Roses pov

My head throbbed as I rose from my bed. I still don't feel to good. My tummy grumbled like an angry bear after hibernation wanting to get food. My ankles and legs ached like I was never going to support myself or get out of this bed. My body was still so tired. I don't know how I woke up this morning.

I got up went to the bathroom and washed my face to try and wake myself up. I was as white as a ghost and dizzy as drunk person. I then stumbled my way into the kitchen to find Caitlin waiting for me reading the newspaper. With my breakfast set out on the table for me.

"Hey", she said to me folding the newspaper, "the others left early to work", she filled me in as I sat down at the table, "I'm going to take you the doctors today. I've already called in sick for work. And... I think that you may need me"

"That's ok. I would love you to come with me", I said eating a spoonful of porridge at a time. I then finished and rinsed my plate off. And we went to the doctor.

* at the doctors surgery in the waiting room*

"Rose it's ok", Caitlin reassured me, "He's  just going to help you. He's going to run some tests, give you some medicine so you can get some sleep and not get hypothermia again. And you'll be good as new", then down the hall I heard the large banging of footsteps. They are like giants. And they were coming to take me next.

"Rose Dawson", the doctor called out. I then then straight away looked at Caitlin

" it's ok. Just go. Everything will be fine", she said as I was dragged away down the hall.

*in the doctors room*

I just sat there all nervous on his table while he was looking through some files.

"Now Rose. Their are a few tests I would like to do but first you need to tell me a few things"

"What's your birthday?"

"October 5th, 1895"

"Ok. When were you diagnosed with hyperaemia? Before or after the sinking of Titanic?"

"After"

"Have you been involved in any sexual activity in the last mouth or so?", I just sat there trying to find my words embarrassed of what he might think of me

"Ye...yes", I quietly respond

"Have you had any nightmares about Titanic? Or that are still recurring?"

I nodded, "yes", with my eyes starting to well with tears. Then the flood gates opened allowing little streams to flow down my face. He then shut up his book and walked to my side with a glass beaker in his hand.

"I want you to fill this this up with urine. It might help you to settle down a bit. And not think about your ordeal you went through", I then wiped my tears away and took the beaker and pee'd into it.

*
I then came back a few minuets later and gave it to him

"Thank you Rose. I might get this ready for you, while we talk about what your seeing at night and why you can't get any sleep"

"So this is basically therapy?", I asked him

"No no no. We doctors are here to fix and help you out. And how we can make your body, soul and mind better and in a happier place", he explained to me.

"Well then why are you testing my urine then?", I asked him. Curious about how effects anything

"Well because it lets us know if you have been eating right. With the right amount of irons contained as well as many other things", he waffled on, "and to see if you are pregnant by any chance", I then froze

"Preg...preg..pregnant?", I asked him

"While yes of course Rose. We can tell if we drop in this liquid into your urine and if it goes pink then you are"

"And what if it doesn't?"

"Then your not. Simple as that really. Plus you said this past month you have had physical relations so..", I didn't reply. He the poured my urine into three test tubes to check if I was healthy. He then put each of the chemicals in each one.

I was super nervous. What if I was pregnant with Jacks baby? He was only one I've done it with. And my first too. What would I do? I would haven't the money. I couldn't possibly afford to raise a child by myself. Especially when it was just me earning an income. An income which I would have to give up for over a year to raise this child. Which sooner or late was going to run out either when I was pregnant. Or when he or she was a few months old. I needed food, water and clothes. I don't know what to do if this nightmare came true.

Please make it not be true. Hopefully this is all just a dream created in my head. That would never come true.

**

Doctor glanced over his shoulder at me. I was praying to god I wasn't pregnant. Even if it was Jacks. I couldn't possibly raise it. Especially when I only had a few hundred dollars or so.

He then picked up the first test tube that had my pregnancy result. It was pink.

He just looked at it and then looked at me. I was frozen like an iceberg and cold like one as well.

"I'm..I'm..I'm preg.. Pregnant", I said accepting the news as it is putting my hand over my heart. Just breathe in and out Rose. In and out.

I then started to hyperventilate while tears then started to flow from my eyes. The child was Jacks.

Doctors pov

Rose then started to cry. She had been through so much already. And now with a newborn baby on top of that. And trying to get the money to support herself and now a child now. I feel terrible for her. I wrapped my arm around her as she cried into my chest trying to comfort her. She needs all the love and support she can get.

"It's ok Rose. Sh Sh shhhhhhhhh", I hushed. Putting one hand on her hand bring long her close to me. But she didn't stop.

She then took two breathes to gasp for air and then flopped into my chest. She fainted.

Roses pov

My whole world went black. All I knew was that I was carrying me and Jack Dawsons baby. And that I was going to have to raise it alone. Without Jack.

"It's alright Rose. You know what to do. Make it count Rose. Make it count." , I heard Jacks voice in my head say

"Don't do it for yourself Rose. Do it for me. This baby is a gift to you Rose. This child is a living piece of me given to you."

"But Jack? I don't know what to do", I cried out to him

"You're strong Rose. You know what to do already. You're a survivor remember", he replied to me

"But Jack. I can't do this without you!", I cried to him. He then appeared right in front of me. As if he was still alive like on Titanic.

"Yes you can", he said calmly to me staring right into my eyes to calm me down. He then leaned into me. And we had a long embrace. He then pulled away and looked down and took a deep breath out and in. "Now go Rose", he ordered, "go out into the world and make me proud", he then once again looked up at me, with his sweet and calm look when I told I was getting off with him. We both looked at each other up and down and kissed.

"I'll never let go Jack. I'll never let go", I commented to him. With both my arms wrapped around his head. He then smiled and we kissed. We never wanted this to end. But it had to.

"Jack? Jack? Jack?", I called out to him. Getting louder and louder and more insecure by the second. It was just me surrounded by complete darkness.

"Jack!", I yelped as I awoke from my dream. After I fainted, discovering that I was pregnant with our child.

My head and stomach ached. What time is it?

Luckily the doctor walked in

"Oh I see you're awake", he said surprised, "you went out for about an hour or two", he said answering my question, "don't worry I told your friend out there what happened"

"You mean you told her that I'm pregnant?", I asked him

"No. Of course not my dear. That is something you must do yourself", he said handing me a cup of tea. "I only told her that you fainted an I wouldn't know when you would wake up. So I sent her away at the shops for an hour while you were still sleeping", I sipped my tea

"Thank you", I replied taking another.

******

* door opens*

I then saw Caitlin sitting down and we both ran to each other.

"Oh Rose. Are you ok? The doctor said you fainted and you've been out for a while", I just nodded with tears streaming down my eyes. "Why what's wrong? Hey hey don't cry Rose", she comforted me hugging me again. I the wiped my tears when we broke apart. Only to find that doctor standing behind us with the medication he was giving me.

"These are the things Rose will need to take. She needs to have a sleeping pill every night. Which should make her get  to sleep much easier. And I also given her some vitamin D tablets to take. It seems that Rose hadn't gotten much sun outside. So I would just have some everyday or two.", he said giving Caitlin the instructions to take care of me.

"You two have a good day now then", he closed off

"You too", we replied. We then exited the building and were back on the streets.

I feel different being outside now. Now I'm over thinking things. That I am seeing that could harm me or the child that I was carrying. I feel insecure. I know that I will judged but I couldn't care any less. I just got to get through it day by day.

"Hey. What's wrong? You've been awfully quite since we left the doctors surgery", she asked me. As I had my head down low. "What happened in there? Rose? Rose?"

"I'd rather talk about privately actually", I responded. She just looked at me straight in the eyes

"Ok", she added, "then follow me", she then took me down a number of streets to a quite bar in an alleyway. It was quite with only a few men having drinks. She then took me and booked a booth for us both to sit and talk.

"So what would you lovely ladies like to drink?", the bartender asked us

"Um a shot of jinn and..."

"Water", I responded

"A glass of water", she ordered

"As you wish miss", he said taking a small bow and leaving to fetch our drinks

"So.......so what's wrong?", she asked me, "why did we have to talk in private?"

"I'm pregnant", I added on straight on to what she said. She just sat stared at me.

"Here you go", the guy came and placed our drinks on the table.

"Thank you", we both replied. Caitlin then immediately took her shot of jinn after that. I then just took a sip of water and waited patiently for her next question of reaction.

"So um um um who is the father? Does he know about it yet?", she fired at me

"Yes. Yes he does", I responded calmly

"What do you mean that he already knows? Did he leave because you knew this all before?"

"No no no", I cutted in

"Then what?", I  hesitated to answer the question. I just looked around the room trying to find what words to say and try it not to seem that I need help. But then yet again I do. And their is no use of telling another lie. Their is no lie here. The word will get out and I can't hide. Here it goes.

"He's ah ar. He's um dead", Caitlin just say and looked at me in shock

"I'm I'm I'm so incredibly sorry Rose. I never knew. Or could possibly guess that at all", she stuttered from the shock. I just let my head hang low and kept drawing swirling lines on my stomach where our baby was growing. "What are you going to do?", she asked

"I.. I don't know",I replied, "I haven't thought any further", she just slightly  nods, "at this moment I don't know what to do", I broke down in tears. Thinking about what would happen. No money no income. Just me out on the streets with our child. With no food, water or shelter. I wouldn't have enough money to support us both. Especially when I'm pregnant, and I had to quit my job to carry the child, then look after it,until till its at least a year or two old. I wouldn't last for that long. I only just started out. And now I'm here. Alone. Pregnant. With nobody to look after or to help me.

"Shhhhhh shhhhhhh its ok", Caitlin hushed as she cradled me in her arms, "you gonna be alright Rose. Hey hey", she asked to get my attention and head off her chest, "your gonna be fine Rose. Your gonna be fine", she wiped my tears away from my eyes, "I'm going to take care of you for now on", I then met her eyes

"Re..re..really?", I sobbed

"While yes", she replied happily, "you're amazing Rose. You're smart, beautiful, kind, caring", I then started to cry again. Nobody had said those things besides Jack. "Rose your the most strongest, most inspirational women I've ever known", she then started to cry, "you're my best friend. And you feel like a sister to me now Rose", we then both started to break down, "I never want to let go of you Rose. I don't want you ever to leave my life or our dorm we share with the others just because your pregnant. Because nobody has the strength they you have and what you're doing now. And if the world disowns you I won't. Because I know that you would never do that me. And that you will help and stand by me. And that's what I'm doing. I'm not letting you out on the streets, alone, cold and frightened. Because I'm the person who will give you lodgings, food and most of all love. Because a child cannot grow up without love. That's what parents and guardians are for. And I want to be you and your child's guardian Rose, if you allow me to do so. So what do you say Rose? Do you want to live with me in our share house while me and possibly the other take care and provide for you while we have a good time or...?", it was a fairly easy/obvious choice.

I nodded. "Yes", I sniffled, "yes. I want all of that too", I said painting a smile on my face giving Caitlin the biggest hug in the world, for her allowing herself to look after me and support my baby. She really is a true friend to me.

"Well I guess there is nothing to it then to tell the others now", she said taking her last shot, "you ready to go?", we then paid the waiter and walked out.

It was dark and cold, the sky looked liked a magnificent painting. With the swirling breeze and starry night sky. With all the lamp posts lightning the streets below. Our flat had shadows from the other girls running about. You can hear Cathleen and Hedi clearly gossiping in kitchen about something. I then stood still. Listening to me heart beat. With my thoughts racing through my head like a car race or a gun going off. What if they don't like or accept  me now? What will I do with my life? They are all I have in this world.
Take a deep breath Rose. Deep breath. In and out. In and out.

"You ready Rose?", Caitlin asked me, to check if I was alright. I just nodded my head and took a big swallow. It's now or never. "Come on. Be brave there's nothing to worry about", as we approached the door with Heidi opening it.

"Heyyyyy! What took you two so long to get here huh?", she greeted us with, "come sit down do you want a drink?", she asked topping hers up. Cathleen already had hers and was sipping it,

"Um no thanks Heidi", Caitlin said walking over to hand her coat up. I just stood there as a tree looking and observing my surroundings. "So how did it go Rose?", I heard someone ask, pulling me back into reality.

"Huh?",I responded

"The doctors? How did it go today? Are you ill?", I then heard Caitlin stop and freeze. "What? What's happened? Rose?"

"It's fine its fine its fine its fine", Caitlin reassured us, "we are all going to be fine", she then took a breath, "it's just that some developments has occurred today. And it evolves us supporting each other 100% like we are doing now"

"Wait what do you mean supporting each other 100% now? What's that supposed to mean?", Heidi asked. As Caitlin grabbed a glass and poured rum into it, and skulled it down. "Caitlin!", Heidi lashed out at her.

"Ask Rose she'll tell you!", she fired back at her, taking glass a and drank it like a shot. All the eyes were on me now. There is no escape.

"Well what?", Heidi replied casually with her glass in her right hand  hanging off the back of the chair.

"Yeah what it is Rose!", Cathleen said softly, "come on, you can tell us can't you?", she added on. My head then came to my chest looking down where me and Jacks child was growing with my fingers playing games with each other.

"I'm.. I'm...I'm", I want then cut off

"Well what!?", Heidi cut in

"I'm pregnant that's all", I said in a huff. The room then went dead silent with only Caitlin's glass making a sound landing back down on the table. From her third glass.

I see Heidi and Cathleen eyes looking around the room for answers before coming to a complete stop trying to piece together the puzzle.

"How... How far along are you?", Cathleen stuttered as Heidi looked up with her big brown eyes filling up a pool of water. Starring at me.

"5 weeks", I replied. Before the room went dead silent again.

"Well.. You have no other place to stay so..?", Heidi started saying

"What do you mean by that Heidi?", Caitlin asked curiously.

"I'm saying that", she raised her voice, "she has no other place to go, but here", finishing it off with a smile. Before making me and Caitlin smile knowing what she was proposing.

Cathleen just kept wrestling with her thoughts trying to figure out how all of this would work. We then all looked at her for her final verdict on the decision.

"Well your basically part my family now", she responded. I immediately sprung out of my chair and so did he others and had a big group hug.

I know that I feel safe, protected, loved here. And knowing that these girls are risking it all for a penniless pregnant girl, who just started acting but had to put it on hold. I know that I am accepted by them. And not judged more or less by any of them. We are all equal. And we were doing our part.

I brushed my hair and put my pj's on, only to find the girls surrounding my bed.

"Come on Rose. Come sit and tell us everything", Heidi said patting the bed for where I should sit. I just that their quietly and nervously waiting for their first question.

"Well get on then", Caitlin nudged me

"About what?", I asked

"Everything. We want to know everything", Heidi said getting jumpy. I just breathed out.

"Well.. If you most know", I started off placing my hand upon my stomach where me and Jacks child was growing, "the baby's father isn't here", I then took a swallow, "he's dead", I said quickly trying to block my tears out, "we um..", well I think this is when I have to be honest to them about how this love story and baby came about, "we met aboard Titanic", I spoke out, "I went on it because I was engaged and was forced to be married in New York when we were to dock. But that didn't end up happening because I met Jack. And..", they all looked at me. Their faces and bodies frozen in time with only me alive speaking and moving around. "And he saved me. It's quite a funny story actually, I was going to commit sucide from jumping off the back of the ship. And he was there to persuade me and to pull me back over. Then one thing to the next we got talking and he told me his stories traveling the world and all of his art he had done, and all the people he had met along the way. And that night after we had dinner together. He then brought me down below decks to party and we danced, and we laughed and we drank. And we had such a fun time.", my brain then gave me flash backs. The experience all seems so surreal now. I then remembered the morning day after with Cal. Then my mother.

" and then what happened?", Cathleen asked super intrigued and listening to my story.

"Well I got in trouble. Cal, my fiancé sent his right hand man,