cynthia's pov:

"if its about Sandra i dont need to no" i said passing by him but he insisted and grabbed my wrist.

"you need to no"he said.

"why? Why  do i need to no?" i said crossing my hands on my chest

"because .. because she is the reason why i bullied you for 3 years at school"he said not looking at me. I was shocked by what he said. Did he actually just say that?

"lair" i said I started walking towards my bedroom.

"no i am not lying"he said walking towards my room.

I opened my room and sat on my bed.

"how does Sandra have to do with you bulling me for 3 years" i asked.

"Sandra and me were best Friends since i can remember. When i found out her mother had a disease causing her to not take care of Sandra i felt really bad for her. So i asked my mom if she can stay with us..."justin said

"wait you already told just skip to the part were i am in this" i said.

'ughhh fine. So i started to hang out with her even more. As the years pasted. i started to like her. So i asked her out. We dated since 14 and one i came home from going to a hockey game. i went to go and check on her. that's when i saw her cheating on me with Matt. this dude from school. it started to cry. i really liked her and i never thought she would do that to me. She moved out in the next 2 days.  to live with her aunt. So then when i saw you. You reminded me of her. you looked  like her twin. So i wanted to get revenge on her. So i placed all the anger to you.. I felt better when i did let my anger on you. So i kept hitting you and teasing you."he said.

"so basically you let you anger on me because i reminded you of Sandra" i said try to not let my voice sound like i was hurt.

"yes and i am sorry" he said. We started getting closer towards me.

"no! get away from me!' i said. I couldn't take it any more. how could he do that? that was not a valid answer.

"please dont get mad at me"he said

"why? Why shouldn't i! you freaking bullied  me to loose your anger because of your freaking ex girlfriend! "i said. i started to cry. i couldn't take it any more.

"please just leave me alone" i said as tears started  dropping down my cheeks

"i hope you understand and i know i don't deserve your trust and your forgiveness but i will always be trying to get your trust back" he said. then he closed the door.

I changed into my pjs. I washed my teeth and layed on my bed.

~Flashback~

"hey loser!"justin said punching my cheek

"what happened did the cat get your tongue?'he said slapping me when he saw i didn't answer him.

"b*tch when i ask you a question you answer me"he said kicking my ribs

"ye-yes"i whispered.

"good now good bye and don't Tell people i did this lets just say that you feel down the stairs"he said patting my cheek then he left me laying on the floor. it wasn't the first time he did that to me. i collected my self. i grabbed my bag and limped my way back to my house. i ran to the bathroom. i slowly took of my shirt. i had another bruise on the side on my rib. i added this cream. It made my bruises not hurt alot. i applied make up to the side of my cheek to no one new i had a bruise on it. i did my hair again and walked downstairs.

~end of flashback~

" i hate my life why cant i just have a normal life?" i asked my self?
"why cant i be the girl who every boy died for? Why could i be good enough not the second choice for every one?' i thought. I just hope my life got better. Soon.

~the next day~

 i got up and took a shower. I drid my self and wore some sweats and a tank top. i wasn't on a good mood to go any were. My eyes were still big and puffy from crying yesterday. i let my bangs cover my eyes. I made my hair into a bun.

"good morning" Pattie said as i entered the kitchen

"whats so good about it?' i mumbled

"what?'she said.

'oh nothing good morning to you" i said.

"need help?' i asked.

"just placed 3 cups and the OJ bottle on the table"she said. i grabbed 3 cups and the OJ bottle and placed it on the table as she told me to.

"good morning"'Justin said. I didnt want to see him right now. i still couldn't get  what he told me out of my mind.

I grabbed a plate and served my self some bacon and some eggs.

"So umm do you have any plans?'pattie asked me

"umm no i am just going to stay home and umm watch some movie" i said. taking a sip of my OJ

"where you crying?'she asked Shit. she noticed.

'umm yeah i umm i slipped and umm my funny bone was hurting so bad I  couldn't hold my tears" i lied Wow that was the worst lie ever. Way to go Cynthia i thought.

"you ok'she asked

'yeah i'm ok now' i said

'ok well i have to go i have to finish planing the next party"she said.

'ok see you later mom"justin said.

'bye Pattie' i said. i grabbed my plate and placed it in the dish washer With the rest of plates. i walked to the living room and did as what i planned. I  Decided to watch This is us. I am  A directioner you could say. It's one of my favorite  . I cant choose from all of them. I turned of the light The movie started to play.

Threw the movie i started to cry. it was an awesome. movie.

"i am sorry' i heard some one whisper in my ear. i turned left and saw Justin right next to me.

"it doesnt matter to me any more" i said turning back to see the movie.

"please forgive me I beg you. i am really sorry for what i did. i no i am idiot a jerk call me any thing you want i know i deserve it"he said.

"that wasn't a good excuse to bully me. I thought i did something bad to you" i said.

"i know i should of told you'he said

"you bullied me for 4 years' i said starting to cry remembering all of the bad memories. Him hitting me. teasing me. he was the reason why i was the huge loser in school.

"i sorry"he mumbled in my hair. He hugged me tight. All i could do was cry in his chest. 

" i promise i will help you forget all the bad memories"he said.

"i dont think so" i said

"how come?:'

"even thought you erase the bad memories i still have it in my past and i have still marks in my body that will still make me remember about:" i said.

"dont worry i'll help"he said lifting up my chin. We were so close. Were we about to kiss?he leaned closer to me. Going  into my personal sapce. i could feel him breath on me. I closed my eyes waiting for his lips to collapse on mine.  Any second now

*ring ring*

"oh umm i uumm sorry' i said. i got up and walked to the kitchen. i looked at the Id caller. 

It was Savannah wow great timing to call.

"hey!"she said.

'hI" i said.

'i am soo sorry i didn't call you yesterday. When i got home I was greeted by my aunt and uncle and 4 cousins and i forgot to call you"she said.

'oh no its ok" i said.

"can you come over?' i said

"no sorry we are going to this lake and we are going to camp sorry.  Do you want to come?"she offered

"no thank you" i said.

"ok i have to finish packing bye'She said.

"bye" i asked the she hanged up. i walked back to the living room and sat as far away from Justin i felt a little awkward around him. now..

'who was it?'he asked.

"it was Savannah said she was sorry for not calling yesterday she was attacked by he cousins and uncles and aunts"i said.

"ohh umm you want to watch another movie i dont want to watch one direction"he said.

"nope! i want to watch this movie and if you don't want to then leave" i said.

"fine"he said

Hey guys! umm like i said sorry for the late update. Is there any Directioners here? yes no maybe so? I watched this is us today! omg It was awesome! i cried lol. If you are directioner comment below you favorite one! Please? Keep reading commenting and voting! thank you! :D