Ciara POV

The whole night and morning I've been thinking about today. Yesterday the wedding and reception were amazing,March 3rd was surely a day to remember. Now I had to deal with Nicki,I should be expecting her text or call soon. I laid on the couch with Zahir as 'The Fairy Odd Parents' played on the TV. I got a text from Nicki saying she's on her way and I mentally sigh as I get Zahir's bottle. I feed him the bottle while he watches the TV,by the time the episode goes off he finishes it and I burp him as the next one starts. I guess he don't care cause he reaches his arms out for me before wrapping his arms around my neck. I hear a knock on the door and I look through the peep hole and see Nicki. I open it and she gives me a small smile and rubs Zahir's back softly. He closes his eyes so I lay him on the blanket on the couch. She examines my face and body while smiling,hopefully this goes great.

"I really like your new hair color,it makes your skin look more radiant than what it already is" She says

"Thank you" I say

"Do you think you could forgive me?" She asks

"I don't know" I say

"I know it's not gonna be that easy to forgive me but whether you wanna believe it or not I do miss you and I never wanted to break your heart,I love you more than anything,I need you to let us get passed this" She says

"That's not it,you don't understand it's deeper than that" I say

"I want to understand,tell me why it's so hard to forgive me" She says

I really didn't want to cry in front of her but something told me to just get it off my chest.

"To be honest I can't seem to get over the way you hurt me and slept with Alan twice especially if you claim it didn't mean anything,I thought I could forgive you and I know you're trying but as much as I wanna trust you,I know it's not the same,I'll always remember feeling like I was no good and like you valued Alan more,just based off what you said last time and how you hid it from me for over 5 months,I loved you more than anybody else and almost more than my own life,the best part of me I gave you and it was sacrificed,and it's all because you lied,you lied to me everyday and I didn't deserve that,I only give you a hard time because I can't act like I haven't tried to forget this but I'm too full of resentment,I know he was attractive but I was ridin with you for way too long for you to fuck me over like that,why did I have to be treated that way by you? I've been crying for too long and I'm tired of it,I used to be so strong but not anymore,I know you didn't wanna hurt me but look what you've done to me now,every time I see him I have to be reminded of what happened,that's why it's so hard to forgive you" I say as a stream of tears fall down my face

Nicki walks closer to me and wipes my tears while looking in my eyes.

"I'm really sorry,I would never want you to feel that way,I never cared about Alan,especially not more than you,Ciara you're my everting,I don't wanna lose you,can we please try to work this out,I will show you how much I love you more than I did before,just please don't go through with the divorce" She says

The thing with some divorces is that it could take a year,especially if there's no prenup. I think about it and sigh before giving her my answer.

"I need a few days to think about it" I say

"Ok that's fine,just promise you won't go M.I.A again and we can be cordial" She says

"Promise" I say

She smiles and kisses my cheek softly,lord knows I missed her lips against my body. I give her a small smile and she walks out the door. This was a really good talk for a change. The main thing on my mind now is will I give Nicki another chance or not.

A/N: You guys think Ciara will give Nicki another chance? Next update soon!