Jade out of my house in the rudest way possible and now I have to face my parents. Jeez, they read my diary? I am so frustrated and angry.

Both are shocked by what Jade just told them. That's something I never wanted them to know, is perhaps the most embarrassing night of my life. Well, probably after this one.

I look at them carefully; I know they want answers. I see their face more concern than anger. And of course, for someone to confess that your daughter got drunk with some guys who she doesn't even know, because she couldn't tell them who she really was, must be quite disheartening.

"Tori, is all that Jade said... true?" Mom can't help herself from asking, like there is still a small part of her that thinks her daughter would never put herself in a situation like that.

"Stop! You have no right to ask me anything anymore."

"Tori, we are your parents-" Mom continues but I'm not going to allow them to do this anymore.

"Exactly, my parents, you should trust me and not go after my personal things," I say outraged.

"And how do you want us to trust you! If, overnight, we learn that you have been carrying huge burdens on your shoulders and never had the good sense to talk to us about it," Dad says, rising his voice.

"Try to understand Tori, we were very worried about the possibility that you were considering taking your own life. We had no choice," Mom says getting up from her seat and addressing me.

I take a few steps back letting her know is not the moment; this is not over yet.

"Of course you had another choice, you could've said something today with Lane and talk to me, but you decided to come home and violate my privacy!" I shake my head and put my hand on my forehead, I can't believe this is happening, I was so stupid to believe that if they came out of the closet with them, everything would be better.

"Baby, we spoke with Lane and he suggested we handle a crisis at a time, to avoid putting more pressure on you. But when we got home, we got desperate. We made the wrong decision," Dad gets close to Mom and hugs her in comfort; she's begun to cry.

"I haven't thought about that in a long while. I'm Finally happy with Jade... well, by the way, thanks for that. You promised that you wouldn't treat her badly, but I see that I can't count on you," I turn my back to them. I need air, I look at the door through which Jade came out and I regret deeply letting her go, so coldly and without an explanation.

"Honey, we thought she had taken advantage of you, that that is the reason you think you are…" Dad says with grieve.

I can't believe it, how did they come to that conclusion? I never wrote anything about Jade getting me drunk. I turn again, I want them to explain what they were thinking.

"What dad? Do you think that Jade got me drunk that night and convinced me to be Gay?" I stand still looking at them, they are speechless, because that is exactly what they thought.

"You know what? Yes, everything she said is true. I went to that party, alone, after a great afternoon with you saying all the things that a Gay girl longs to hear from their parents. I got drunk with those boys and you know what? There is something else Jade didn't tell you," I say pausing. If they wanted to know the truth, then I'll tell them. "I went there with the sole intention of getting laid with a boy to see if I could finally please you, to see if 'they' could convince me I wasn't Gay," I can see the sadness in their faces, disappointment, but screw it!

"Tori we-" Mom and Dad say simultaneously.

"Enough! Thank God I'm one of those drunks that calls the love of her life while she's still conscious enough. Yeah, I called Jade, who not only dropped everything and went to that house to get me but she took care of me when we were not even friends," I notice I'm yelling and I stop to breathe for a second.

"That is the kind of girlfriend your daughter has. The bad girl who tonight broke many promises to me with the only intention of protecting me, while you sat there insulting her? Disrespecting us?" I remind them irritated, I wont forget what they did tonight, at least not for a while.

"I can't believe I thought that confessing to you who I truly am was going to be better than what it was before, I was so tired of lying to you, of hiding Jade, of pretending I was happy here in this house," I Look only at the floor, I can't even cry for all the outrage I have inside me at the moment.

"Tori, we clearly made a mistake, but we just wanted to know what was going on with you. We don't want to lose you," Dad answers with regret. Mom doesn't even look at me, she is clearly ashamed of what they did, but I can't let go of all the anger I have inside. I'm done, I thought that tonight could be a good start but it simply broke everything apart.

"You want to know what is going on with me?" I run to my room and take my diary down. I go straight to the kitchen stove turn it on and start burning it right in front of them.

"There, all my thoughts are yours… and about losing me, you did that the moment you opened the first page of this notebook," I drop my diary in the kitchen sink and go straight to my room without saying anything else.

I'm so angry right now, my parents have fallen so low, I can no longer trust them. My girlfriend just broke every promise she ever made. Great night, just great I feel betrayed by all of them.

I know I shouldn't have been so hard on Jade, but the truth is that if I had shown her one bit of kindness in that moment I wouldn't have had the strength to confront my parents. I needed to stay angry and put an end to all this nonsense.

Fine! I'm not the daughter they expected. Who cares? I didn't come into this world to fulfill the wishes of other people. I have to live my life, make my choices, fall and pick myself up. This is MY life and I will be happy with who I am, no matter how worthless my parents believe I am.

Knock, knock

"Go away."

"It's me Tori" Trina says from outside. I can't just leave her there; she has been a great sister through all of this.

"Come in."

"How are you?" Trina gets in and closes the door behind her.

"Pissed."

Trina looks worried, she sighs and sits right next to me on the floor.

"I think Mom and Dad handled this horribly, I just hope that you know that, in the end, they acted out of love," she says as she puts her arm around my shoulders holding me.

"Love? Trina, they just insulted Jade like she was a criminal and treated me just like one," I feel so bad about all this, I shouldn't have done anything, at least not today. I wasn't ready for all this turmoil.

"Don't get me wrong, what they did was unforgivable, but I think that they were very scared of what I told them… you know about you hurting yourself… I shouldn't have, I'm sorry Tori," she says afflicted.

"I haven't thought of that in a while now, you don't have to worry anymore," I know she is scared, I have been too, specially that night I almost went through it. But I've been okay for months and I finally think I'm happy and clear from the all those thoughts.

"Tori, I know that you may not want to talk about it, but did something happened at that party?" I turn to see her. I feel, at least, I owe her an explanation, to her.

"Nothing happened, Beck and Jade arrived just in time, Beck hit that boy so hard he spent the whole week with an ice bag over his hand," I remember very well, Jade wanted to kill me.

"When was this?" Trina asks curiously.

"About six months ago, Jade knew they couldn't bring me home because Mom and Dad would go crazy, so Jade called pretending to be me and told them I was spending the night at Cat's."

"For how she used to treat you I wouldn't have ever thought Jade would do that for you" I can tell the relief in her voice.

"I know, next day she made me tell her what happened and why I went there, I told her because she threatened to stab me with a pair of scissors" I laugh just remembering, she wouldn't have, but Jade had the most serious face when she told me she would. "I came out to her and after a couple of months later she came out to me. It took a while but we became friends. It was so easy to talk to her, you know, so liberating. I didn't have to explain myself and little by little we fell for each other."

Trina smiles at me, I know she is happy for me. I smile back; it's nice to finally be open with my family, at least with her.

"Did you ask her to be your girlfriend? Because I don't know why… I have the feeling you did," she asks giving me a little punch in the arm. My sister, the subtle.

"I didn't, remember the song she wrote for the Full Moon Jam? She ask me that night, right after her performance," I smile and we laugh a little.

"Well, little sister, I think that you have at least two people that will support and love you at any cost and one of them deserves a call from you and an apology," Trina hands my phone, kisses my head and leaves wishing me goodnight.

I still remember that day like it was yesterday. Jade was at the music room rehearsing for the Full Moon Jam, I decided to drop by and make her company until Trina picked me up.

The song she wrote was clearly about someone special, for sure it was for Beck, but I didn't want it to be. I had been feeling this nod inside me every time we spent time together. By then I was starting to like Jade as something more than just a friend.

Beck wanted to start dating again, but he was afraid that Jade would take it badly. I knew that the song she was going to sing could bring them back together so I decided to pay someone to ask Jade out on a fake date. That way Beck could ask a girl to the Full Moon Jam and he would be so distracted with his date he wouldn't pay attention to the lyrics.

My plan failed when the guy I paid backed out in front of Jade and confessed what I had done. I remember her being so angry about the whole thing; I even remember seeing her hurt. I apologized profusely, but she was just so disappointed at me that we stopped talking for a few days.

The night was cold and I knew that at least part of my plan had worked, Beck was on a date with Meredith, unfortunately he was having a terrible time. We both approached the side of the stage and watched Jade perform.

I saw her singing to Beck, he was smiling and I was miserable. At the end of the song Beck approached Jade on stage and I ran to hide myself in the Janitor's Closet. I rested my back against the back wall and I started crying, I couldn't help myself, I was so hurt, I wanted Jade to be with me. I let my body slide to the floor and buried my head on my knees.

Suddenly, I felt a hand over my head and a familiar voice that spoke softly.

"It wasn't for Beck."

I lifted my eyes to meet hers and we smiled at each other, next thing we knew we were kissing and that was it. We became girlfriends that night. Nothing more to discuss, our lips did all the talking.

It's nice to remember how things happened with Jade, because after all, I do have my fairytale outside all of this mess. I hope everyone does. A place or a person to hold you sane when life beats you down, I wish I had known my sister could've been that person for me all those years ago.

I used to think that Jade saved me form myself, but in fact she just helped me get through the pain I was feeling and I became stronger.

Those emotions that got me so down, when all I could think about was how to ended it all, started to fade. Jade finally being my friend was my best therapy. I never told her about all of this, is hard to accept that you can get so low you could take your own life to stop the pain. She never knew until tonight.

I feel like I owe her an explanation and of course and apology if not many. I shouldn't have told her to leave like that. I reacted and I hurt her.

I see my phone and I have 5 missed calls from Jade and 2 voicemails.

Message #1

"Tori, I know I messed up tonight and that you probably hate me. I couldn't help it… I'm so sorry."

Message #2

"I forgot I love you, I mean I didn't forget that I love you, I forgot to tell you that I love you… whatever you are not going to listen to this…"

I dial Jade's number immediately.

"Tori?" Jade replies surprised.

"I love you too… and I'm sorry," I apologize to my beautiful girlfriend.

"I thought you were mad at me because I told your parents about that night, I mean, of course you are but… I guess, I wasn't expecting you to call," I realize doubt in her voice.

"I'm not mad because of that but because everything went so wrong tonight. And yeah I wish you didn't tell them, but I understand why you did," I stand up slowly and I lie down on the bed.

"I couldn't stand it anymore. Your parents have always been so cool, now they are worst than mine, no offense," she says the latter quickly, perhaps she thought I would take badly.

"I know what you mean, anyway, I wanted to apologize. Yes, I was upset about you telling them but I guess that more than that I needed to stay angry to face them and I couldn't do that with you here. It was wrong of me to be so rude to you, I sorry Jade."

"I get it, so forget it, is done let's just move on. What did they say after I left?"

"Nothing really, I didn't let them speak much, I just lunched at them all that I was feeling and came to my room, they didn't come for me which I appreciate. I really don't want to talk to them at all for a while," I don't want talk about hurting myself, I hope Jade didn't take it so seriously and puts it off.

"Tori?"

Oh no! I see it coming.

"Yeah?"

"About what your Mom said…" Jade doubts and asks.

Oh man, I really don't want to have this talk over the phone. I wish she never knew, I don't want her to think of me as a weak person or as someone she has to take care of… or be afraid of.

"I know I never said anything about it to you and I should have, but I don't want to do it over the phone. Is that okay?" At least, if I'm going to tell her, I want to have her around and let her know I'm okay.

"Sure Babe, do you want me to pick you up tomorrow?" She offers me, letting go of the topic for the moment.

"Yes, please! As early as you can, I don't want to face them yet."

"Okay, I'll pick you up a quarter to 7 and we can go for a cup of coffee and talk. What do you say?" I yawn my words, I'm exhausted, today has been a roller coaster and everything is a mess. I want to sleep and let go of all this burden.

"You must be really tired, go to sleep and if you need anything Tori, please let me know, okay? Call me no matter what time it is," Jade sounds distressed.

"Thanks Babe but I'll be okay, I love you," seriously, please stop worrying, I love you.

"Okay, talk to you tomorrow. I love you too sweet cheeks," Jade lets out a small giggle. "Sweet dreams."

"Sweet dreams Babe," I say and we hang up and I stay for a few minutes just staring at the roof. Yesterday I was feeling so anxious about my parents and today was a mess, now I'm anxious about Jade, I hope tomorrow goes better than today.