Penelope P.O.V

"You don't remember?"

I sat up on the bed with my knees tucked under my chin. After what just happened i could barely look at Chale, fearful that i would black out again and hurt someone else.

The last thing i remember was having my head smashed against a wall and then waking up to chale underneath me with my hands wrapped around his neck.i clutched my hands over my ears as dex's warning whispered through my head.

"I'm so sorry" I whispered repeatedly as my tears threatened to over flow and break the dam that was holding them at bay.

"You have nothing to be sorry for," Yes, i did. plenty actually. "but i need to know what happened when the rouges attacked," i lost everything. " i don't want to see you in pain again pen, not ever."

"He found me. He found me and its only going to get worse for you and this pack. I need to leave chale." The words killed me to say but i had to go and we both knew it. If i hurt anyone i don't think i could live with myself. who could? yes, it was out of my control but if i have a way of stopping myself before i destroyed everything around me then ill take it.

"Who Penelope? i need names. I wont let you live like this." Chales eyes started to turn a deep silver. A shiver instantly coursed through my veins as i realized he was holding back his wolf from shifting.

A deep almost forgotten part of my heart soared to the surface itching to reach out to thoughts silver eyes. Ignoring the pressure in my chest that hadn't happened in so long i completely forgot the feeling.

"Penelope, baby?" Chale said getting my attention. He softly stroked my cheek and a burning sensation traveled over my face radiating from where he touched me.

That's when i realized.

"Dex." I spoke through clenched teeth. I wasn't angry, i was just disappointed in myself. I had let myself fall prey to what my father stood against most. i deluded my self into thinking that everything was going to be OK because i was in the safety of my mate.

I rose from the bed to hunt down a decent outfit for running in. time was of the essence. I started to feel dizzy and nauseous when my feet touched the ground below the bed, staying still seemed to have little help although the black dots in my vision ceased to swim around when ever i even thought about moving.

"PENELOPE!" I heard a roar from where chale stood, not bothering to look because i was still focused on placing on foot in front of the other with out passing out or dry heaving because my stomach was past empty.

The next thing i could comprehend was being softly lifted and placed back onto the bed as if i would break with the slightest touch, even if that was how i was feeling right now i didn't need to be coddled like an infant.

"Don't you dare get out of this bed again woman. I nearly had i heart attack! You haven't eaten in a week, you still have bruises, and you haven't been even as healthy as a HUMAN should since we found you pen! I've been going out of my mind for you. All i ask is that you please just do as i ask."

i cringed into his arms. He made me feel safe yet so unstable at the same time i didn't know whether to cower or hold on to him forever. How can i just put aside the reason why I've been troubled since my birth with one touch from this man before me.

" I wont leave the bed," i promised him. "but i don't want to hurt anybody, i wont."

"You wont baby, ill take care of you."

"Here" chale said taking a bowl filled with soup out of his uncles hands- Whom i didn't notice until now- and into his own.

Chale had made sure that i had finished every drop of the soup, even when i couldn't stomach much more than a couple of spoon fulls. He took the liberty of having another bowl of soup made after i could barely finish the first.

We didn't try to make conversation while he fed me, it was a comfortable silence, one that i longed for as i lay back against the plush pillows. My body instantly being engulfed by the bedding underneath me.

My chestnut colored eyes looked into chales Hazel ones, for the first time since i woke up i noticed that there was a worry line in the middle of his forehead. 

He was worried...about me...?

"Have you slept at all?" i asked as my gut started to fill with concern.

"I've been to worried about you to be distracted by a mundane thing such as sleep." I grinned slightly at his choice of words and opened my arms wide in invitation.

"Time for you to sleep now, I'll be alright."

Chale leaned down slowly and layed his head against my chest wrapping his arms around my stomach. He layed there for a couple of seconds and i could tell he was still tense and still surging with worry over me.

I started to rub his shoulder in a circular motion and kissed him on his head. As i felt his breath even out i started to think out loud.

" What am i going to do," i sighed " Its not like i can stay, but i cant leave either." 

I listened for that voice inside of me but like always i was met with nothing but silence, a hollowness.

I started to ramble on, afraid that i'd fall asleep. "Its funny really, a girl who was born and raised to fear love, yet end up lying in bed with her mate. How funny that i was told i was worthless and nothing but a distraction, that i got punished for not being normal...Not being like the others. i mean who wants a girl that's haunted by her past and tortured by the future. Who wants to live like this."

I didn't notice until after my rant while i was staring at the ceiling that chale had been looking at me the whole time. I also didn't notice i was crying until he lifted his head and kissed away my tears, which only made them flow faster.

"Don't ever speak as if your unloved to me again, because you are. More than you know."

"But-"

"we'll get past this Penelope."

"How?" My voice cracked.

"Once day at a time."

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short chapter...sorry 'bout that. I've been sick physicaly and emotionaly 

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