Elena's pov
Four long days of being in the hospital.The morning after I had Anaíya,the nurse got me up to walk around the nurses station.I wanted to scream my fucking head off.I couldn't crotch over,I had to be fully standing up but walking at my own paste.
I have to come back next Friday to get my staples removed.I don't know which is worst getting them or getting them taking out.

Malena did bring the girls to meet their little sister.They both happily held her.Naveen didn't want to come near me.All of the i.v's and machines scared her.The only way I got a kiss from her was due to Zayn lifting her up over me.Naveen kept asking if the nurses were feeding me and am I getting any rest.My little worrier.

Now that's all over because I'm home.Trisha and Esme filled our fridge and freezer with plenty of food.Labels for each day.Zayn and I are extremely grateful.Take out was going to be our dinner for the next three weeks.

"Are you comfortable?"Zayn asks, handing me a bottle of opened water."Thank you and yes."

He sat beside me,yawning."Take a nap.The girls won't be home for another three hours."

Of course he denies,"I'm good."I kiss his cheek,"Lay your head on my lap.She's sleeping,you can get in a good hour."I explain,I fed Anaíya as soon as we got in.Zayn burped an then she fell asleep.I can say out of all our kids she's the easiest to get to sleep.But she's only a week old so I better not get my hopes up

"Lay your head here."He tiredly smiles,Zayn hasn't slept in nearly a week.

His mind is driving the both of us crazy.What happened with me losing a lot of blood was a reality check for the both of us.It makes me sick to think I wouldn't see my girls grow up.That is any parents biggest nightmare.The second day of being in the hospital,Zayn finally filled me in on what he was thinking about.It scared him to think he came close to losing me,telling the girls I didn't make it.We also talked about what Yaser said.And I couldn't agree more.
A scary situation for the both of us, now we have to really bounce back to being us and treasure these moments.

"Do you need anything?"He asks,
yawing again."No I'm fine.I want you to sleep."He lays on his stomach, placing his head on my lap.Being very carful on how close he lays next to my stomach.I gently start running my hands through his hair.He goes to sleep within seconds.

*
It hit me that we are parents of three daughters now.I'm going to enjoy this time with Anaíya being a new born because they grow up so fast.Amina being eight and Naveen turning five in month.It's bittersweet because i love seeing their personalities form and sometimes I like hearing their opinion.

It was like a family gathering in our bathroom while Zayn gave the girls a bath.I'm sitting near my closet with Anaíya,watching them.

"My big toe hurts."Naveen randomly says,looking at her dad."What should I do about that Navi?"

She lays back holding herself up,
putting her wrinkled toes in his face.

"Kiss it."

See there comes a time in a parents life when their child's feet doesn't seem as cute when they start to sweat.Naveen's feet stop being cute and kissable when she was about two going on three.

"No.Your toe looks perfectly fine and chubby."Zayn says,tickling the bottom of her feet.

"Mummy can you brush my hair?" Mina asks,not making eye contact with Zayn.I giggle,lifting Anaíya away from my stomach.

"Yes baby."

Zayn looks at me,then her."I've gotten better."

"No you haven't."Amina says,"You kinda suck."I try not to laugh hard without scarring Anaíya.

"Remember I'm packing your lunch in the morning.No cookies or brownies."
Her face quickly changes."No daddy. You can brush my hair."

He rinses Naveen off,"I guess."

"I want a turkey sandwich."Naveen says,she actually put thought into what she wants."Okay let's have that discussion in the morning.Stand up."

I slowly got up,to go back to our room.I lay Anaíya on the boppy pillow.Scooting her to the middle of the bed.Cesarean recovery and a bed that stands high don't mix well.

Hearing Zayn say shit,means two things either he poured too much baby powered on them ,or the amount of bubbles he put in the bath are still in the tub after he drained the water out.

I got the brush from my top draw, waiting for Amina.Naveen's hair has been in braided pig tails since last night.I'll take them out after she gets home school tomorrow.

Taking their sweet time,I start taking more pictures of Anaíya.Its sad how many pictures I have in my phone of my kids.Well over 3,000.Messing around with Naveen I have to make sure I download them to my lap top before happy fingers starts deleting shit.

When they came in,Amina sits between my legs and Naveen and Zayn give Anaíya a little cuddle.

"Can we do something fun this weekend?"Amina asks,I feel bad that I haven't done anything other then watch films and eat junk with them.
I haven't been taking them to the park or little outings like I usual do when it's warm out.

"Sure."I say,Zayn looks at me worried."What should we do?"

"Picnic in the doll house,with.."Amina turns her head to her sister,messing me up with the braid I was trying to do."Meme and Nana!"Naveen says then kisses Anaíya.

"No friends?"I ask,

"Next time."Well it's clear Amina has this all planned out."Okay.I'll call them tomorrow."

When Anaíya became hungry,Zayn took the girls in their room to watch some cartoons before their bedtime.
I don't think I'll ever be comfortable with breast feeding.I normally last three months with breast feeding.
Then I'll start pumping and she will use bottles.I understands it's some type of connection you have with your baby.But it's not for me.

I'm happy our rough patch is over. When I first tried breast feeding, she wouldn't latch on.It was so fucking painful.Repositioning her, raw nipples ,making sure her weight isn't on my stomach.All things went wrong!

Zayn walks in just as I finish feeding her,coming right for Anaíya."Hey beautiful."sitting down on the love seat.It's been four years since we had to take care of an infant and I must say Zayn remembered everything.

"Girls,sleeping?"

"Yeah but their tv is still on."I nod,
smiling at Anaíya who's falling asleep, herself. But burps rather loud."Oh my gosh."I laugh saying.

"You make this too easy baby."

**

"I need a shower."I say to Zayn,I was going to take one while he took the girls to school.But I couldn't.

"Alright."

I slowly dragged my feet to the bathroom,walking into my side of the closet.Black maxi dress and boy cut undies.I have to keep wearing these for the next few weeks due to me wearing a pad.A lot of things happen when you have a c section.

Hearing Zayn turning on the shower,I walked out to see Anaíya in her rocker at the entrance of the bathroom.

Taking my shirt off is painful,Zayn lifted it over my head then took my shorts off.

I could melt under the hot water it felt so good."Feeling alright?"He asks, sitting on the edge of the tub watching Anaíya.

"Yeah.This shower feels like heaven."
I felt like a human again.At the hospital I took a shower but it wasn't my shower,my soap and wash cloth.

Little cranky baby started to get fussy.I didn't have to cut my shower short because Zayn got her to clam down.

Nursing bras have to be the ugliest bras in the world.Absolutely awful.
They work great but could've done better on the design on them.

"Zayn?"I need help...

He comes in,"Yeah?"

"Where's Anaíya?"I ask,he turns around pointing to Anaíya like I could see her.

"What's wrong?"

"I need help putting on my undies."I say,none of this is awkward for him. For a week he did this after I had Naveen.

Leaning on the counter,Zayn lifts my right foot first them my left.He give my butt a squeeze after he puts them on."Thank you."

"Mm-hmm.You good?"

"Yeah.I'll be right out."he leaves and I put some deodorant on,no perfume.I rather not break Anaíya skin out.

"Who's that pretty lady Littles?That's your mummy."Zayn says to Anaíya.
Her chubby face rest against his shoulder,with his hand on her back.

I went up to kiss her cheek."Given daddy a cuddle aren't ya.."

Zayn carefully watched me as I waked away,to painfully get on our bed."Shit."I mumbled in pain.One thing I can say about Zayn,he doesn't do too well with seeing people in pain when he can't help them."I'm okay."

He nods,"Hungry?You haven't eaten this morning."

"Yeah."

"We will be back."He says,"I want to go.I need to walk."His face expression changed and seems unsure."Stop worrying."

*
"You've been by my side for almost two weeks now."I say,"You're not skipping out on anything,are you?"

After we ate,I needed some fresh air so we decided to take a very slow walk around the block.Nice little breeze for Anaíya,who's full and sleeping.

"No.I told everyone when you were due and I need some time.But I actually have something to do Monday and Tuesday so was going to ask my mum or Esme to stay."

"I'm not paralyzed."I say.

Shaking his head,"I didn't say you were Lena.How will you get the girls?Carrying Anaíya,seat belt rubbing against your stomach."

"Okay,okay.You have a valid point."I say.He smiles in pure satisfaction.

"So I was thinking.."Zayn is making me nerves,"Maybe we could push the wedding up."

"Why?"I ask,watching him fit Anaíya blanket."I want you to be my wife. Waiting until mid next year seems far away."

"What month are you thinking?"

We turn on our block,walking back to the house."Promise to not give some crazy look?"

"No because you don't have to plan this.So?"

"The week of my birthday."That made me stop and look at him like he's bat shit fucking crazy."Really?"

"Yes.I want you to be my wife Lena."He says,typing in the code for the gate.Pushing Anaíya who's wide awake now.

"That's nine months away Zayn."I say winching when I step into the house.

"Let's go sit."

Before I go to the couch,I wash my hands.Zayn follows me with Anaíya in his arms.We get to the couch and he carefully hands her over.

"Yes or no?"he impatiently asks,

"Nine months to plan a wedding."I say,this doesn't seem realistic what so ever.

"That sounds like you want to say yes."He kisses my cheek then Anaíya's.

"That's nine months Zayn."

"Our mums will be a massive help with all of this babe."Zayn says,I roll my eyes,"I didn't say yes."

"Then what's your answer?"He asks,
"It will be perfect Elena.They can create a fucking miracle in nine months."I start playing with Anaíya's tiny fingers.That's what this wedding will be if it comes together properly.
A fucking miracle

"Okay."I say,his smiles grows quickly.
Leaning in for a kiss and his hand accidentally touches my staples.
"Ow."

"Shit,Sorry."He pecks the corner of my lips."I love you."

"I'll love you even more if you go to the cafe and get me a red raspberry scone and a white chocolate frap no whipped cream extra caramel."I explain,smiling hoping he says yes.

Chuckles,"Is this a bribe?"

"No.You want to be nice to the woman who has staples in her stomach for carrying your beautiful daughter."

This time I didn't get a kiss,Anaíya did."Alright."he stands up,going for his keys."I love you sexy."

He laughs,flipping me off.

Our love...