What encourages you to become greater than what you are right now? I am driven by those around me.

Love hurts, I know from experience that love can sometimes be very confusing and that confusion leads to pain. Pain that can only be dealt with more pain. Until there is nothing left but pain. I realized pain when I was left confused, I was left confused when I was ignored. Ignoration, if taken to a great extent then it could make you doubt your own existence. Are you worth it? Is the life worth it? Why have you ignored me in such a way? You tell me that you love me but that is just some massive bullshit because I don't see you showing it... It hurts me, but it's not like you care either ways. You are the bs in my life. You make me feel like I'm such a great part of your life and tell me that you love me so much, then sometimes you flirt or hang out with other girls making me doubt our relationship. Where do we stand? Love is not just something that is said, it is something you take action upon. You are only talk and no actions. I hate you for that, I hate the fact that I had to let go of other people in my life just to make you happy, just because you didn't appear like they don't mean that I didn't. Get out of my life without making a scene. I think it's best for both of us. This was a small explosion, don't make me show you what a big one looks like.

The sad part is that I don't actually hate you, I love you and I show it through my actions....but you don't love me through your actions.