A/N- TW this includes depression, self harm and mentions of rape. So if any of you are triggered by any of that I recommend you don't read.
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Liam's pov

We have just finished our take me home tour. Just after the last concert I got raped after we went for a night out to celebrate the end of another successful tour. No one knows about it though not even Harry knows and he is my boyfriend. She was so rough with me and I hated every minute of it. She made me feel disgusting. I wanted to save myself for Harry but she has taken it away from me. I am currently in the spare room where I have locked myself in. I don't come out for anything. There is no point. When Harry finds out he is probably going to end our relationship. I have fallen into a deep depression and I don't know if I will survive this.

I have showered every day to try and get her off me. But she always comes back in my nightmares to taunt me and make me more depressed. I started cutting myself the day after the incident. I manage to fall asleep.

In Liam's nightmare

I am partying with the boys. This woman comes up to me and says "Hello handsome. Would you like to dance." I say "No thank you I'm here with someone." I look round for Harry or any of the other boys. I feel a hand go over my mouth and she says to me "No one says no to me." She drags me out and manages to drag me to an ally way. She throws me down and strips me off all of my clothes. I immediately start sobbing and screaming for help. My pleas are cut short by something being tied round my mouth. I look up at her and she starts to strip. I close my eyes not wanting to witness anything. I feel her sink down on me.

Out of the dream still Liam's pov

I wake up sobbing. I grab my blade that I hid in the bedside table and I cut my wrists, stomach and thighs spelling out the words 'Useless, disgusting, ugly, worthless and weak'

Harry's pov

I am worried about Liam. He hasn't spoken to anyone or left the spare room since we got back. I am really worried about him. I say to no one in particular "What if he wants to break up with me" Louis says "I'm sure he doesn't want to break up with you Harry. He loves you. Why don't you try and talk to him again?" I nod and go upstairs. I go to the guest room and I hear him sobbing. I knock on the door and he says "Leave me alone." I say "Li babe. Please come out and talk to me" I hear Liam say "No you'll hate me" I say confused "Li I won't hate you. Please come out and talk to me." I hear the lock click and Liam says "Come in and lock the door behind you." I nod and walk in to the room.

I shut the door and lock it behind me. I sit on the bed next to the lump of Liam laying under the duvet. I say to him "Li what's wrong babe. Why haven't you spoken to anyone since the end of the tour." Liam shrugs and says "I don't wanna talk about what happened. You'll hate me" I say "I could never hate you Liam. I love you too much babe." Liam looks up at me and I see the heartbroken expression on Liam's face. His eyes are red and puffy, his face is all blotchy and he just doesn't look happy. I gently touch his shoulder and he tenses up and flinches.

I take my hand off his shoulder and say to him sincerely looking into his eyes "Please Li tell me what happened. I'll never hate you. I want to help you." Liam says quietly "Please don't tell anyone. Not even the other boys. Please promise me?" I say "I will see Liam but I won't tell anyone who doesn't need to know." Liam nods and continues to talk quietly "Do you remember when we went for a night out just after the tour had finished?" I nod and Liam continues "Do you remember when I disappeared for a while?" I nod again and he continues "This wo.woman came up to me and asked if I wanted to dance. I said no and that I was there with someone and she got offended and said to me "No one says no to me" and she p...put a handdd overrr myy mouth and dddraged me to an ally way anddddd she r...rrrraaaaapped me. Iiii feellll disgustingggg. I ddidn't wanttt thattt. Youuu probably don't believe me but it happenedddd" He turns over and starts sobbing into the pillow. My eyes widen and say "Oh Li babe. Of course I believe you and of course I don't hate you. I know you didn't want to do it. Li" Liam looks up at me and says still sobbing "H..hhow don'tttttt youuu hateeee meeeeee?" I say "Because I love you too much Liam."

I spot blood on his sleeve and I ask him gently "Could I have a look at your wrists please?" Liam nods and allows me to roll up his sleeves. I say "Oh babe. Can I give you a hug" Liam nods and says "I.Iiii needddddd you. Please help meeeee" I nod and gently pull Liam into a hug. He curls into me and sobs into my chest. I gently kiss his forehead and say "I'm going to protect you from now on babe. I promise no one is ever going to touch you like that again" I feel Liam nod and his sobs slowly calms down to sniffles. I ask him "Have you cut anywhere else babe?" Liam nods and says "My thighs and stomach." I ask "Can I go and get the first aid box from downstairs please Liam" I feel Liam nod and say "Please don't tell the other boys." I nod and say "That's fine babe. It's not my decision. Are you going to report it to the police?" Liam shakes his head and I say "That's fine babe. I'll be back up in a few minutes" Liam nods and I unlock the door and go downstairs.

I go to the kitchen and see Niall. Niall asks me "Is he alright? You were up there for a while." I nod and say "He hurt himself again I just need the first aid box." Niall asks "Is it self harm again." I nod and say "Yeah." Niall nods and says "Tell him he is loved by all of us when you go back upstairs and can I come and see him?" I nod and grab the first aid box. I say "I'll ask him. He is quite upset at the moment. Please don't tell the others that he hurt himself again" Niall nods and says "I understand. I won't it's not my place to tell them. I'll let him tell them if he wants" I nod and go back upstairs.

I quietly open the door and shut and lock it behind me. I say "Come on babe. Let's clean up your cuts." Liam nods and I grab out the gauze and sterile water. I start to clean up the cuts on his wrists. He asks "Did the boys ask you?" I say "I only saw Niall and he asked if you were alright?" Liam nods and says "I assume you told him that I cut myself again" I nod and say "I told him not to tell the others about it and he said he wouldn't." I wrap the bandages on liam's wrists and ask "Could I clean up the cuts on your stomach?" Liam nods and lays down. I gently clean up the cuts on Liam's stomach and say "He also told me to tell you that you are loved by all of the boys" Liam nods and says "I know." I gently put a bandage on Liam's stomach and say to him "Did you want to clean up the cuts on your thighs" Liam nods and he pulls down his joggers. I hand Liam the gauze and water and he cleans up his thighs. I hand him the bandages and he wraps his thighs up so the cuts don't get infected and he then pulls up his joggers and he says "I wanna cuddle." I nod and allow Liam to cuddle into me. I say "The other boys are worried about you as well. Shall we go and see them?" Liam shrugs and says "I wanna cuddle with you though Hazza" I nod and say "We can still cuddle babe. I promise" Liam nods and says "Let's go but I don't want them to touch me" I nod and say "That's fine babe. You don't have to have them touching you"

I help Liam up and I lead him downstairs. The boys look up as we walk into the living room. Niall asks him "Are you alright Liam?" Liam nods and we sit down. Liam curls up on my lap and I hold him knowing he is going to be a bit nervous about being down here. Louis asks "Li why did you shut us out?" Liam shrugs and says "Because you'll hate me" I say "None of us hate you Liam." Liam curls further into me and says "but I don't get why though Hazza. You especially should hate me. I know I hate myself" I say "Li I don't hate you because I love you and nothing that happened was your fault. You didn't want that to happen so I want to help you" I feel Liam nod against my chest and Zayn asks "What happened Liam?" Liam looks at me and says "Can you tell them. I don't wanna say it again but they deserve to know" I nod and say "Are you sure babe?" Liam nods and I say "You know that night when we were at a night out after the tour ended?" All the boys nod and I continue "this woman came up to him and asked if he wanted to dance but Liam said no and he came with someone. This woman put a hand over Liam's mouth and dragged him into an alley way and raped him." All of the looks like they could go and murder someone. Louis says "How dare she. Liam are you going to report it?" Liam shakes his head and says "That way the fans will find out. I don't want them to find out Lou" Louis nods and Niall says "Li something needs to be done though. She can't get away with it" Liam shrugs and says "I don't wanna report it though Ni. Please don't make me" he gives Niall the puppy eyes and Niall sighs "Fine I won't make you but no one hurts my best friend and gets away with it" Liam smiles and it makes us all smile.

A few weeks later no one's pov

Harry and the rest of the boys has been supporting Liam through his recovery. Harry goes with him to every therapist appointment he has and he slowly recovers and Harry is really proud of how far he has come. He still gets nightmares every now and then and Harry is always there to comfort him and reassure him that no one hates him.