Requested by: anonymous (dm me to request anonymously)

N-O: Normal oneshot
Pronouns: she/her
Gender: female

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'Got anything to say for yourself now?'

There you were, hanging up by your arms and legs. Your head hanging down. This had been going on for about 48 hrs now and you had no idea why they didn't just kill you at this point.

You slowly moved your head up to face them. HYDRA would stop at nothing to get the position of the Avengers.

'Go. To. Hell.' Was all you could say.

You got hit against your back ones again. You gritted your teeth but still couldn't hide your pain.

'Youre a tough girl. You're trying really hard and you did really well.. but I'm running out if patience.'

You didn't say anything. You just hung your head down. You just wanted this to be over. Couldn't thr Avengers make their great entree now? The man from HYDRA pushed up your head and looked you in the eye. 

'If you're not going to break, I'll just kill you.'

He then punched you in the face before you got another beating. You wish you could say you didn't feel it anymore but you did. Blood was dripping down from your back and face.

Suddenly all of your restraints opened. You fell onto the floor. For a moment you couldn't move. You were in so much pain and hadn't eaten for 48 hrs. You groaned as you managed to push yourself up.

'Let me help you.'

The man grabbed your hair (if possible else your neck) and pulled you onto your knees. You let out a groan in pain and you grabbed his wrist and tried to pull him of.

'Where are your precious Avengers now to save you?' He grinned.

'They'll be here.. and you're going to regret, everything you've done to me.' You panted.

The man laughed and looked at his two friends. They walked over to him. You got pushed down onto the floor.

'Take her to the execution field.'

Your eyes widened as you looked up at them. You crawled back as fear struck you.

'No! No no! Leave me alone!' You yelled.

They pulled you onto the feet. You pulled your arms back with as much strength as you had but it didnt seem to be working. You just screamed and begged them over and over again.

'Please! No!'

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Steve opened his eyes as the moaning and screaming seemed to get louder. It didnt take him long to recognise your voice. He quickly got up and ran towards your room.

'Please! No!' He heard your scream.

He opened to door to your room. You were moving so much that you fell out of your bed. It woke you up enough to move but you were still partly stuck in your dream.

'Get them away for me! Get them away!' You yelled while crawling back until your back hit the wall.

Steve crouched down infront of you and grabbed your arms.

'Y/N, Y/N its me. Steve.'

As soon as you realised it was another nightterror you just started crying automatically. You were panting and sweating and gross.

A few days ago you were rescued but the Avengers from HYDRA right before they wanted to kill you. It had quite the impact on you. No one had noticed your nightmares and nightterrors yet until now. You looked at Steve. His face was filled with worry.

'Please leave.' You cried. 'I don't want you to see me like this.'

You pulled your arms back and turned yourself away from him. Steve didnt want to go but he also wanted to respect what you wanted.

'Are you sure?' He asked.

'Yes. Go!' You sobbed.

'Ill be in my room if you need anything.. or if you want to talk.'

You didn't respond while he left. You heard your door close. You and Steve had always been close. Especially since you also started saying in the Avengers tower. You knew he was worried about you.

You wiped your tears away and tried to calm down. You got yourself back on your feet. Your entire body was shaking as you walked towards your bed and laid back down in it.

For a few minutes you tried to fall back asleep but your heart wouldn't slow down. You were just tossing and turning. Eventually you just decided to get up and leave the room to get some air on the balcony.

Steve hadn't been able to fall asleep. He kept thinking about you. Then he heard your door opened and your soft footsteps passed his room. He slowly got up and opened his door. He watched you step onto the balcony.

You sat down against the wall and stared at New York through the railing of the balcony. It was cold but you didn't care. It made you feel.. alive.

'Hey..'

You looked up and saw Steve. .

'I know you didn't want my help but.. I cant sleep, knowing you're not okay.'

You didn't say anything and just turned you head back to the view. Steve sat down besides you.

'Aren't you cold?' He asked.

'I don't mind.' You just responded.

Steve just stared at the view with you. Maybe you just didn't want to talk. Your mind was progressing so many thing right now.

'Steve.' You said.

He looked at you.

'I'm sorry about how I look right now.'

Steve smiled.

'That's okay. You always look great. Even now.'

'I'm a sweaty mess.. but thanks.'

Steve laid his hand on yours. You looked at it and then back at him.

'Do you want to talk about it?'

You just shrugged while you kept staring ahead.

'There is not much to talk about.'

'What was that dream about?'

You looked back at him.

'HYDRA.' You said. 'Its always HYDRA. Every god damn night. I havent slept properly in days. Its a miracle I didn't wake you up before.'

Steve felt horrible for you. It took them awhile to find you when you were taken. He knew that if they were there 5 minutes later you would've been dead. He was the first to see you afterwards. To see how badly they had beaten you up.

'I just wish I could erase it from my memory.' You choked. 'But I can't.'

You looked away from him as you felt like you were going to cry again. Steve wrapped an arm around you and pulled you against him.

'Its okay. You don't have to go through this alone. Its okay to be struggling with it.'

You sniffed as you wiped some of your tears away.

'What if I'm never going to be able to sleep again? Or do anything without it haunting me.'

'Maybe you just need a way to feel safe again.' Steve said.

It was quiet for a moment. You liked laying against him like this.

'Why dont you take a shower and put your pyjamas in the washing machine and you can try again.'

You nodded. Steve helped you get up and took you back to the bathroom. You got in and turned on the shower. You started by removing your clothes before getting in and closing the shower door.

When Steve heard the water running he walked in. Through the steam against the glass of the shower cubical, he could see the shape of your body. He caught himself staring at you.

'I-I'll put your towels here.'

You wiped some steam away from the cubical and looked at him.

'Thanks.' You smiled. 'Can you pass me the shampoo?'

Steve grabbed the shampoo. You opened the shower door and stuck your hand out. Steve handed it to you, he couldn't help but get a small glimps of you before you closed the door. He had to get out of there.

When you were done, you dried yourself off. You saw that Steve already brought away your pajamas away. A shirt was laying there that you had never seen before. Not in your closet at least. You put on your underwear and grabbed it to have a look at it. It was Steve's shirt.. you smiled as you put it on. It was way too big on you but you didn't mind. You walked out of the bathroom towards Steve's room. He looked up at you as you walked in and smiled. You looked gorgeous in his shirt.

'Thanks for the shirt.' You smiled.

'I think you might have to keep it. It looks better on you than it does on me.'

You laughed.

'I'm sorry that I pushed you away.'

'That's alright. Come here.'

You walked over to his bed and climbed on to hug him. You held him tightly.

'I'm scared to go to sleep.' You sighed.

'You can stay here if you want. My bed is big enough, I'll be here if something happens.'

You let him go and looked at him.

'Are you sure?' You asked.

'If it makes you feel better.'

You just nodded shyly at him. He got up and headed to your room to grab your pillow. He handed it to you before climbing back into the bed besides you. You pulled the sheets over you.

'Goodnight.' You said to Steve.

'Yes.. I hope you sleep well.'

You closed your eyes and tried to sleep.. the fact that Steve was like.. laying a few centimeters away from you didn't made this better. He made you nervous. You just laid there, tossing and turning. Steve could feel your discomfort.

You turned himself on his side, facing you. You felt his hand feel around until he found your hand. He pulled you a little closer to him.

'Steve-'

'Its alright.'

You laid there on your side facing him. Your head was a little below his. You could feel his breath brushing past your nose.

'Its alright. You can sleep now. I'm right here. You're not alone. No one will hurt you.'

You laid your hand against his chest and felt his heartbeat. He didnt seem calm at all. His heart was beating fast and every time you moved it became even faster. He arm was wrapped around you as he closed his eyes.

'Are you okay?' You asked him.

'Why wouldn't I be?' He smiled.

'Your heart beats really fast.' You said.

Steve grinned. He loved some hair behind your ear (if possible) and he angled his head a little. You felt his nose brush past yours as his lips were close to yours.

'You just make me nervous.'

For a moment you just laid there in that awkward tension before you leaned in just a little bit. It was enough for Steve to know that was okay. He then gently pressed his lips against yours.

'Go to sleep now.' He smiled.

You grinned and snuggled in against him to have one of the best nights of sleep that you had in a long time.