imessage + instagram + irl!

Gracie had been doing so much better over the past few weeks. She'd slowly come to enjoy actually being on tour, and having the privilege to perform and be around fans. To be truthful, this was the first time since their breakup that she'd actually been genuinely happy. She hardly even thought about Macy or the breakup anymore. The thought of her only crossed her mind in the middle of the night when there was nothing else to occupy her, or when she'd been alone for way too long and she couldn't stop her thoughts from straying every which way. But for the most part, it really wasn't a constant thing on her mind. Gracie was finally starting to feel like herself again, like how she felt before everything. For the first time in a long time her happiness was genuine, rather than something she'd just tried to trick herself into believing. 

Another one of the many things that aided in Gracie's slow resurrection was her friends. She was in a much better place with them now, it wasn't exactly like it was before. She thought it may even be better. Her relationship with Diana was much stronger now, and though they still bullied each other relentlessly (mainly Diana), It didn't feel as volatile and competitive as before. Along with that, she'd been hanging out with Olivia, Conan, Iris, Madison a lot more recently. They'd begun to join Olivia on tour and it felt so wonderful to get to see them. Once she'd finally told them everything about the breakup and the relationship in the first place, it felt like a weight had been lifted off her shoulders. All of them were so understanding and sympathetic to her, and nothing made her feel more validated. Gracie was finally beginning to heal, It had it's ups and downs, but It felt nice to at least be making progress.

Gracie had just arrived back in the city after a few long months of traveling on tour. It was one of the rare days she'd actually had a break before the next show, and she was so excited to see all her friends again. The second Gracie stepped into her apartment she felt instantly comfortable. She hadn't been home in months and it never felt so good to be back in her own space again. As she walked through her apartment, refamiliarizing herself with the space again, memories began coming back to her. She hadn't realized the last time she'd actually been in her own apartment was right after the breakup. She sat with the thought for a moment, processing it and the emotions that came with it, and as swiftly as it came she let it go. To prevent herself from lamenting on those thoughts for too long,  she figured she needed to focus on something else. 

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Imessage

cool kids club + jamie

nepotism baby

HONEY I'M HOME

serial monogamist

BITCH FINALLY 

IT'S BEEN FOREVER

magical fairy princess

MY LOVE I MISSED YOU SO MUCH

keys

THANK GOD 

IT'S BEEN WAYYYYY TOO LONG

nepotism baby

OMG I MISSED U GUYS SO MUCH FR 

IT'S BEEN LIKE A MILLION YEARS

serial monogamist

we must hang out

nepotism baby

oh, ofc

wait a minute

JAMES WHERE ARE YOU

uncool kid

istg gracie if you don't stop calling me james

nepotism baby

i'm sorry is that not the name your parents gave you?

keys

YESSS

WE LOVE CECELIA AND PETER

nepotism baby

cecelia and peter liu are actually my best friends

uncool kid

gracie i am aware my parents named me james

BUT THEY ARE LITERALLY THE ONLY ONES WHO CALL ME THAT

EVERYONE CALLS ME JAMIE

nepotism baby

ok james

anyways

did you miss me or what?

uncool kid

i did not

keys

he's lying real hard rn

mr "i wonder what gracies doing rn"

"I wonder if she's ok"

"should we call her?"

uncool kid

bro shut up KIRA

keys

ay 

watch your tone james

uncool kid

my bad

my bad

nepotism baby

whipped ass bitch

uncool kid

stfu

at least im not single

nepotism baby

HEYYY

THATS MEAN

there are tons of single people out there

uncool kid

well out of all of us you're the only one

nepotism baby

ok well it's not my fault 3 out of 4 of you are dating the same person

keys

HEY 

it's complicated

nepotism baby

it's not

you've been saying that for the past like 3 years

but whatever you say

serial monogamist

gracie

i'm coming over

nepotism baby

now??

i haven't been to my place in months

it's a mess

serial monogamist

idgaf

not to get all weird

but i actually really missed you

and i also need to borrow some stuff from your closet

nepotism baby

you sneaky bitch

are you using me for my clothes??

serial monogamist

yes

but i literally just said i missed you

take it or leave it

nepotism baby

fine 

i guess i'll take what i can get

serial monogamist

perfect

i'll be there in 10

oh and nelle is coming too i hope thats cool

nepotism baby

yeah fs

it's been forever since I saw her

keys

waittt if they're coming can we come too?

nepotism baby

ofc

the place is a mess but yes

keys

perfect we'll be there and like 5 minutes

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Gracie paced the house as she waited for her friends to arrive. It'd been so long since she'd seen them and she was practically buzzing. It felt good to be home. Even after everything that had gone on, she was still so happy to be home. She'd be lying though if she said the thought of Macy hadn't popped up in her mind. She wanted to see her, but she knew that was the worst possible idea she could have ever had. Gracie broke up with her in the shittiest way she could think of and then left for three months like it never happened, there was no way in hell Macy would even agree to see her. Gracie did her best to push it out of her mind, dwelling on the situation really wasn't going to make it any better. She just needed to keep moving on. Luckily enough, the knock at the door prevented her from being alone with her thoughts any longer. 

She swung the door open to see two smiling faces. It was Nelle and Diana. She couldn't have been more excited to see them. She rushed and gave them both hugs. It felt a little strange considering she almost never hugged Diana.

"It is so good to see you" Nelle smiled, pressing light kisses to her cheeks. 

"It's good to see you too! It's been forever"

"I know! How are you? How has tour been?"

"It's been really good so far, I'm so sad it's almost over" She half smiled. 

She brought them over to the kitchen, pouring each of them a glass of wine before they got to catching up. Nelle and Diana wanted to know absolutely everything that had gone on in her life over the past few months, and she was more than happy to indulge them. After she'd spent so much time alone, with no friends to turn to she didn't realize how much she had to tell them. Throughout the conversation they'd slipped back into old patterns. It felt so normal, and that was the best thing she could've asked for. She was  worried Nelle and Diana would see her differently after what happened but they hadn't even mentioned the entire situation. Well... until they finally did.

Everyone was splayed out on the couch, slightly buzzed and talking about whatever random shit popped up in their minds.  That was when Nelle finally brought it up.

"I'm so sorry, but I really have to ask, have you talked to Macy?"

Fuck. She was really hoping she wouldn't have to talk about this. But here she was. 

She cleared her throat briefly before speaking, "Uh no, I haven't". 

"Hmm, yeah I guess that makes sense. I don't know why I asked...I was just wondering" Her tone changed as she trailed off. Her eyes were suddenly glued to the floor as she took another sip.   Her shoulders had begun to slump and she tucked a stray strand of hair behind her ear. She could sense that Diana knew something she didn't when she instantly went to comfort her, wrapping an arm around her shoulder and whispering something in her ear. For those few moments they were all silent. It was unusual for Nelle to seem so down. She was so used to her being in what seemed like a perpetual state of cheerfulness. On the other hand, It wasn't like Nelle showed her emotions to anyone especially people she wasn't super close with. That's when Gracie knew that whatever was going on between her and Macy was bad. 

In an effort to lighten the mood Gracie chuckled quietly. "I'm sure if I said anything to her she would be talking your ear off about how much of a bitch I am...not that she's wrong" She shrugged. For some reason in her head that was supposed to be funny, but in reality it was probably just true...and awkward. She realized her failed attempt at a joke hadn't really landed when Nelle's eyes remained narrowed at the floor. 

"I don't know...we don't really talk anymore"

That peaked Gracie's curiosity. Nelle was one of Macy's closest friends, if not her best friend besides Junie. She'd heard that they'd fallen out before, but in all their years of friendship they hardly ever went without talking. Most of the time when they were upset at each other they stuck to passively aggressively talking. But for them to not talk at all was strange. 

"Really? what happened?".

Nelle sniffled and wiped a stray tear from her eye. "I don't really know, she just started acting so... different"

"Different how?"

"She just...she started going out a lot, and drinking and getting high, and hanging out with all these people she didn't even know! and she was sleeping around a ton and hooking up with all these random girls and she just-" She paused for a minute, clearly trying to recollect herself so she didn't burst into tears. "She just started getting so angry at us, she would only ever call when she needed something or when she was bored. and she'd just go weeks without answering calls  or texts or anything. She was just always so upset with us. and then suddenly a few weeks ago she sent us this message saying she didn't want us in her life anymore and she just left the group chat and blocked us"

Gracie was stunned. That was not like Macy at all. If anything that's something Gracie would do. More so, she knew how much Macy valued her friendships and it was so surprising for her to just up and abandon them. She knew there wasn't much she could do about it, no matter how much she wanted to. Regardless of her ability to actually do something, Gracie felt a strong urge to reach out to her, to check on her. Even though they were broken up Gracie still cared about her, she still loved her. Macy was her best friend. Even if she'd screwed that up.

"Wow, that doesn't even sound like her"

"I know! and I keep trying to help her because I know there's something going on with her! But she just won't tell me"

Diana looked between the two of them and shrugged, "I mean this in the best possible way, but maybe this is for the best?"

Nelle's head shot up immediately and she looked appalled that Diana could even say something like that. Diana instantly recoiled, seemingly regretting what she had said. 

"You're saying it's a good thing that my best friend won't fucking talk to me anymore?" Nelle backed out of Diana's touch and narrowed her eyes in anger.

"You know that's obviously not what I meant" She tried to explain. 

"Oh I'm sorry? could you please clarify what the fuck you meant then?" Nelle spat, her face reddening with anger by the minute. 

"I was just trying to say, that I've talked to her and she seems really happy. She's got a new boyfriend now and I think she's really just trying to move on and be happy"

"A new boyfriend?" Gracie whispered quietly. That was not at all what she expected. That was actually probably the worst thing that could have ever happened to her.

Fuck all of the self improvement she'd been doing and all the work she put into trying to forget about the breakup, because all of that had just been undone. She was crushed. Utterly. Fucking. Crushed. They were broken up of course, they had been for months. But Gracie wasn't even close to trying to find someone new. But Macy had clearly been moving onto bigger and better things for a while now. The thought of that stung. She never would've predicted that it would hurt so much to hear that the girl she thought she would be with forever has already met someone new. 

The rest of the evening was really a blur. All she knew was that Nelle and Diana got into some sort of fight and Clover, Kira and Jamie left early to avoid the drama. Soon enough she was left alone on the couch staring at the ceiling. She felt like she'd just flatlined. All of the hope and happiness she'd been feeling before she'd arrived back in this city had faded into intangible memories. She was just left feeling sad, and soon that sadness faded into anger. 

She knew it was awful of her to be upset that Macy was actually moving on with someone that probably made her happy and treated her the way she deserved, but part of her was just so envious that Macy was the one that got to be happy in the end. The whole reason they broke up in the first place was because she anticipated the hurt, she anticipated that Macy would move on one day. But she never thought that she would be the one to be left suffering.

She laid awake that night, tossing and turning. She simply couldn't get comfortable. All she could think about was Macy. In fact that's all she really ever did. No matter how hard she tried not to, she remained a constant in the back of her head. The second she was getting better and finally getting over her and all of this bullshit. She gets a fucking boulder dropped on her. Maybe this is just how her life would be forever. Maybe when you love someone like that, it really never gets away from you. But is that really true? Because she used to think Macy loved her all the same, and  she seemed to be moving on just fine.

The thought just kept spinning over and over in her head until she'd completely exhausted it. In the end she just laid there, staring at the ceiling until her eyes got tired enough to close. 

A/N

OKKKK hiii

I know this chapter probably wasn't what anyone was hoping for after me  not posting for so long. I know it's super short and not the best but hey I tried. tbh i'm going through a breakup of my own rn so life has been tough. ANYWAYS  i'm trying to get back on track and hopefully the next chapter will be out relatively soon. LOVE U BYYEEE

PS: If u see any grammar errors in here no you don't <3