Liam's pov

We are just starting up our up all night tour. One thing that all the boys don't know about me is that I get really bad panic attacks not even Niall knows. That's how I want it to be. So far all my panic attacks has been one that I can handle on my own but I am scared that one day one of the other boys will find out about my panic attacks.

This morning has been horrible. Niall spilled milk down his top so he had to change, Louis took ages in the bathroom, Harry burned his arm on the oven by accident and Zayn overslept. I hate it when things like this happen. Niall says to me "Li are you ok babe? You are very quiet" I nod and I make sure that no one is looking before I make sure that I have my inhaler with me.

Once we have finished with our interviews we go out and we see lots of fans Niall looks over at me and says "You'll be ok Liam. We won't let them too close to you" I nod but my breathing picks up slightly as we walk out. I have always been claustrophobic. Only Niall knows that I am though.

Niall's pov

I watch Liam out of the corner of my eye and I see the panic in his eyes. He is claustrophobic. I slow my pace so Liam can catch up. When Liam catches up I gently place a hand on his back. He is shaking like a leaf and his breathing is really quick. I whisper comforting words to him and I gently push him along. I know he is having a  panic attack. We are almost at the van when Liam collapses I grab him under his arms and see that his eyes are still open and he is glancing around. I help him into the van. I shut the door behind me and lock it. I say "Don't go yet we need to sort Liam out he is having a panic attack a bad one at that. Don't crowd him too much that will make it worse" they all nod and sit down to not get in the way not wanting to crowd Liam too much

I kneel down in front of Liam and I look into his eyes I say in a soothing voice "Li babe. Look me in the eyes. No where else" Liam looks me in the eyes. I continue in the same soothing voice "That's it babe, you're ok. You are safe you are in the van" I continue to whisper comforting words to Liam and soon his breathing returns to normal. I smile at him and say "There we go babe. Are you ok now?" Liam shakes his head and says weakly "Inhaler. My chest is tight." I am confused he hasn't asked an inhaler before. "Li where is it?" He responds weakly "In my bag" I go to Liam's bag and I find the inhaler quickly. I hand it to Liam and he puts it in his mouth. He presses down and starts breathing. Once he is done he hands it to me and I put it in his bag. I say to him "You ok now?" Liam nods and says "Can I have a hug though" I respond "Of course babe" I strap him in and I sit in the seat next to him. I quickly strap myself in and he cuddles into me and closes his eyes and very soon he is asleep

Louis says "Is he ok now?" I nod and respond "he is fine. That was scary." Harry nods and responds "How did you know what to do?" I respond "I did a course in school which taught me to be a first aider and how to calm someone from a panic or anxiety attack" Zayn responds "At least he is ok now" I nod and say "I'm going to talk to him about hiding the fact he has panic attacks from us." They nod.

When we get to the hotel I carefully unstrap me and Liam and I gently pick him up. I carry him up to the hotel and I say "I'm going to lay with him in bed" they nod and I take him up to our room with Louis following. He unlocks the door and opens it for us. I gently place Liam on the bed and Louis hands me the key. "Thanks Lou" Louis responds "Your welcome Niall" and he leaves the room. I put the key down and lay down next to Liam. He cuddles closer to me.

An hour later Liam begins to wake up and he says "Ni what happened?" I respond "You had a panic attack Li. Why didn't you tell me you have panic attacks? I was scared" Liam looks away me with his bottom lip trembling and he says shakily "I don't know. I was scared what you would have thought." I pull him into a hug I feel his tears hit my skin. I rub his back and I say to him "Li I love you, but you can be so silly. I hate the fact that you think that you have to bottle everything up all the time. Please come to me or someone when you feel panicky" I feel Liam nod into my shoulder and he says "I promise NiNi" I kiss his forehead and I hold him close.

Liam says "Can we watch a movie and cuddle Ni?" I respond "Of course babe. What do you want to watch?" Liam responds "I want to watch Harry Potter" I nod and say "Let me up then Li, I need to go and put it on" Liam nods and let's me up I put on the first Harry Potter and I get back into bed with Liam. He cuddles closer to me and I hold him protectively. I kiss his hair and say "I love you like, never scare me like that again" Liam smiles and says "I love you too. I'll try not to."

No one's pov

The next day Liam felt better and they had another day to relax and the day after they went off on their hectic schedule.

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A/n I might do a part 2 of this soon