I can't flirt... I found that out two weeks ago at this horrible school dance. I tried really hard to flirt with Jake. I kept taking his hat. It was very childish. I wanted his attention. However I also took Nick's hat, I didn't want to make my flirting too obvious. I made Jake chase me, and he would wrap his arms around me. To me it felt special, I don't think he felt anything.

On Monday I stared at him briefly from across the cafeteria. What took me out of my trance so to speak, was Shane. Gosh Shane... I used to like him. He's one of my many best guy friends. He's short, and blonde, and green/blue eyes. He's smart too, I told Jake that I liked Shane when I did. He thought that we would be good together. We never got together though, and I'm glad we didn't Shane has this strange addiction to my best friend Miranda's yogurt. Monday he almost smacked me. I yelled at him.

One of my other really good friends it Julie. I believe she still likes Jake, so I need to watch out for her. I love her like a sister and I really don't want to hurt her, so I try avoiding Jake.

Me trying to avoid him seems impossible. Monday afternoon we had this stupid assembly on bullying again. He sat right next to me and talked to me about useless nonsense. I listened though, because I love hearing him talk. I put my arms on the arm-rests at one point and I think he didn't know because he put his arm there and we both quickly removed our hands. At one point Miranda poked me so I poked Jake. He and I went back and forth until i just stopped.