November 15, 2022
12:12 a.m
Los Angelas, California
Jasiah Chicago Jackson

I looked over at my little brother Deim who was asleep in my bed. He always slept in my bed, I don't know why but I guess he felt safer.

I slowly got out my bed making sure I didn't wake him. I went in the bathroom quietly shutting the door and locking it behind me. I looked at myself in the mirror with a sigh.

I reached in one of the drawers pulling out a lighter. I lit allowing my finger tips to touch it five times. I took a deep breath before putting it down. I looked at myself in the mirror once again and a tear rolled down my face.

I left out the bathroom going back into my room and over to my drawers. I opened them pulling out an envelope. I received this envelope a few days ago, seeing who it was from scared me and I didn't open it. But I'm way to curious now.

I left out my room quietly making my way downstairs. I sat turned the lamp in that was in the living room taking a seat on the couch. I took a deep breath before opening the envelope and a letter was inside.

Hey Jasiah, I'm really hoping that you read through this letter. I know you probably hate me, honestly might not even remember me. But I'm your father. I was taken away for hurting you a long time ago, good thing is you're in the hands of somebody who cares for you and keeps you safe. I get out in 2 months and if your mother allows, I would love to come see you. Feel free to write me back, I really hope you do. I'm sorry and I love you. Hopefully you forgive me and when I get out we can see each other.

Sorry if it's short, I really didn't know what to write.

I chuckled before looking at the number I guess I could call.

I wanted to call, I don't really remember my father but I do slightly remember getting beaten when I was younger. Especially since it left me with for life scars

I went upstairs to get my phone I came back starting to dial the number. It rung and ring before the line connected. My chest tightened and my hands became sweaty.

"Who the hell is this?" He whispered angrily sounded like I had woke him.

"Jasiah Chicago......." He grew quiet

"Babygirl......"

"Yes."

"I'm guessing you read the letter. You ok? How you been?

"Not the best." I started to cry trying my hardest to be quiet.

"I'm starting to distance myself from everyone and everything. I don't know why, I just feel everybody hates me." I cried.

"Why you feel like that?"

"I don't know.....I just feel like they're all against me."

"Well is there something you did?"

"Well I've been acting out lately......"

"Why?"

"I don't know, I just have."

"There has to be a reason Jasiah." I sighed.

"Don't tell anybody-"

"Couldn't if I wanted to." He chuckled.

"Seriously."

"Ok, ok. What happened?"

"There's this boy named Xavier and we kissed a few days ago or whatever and he left these marks on my neck. That's why everybody was trippin." He didn't say anything just stayed silent.

"D-Daddy?" I said quietly.

"I'm still here baby, just listening." A tear rolled down my face. Just what I wanted, somebody to listen to me instead of etalking at me and over me.

"Ok......that night he asked did I want to you know......do we bad things." He started laughing.

"What's funny?"

"I'm just laughing sat your innocence princess. Continue."

"And I told him sure but I didn't know how. He showed me and........we tried but it hurt too bad so I told him to stop. He didn't listen at first so I threatened to scream and that's when he stopped."

"So that's what's been wrong with you? Why not tell somebody?"

"I didn't want anyone to get mad. It just left me uncomfortable and then he called me scary. So I was also embarrassed." I sighed.

"Ok first of all, you shouldn't be kissing, touching, having sex or even thinking about it. You're a whole child, act like one."

"But-"

"But nothing Jasiah. Be a kid and stop worrying about that stuff. It'll come one day. Stop trying to experiment, that's gonna get you hurt and mess you up. Just be a kid."

"Ok." I mumbled.

"I love you." I grew silent before speaking up again.

"Why did it take you so long to reach out?"

"Well, you were just a toddler when I got locked away. I wanted to reach out when you were old enough and I knew you would listen as well as understand and if not understand just listen and find some way to forgive me."

"Well I do forgive you ok and hopefully I can see you soon."

"Hopefully, I love you so much Jasiah and it was nice to get to talk to you. You can call me anytime ok."

"Ok, thanks for listening."

"You're welcome princess, bye."

"Bye daddy." He hung up and I sighed. It was nice to talk to him, I always knew I had a father just never knew what happened to him. But now I did and I couldn't wait to see him. Despite what he did to me in the past, I don't hold grudges. Life is entirely too short for that.

I just sat there on the couch before my bottom lip started to quiver and I started crying again.

"Jasiah." I looked up seeing my mother.

"What?"

"You ok?" She came down the stairs.

"Yeah I'm fine." I mumbled as she sat down beside me.

"I um heard you talking to somebody." I nodded.

"Imma guess it was your father." She grabbed the letter starting to read it.

"Yeah, he's getting out in a few months and I want to see him." She looked at me.

"I don't-"

"He's my daddy."

"But Jasiah you don't-"

"He's MY daddy." I said once again making her sigh.

"Ok." She gave a small smile.

"You can see him once he gets out." I nodded.

"And I heard what else you said about the lil boy who I didn't know about." I looked down.

"You're not in trouble by I know your father told you the right thing, so take it I'm and listen to him."

"Ok." She pulled me into a hug.

"I love you ok, ever since the day I found you. I was in love with you since day one." She kissed my forehead.

"I love you too mama." I got up going back upstairs to my room. I laid in my bed dialing my fathers number again.

"Jasiah-"

"Daddy I know you're tired and might get in trouble but I still want to talk. Just hear your voice." He sighed.

"Ok, one hour ok." I smiled.

"Ok."

1:00 a.m
Kentrell Desean Gaulden

"Hey." I looked at this girl who stood in front of me with a smile. She was actually really pretty and had a nice body.

"Hey." I replied and she sat in the seat next to me. I had just came to the bar with Joe, Sky and Jonnie. Sky and Joe had disappeared though but I won't say what I think they doing. Then Jonnie was sitting at a table talking to this guy so that left me now talking to this girl.

"Why were you sitting here all alone?"

"Well I'm here with my friends but they done got caught up in they own little thing." I chuckled.

"Same, that's why I'm just finna get a few drinks." She laughed.

"You drink?"

"Nah."

"Well today you're about to start." She ordered both of us drinks making me laugh. Being nice I of course paid for them.

"Here you go." She gave me mine.

"Thanks." I took a sip and it actually wasn't that bad.

"What's your name?"

"Kentrell, you?"

"Anaija." I nodded with a smile, her name was pretty.

"Who's that? She's so pretty." She smiled looking at my chain.

"Oh this is best friend, her name is Javen." She nodded.

"So no girlfriend?"

"Well we are working on getting back tog-"

"So y'all have dated?" I nodded.

"We have kids together." She smiled.

"I bet they're beautiful. But your still single right?"

"As of now." She nodded.

"Great." We continued to talk for almost an hour. I was really enjoying my time with this girl. She was goofy as hell, there wasn't a moment that went past and I didn't have a smile on my face.

"Want another drink?"

"I-I don't think it's a good idea." I laughed.

"Come on."

"I've had 3 already."

"So?"

"Kentrell." I looked at Jonnie. She walked over to me.

"Bye. Call me when you make it home ok." I nodded and she left out with that same dude she had been talking to the whole time she was here.

Anaija's phone started ringing and she sighed heavily before declining it. She looked at the bartender and she laughed giving her a shot. She gave her the money before drinking it.

"Sorry Kentrell but I have to go. It was nice meeting you." She huffed before getting up. She left out the bar making me frown. I got up going after her.

"Anaija." I stopped her and she looked at me.

"You ok? Where you going?"

"I have to go, my nigga will be here to get me in a minute." She rolled her eyes.

"Oh, well you good? Why you seem so upset?"

"I'm not, he just acts like my dad when he's not. So irritating, controlling." She shook her head. I knew what did or could follow behind somebody being controlling.

"Come on." I grabbed her hand going to my car.

"Uh Kentrel, he'll be here-"

"Ion care." I opened the door and she looked at me. I nodded and she looked around.

"Jesus......" She got in making me laugh. I went around to get in also.

"Want me to take you home?"

"Definitely.......not." She sighed and I nodded driving away.

"Well you got somewhere else to stay for the night?" She shook her head. I sat there thinking. After like 45 minutes I made it to a hotel.

"W-"

"Shh, come on." I got out the car waiting for her. She got out and I grabbed her hand.

"Kentrell-"

"Anaija just hush ok?." I walked up to the receptionist. I got everything situated so now she had a room. I grabbed the key taking her to the room she'd be staying in.

"You didn't have to."

"I know, but there's not a reason for you to be scared to go home." She gave a small smile. We went in the room.

"I'll come back tomorrow to check on you ok, I'll bring you some clothes too."

"No-"

"I didn't ask you." She looked down.

"Sorry." I kissed her cheek turning to leave out.

"Um-" I looked at her

"If you can.......could you stay?" A smile formed on my face.

"Uh.......yeah." I took off my shoes and my shirt. She smiled taking off her pants and shirt. I gave her mine and it was just a little big on her.

"Thanks." I nodded before turning off the light. We laid down and she turned her back to me.

"Damn." She laughed turning her body over.

"Sorry, would you rather us stare at each other?"

"Yeah, why not?" She chuckled.

"Weirdo." I bit down on my lip.

"You're a vibe."

"Thanks, I try to be. Shit with everything going in my life.....I need some type of light to shine." I rested my hand on the side of her thigh.

"Kentrell."

"Yes Anaija." Things grew silent before she pulled me closer to her.

"Just tonight......"

"I'm cool with that." I leaned in placing a kiss on her lips. She placed her hand on the side of my face and I hovered over her.

My phone started ringing and I pulled away to see it was Javen. I looked down at Anaija.

"You ok?" I nodded reaching over to decline it, then I powered it off.

"All good."

Javen Khari Scott

"Mommy I'm scared." Javani cried and I tried to keep her and the rest of my kids quiet.

"Be quiet, it's ok." I was trying to call Kentrell but he wouldn't answer. There was somebody in the house right now and I had all the kids. I could barely move myself so I didn't know what to do. So we all were in my closet and I had my back against the door.

"I want daddy." Ja'Khari pouted.

"Me too, but he won't answer the gohdamn phone." I shook my head. I tried to call everybody else but nobody's answering, but it is going on 4 in the morning. I even called the damn cops and the closest is 25 minutes away.

"Javen!" I put my finger over my mount telling the kids to be quiet.

"Mommy the man is calling you." Javani said.

"I know but we had to be q-" He twisted the doorknob. My closet door didn't have a lock so I was going to have to use my weight to keep this door closed, but I was still healing from getting shot.

"Ohhhhh you playing games." He tried to push it open but I tried to hold my weight against the door.

"Stop it." Armani cried, I got my phone calling Kentrell again and he didn't answer. I pointed for all the kids to go in the corner and they did as told.

Kassian crawled over to me making me sigh. Jalyn for him though. I carefulling stood up holding the closed with my hands.

"Hey. When mommy opens the door I need you all to run. And spread out around the house. Don't come out until mommy says so ok." They nodded.

I took a deep breath before letting the door go. It busted open and I screamed at who it was.

"N-No."

"Daddy?" He looked at Jalyn. His face softened.

"Jalyn......." He bent down to his level with a smile. I shook my head moving Jalyn away from him.

"He is not your daddy."

"Then who is Javen?"

"No you." He stood up getting in my face.

"How does he know you?!"

"Don't worry about it!" All my kids ran away like I told them but Jalyn stayed.

"Jalyn go." He shook his head.

"Daddy." He pointed.

"Right Javen, I'm daddy. Not them other lame ass niggas." I roughly pushed him away which earned me a punch. I fell to the ground and Jalyn gasped. I could see him hesitate but he ran away.

The door slammed shut and I looked up at him.

"You thought this shit was over for good huh?"

Nia -
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Anaija?
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