[A/N]
"Italicized words inside double quotation are spoken in English"

"Normal text in double quotation are spoken in Japanese"

'Italicized words inside single quotation are spoken in thoughts'

I was also told to put up warnings so... Warning.

I'm not really sure what to warn you about tho (maybe from the feels? ouo)

Hmm... I guess I should warn you about the talking back to your parents part. Good kids should not do that.

Enjoy~
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"I'm getting married"

Those three words softly echoed in Rin's head as the deafening silence swallowed the two.

"Sorry, but I think I didn't hear you right. What did you say?" Rin asked with voice a noticeably shaking with a hint of surprise, anger, and confusion and eyes darkened.

"Rin, I'm getting married" _____ repeated as she looked straight to his eyes.

Rin's eye twitched, balled his hands into a fist, and threw his head in frustration.

"WHY DID YOU COME HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE?!" Rin yelled out loud as tears slowly started to stream down his face.

"I wanted to see my first love. I wanted to see you again." _____ said calmly as she approached Rin and wiped his tears... just like the old times.

When she was done, she placed her hand on his cheek and slowly caressed it, feeling his soft skin while the other was holding his hand. He could only look at her, eyes a little red and still teary, as he tried his best to stop the tears from following.

He gave her that look. That look at that she thought would never see again. The same look he gave her before their last verbal exchange of 'I love you'. The look that screams 'don't leave me'.

She took a deep breathe before taking a step back and putting on a cheery smile.

"You know, my fiancé is a kind man. He's the son of a close family friend and he's such a gentleman that he makes me feel so self-conscious but whenever we're alone—"

"Enough. I can never hate you so stop trying." Rin said softly, cutting _____ midsentence.

She stopped talking and smiled a little happily that even with all that's happened, he still know her too well.

"How long have you been engaged?" Rin asked _____ as he looked at her intently.

"3 months after I left Australia."

"Is that why your letters stopped?

_____ nodded as she stared at her feet.

Flashback --- 3 months after leaving Australia---

For _____, every day was boring and lifeless and the only thing that excites her were Rin's letters. Rin really did sent her letters every day, even if the contents weren't important. To her, it was like she had become Rin's private diary. Of course, she also did the same. For them, the current exchange was enough until ____'s family had dinner with a really close family friend.

"I AM NOT AND WILL NOT MARRY HIM!" ______ yelled as she slammed her bedroom door.

Get together dinners were fine, but that particular dinner was nothing more than a scam to _____.

"______. Open this door, baby girl." Her father said softly as he knocked on her door with his wife beside him.

"An arranged marriage meeting?! ARE YOU CRAZY?! YOU KNOW I ALREADY LOVE SOMEONE ELSE! YOU KNOW THAT SO HOW COULD YOU!?" She continued her grief as she cried.

The dinner started normally, some chit chats, talks about the past, and the children pretending to care, but her parent's friend suddenly brought out the topic of her engagement with their son. Upon hearing this, the said engaged couple exchanged shocked looks and immediately asked what was happening. Apparently, during the days when they (the dads) were young, they promised that if applicable, their children be wed. Friendship was a treasured thing in our family so my father couldn't say no.

The engagement was already decided before that dinner began.

"I'm sorry, honey. I tried, I really did, but—"

"But what? My feelings aren't important? It's as if you sold me."

____'s father sighed knowing that her daughter wouldn't back down.

"My friend... is kind, but when he wants to achieve something he will do it anything as long as it isn't illegal. The man you're engaged to also have a lover..."

By this time, _____ was already listening.

"He couldn't accept his son's relationship so to get rid of the girl he decided to dig up the past and came across our promise."

______ was put in a state of confusion and disgust at what she was hearing. She is being put in a position she never want, to be a couple's reason for separation.

"There's no doubt that if he found out about your man in Australia, he will do anything to make his life difficult..."

...

"Actually, I wouldn't be shocked if he already knew about him and had made his move."

That line struck _____ as she immediately remembered Rin's latest letters about new recruits and how things were getting difficult in his training.

"No way." She muttered before quickly standing up to open the door.

She was a mess, tear stained face, unruly hair, and bloodshot eyes. She opened her mouth but words wouldn't come out, wearing a painful expression as she once again started tearing up.

Her mother comforted her as she continues to weep and curse in her head about how useless she is about not knowing what to do.

She could've fought, but she thought about Rin and his dreams. Would she decide to act selfishly and continue her relationship with Rin at the cost of his dreams?

No. That was something she could never do to him. His dreams are as important as hers and he is the most important thing in her life. Was there really no way out?

"I know it's difficult, but we just want to tell you that whatever you may choose, we will support you." Her father said tenderly at he pat his daughters head gently.

"What would you do if you were in my position?" She choked out while his father pursed his lips.

"I can't say. You and me see things differently. What is right for me may not be right for you."

"I understand. Give me time."

With those words, her parents gave her all the time she needed and a week later, she decided to do what she believes is the best.

She walked slowly to her father's study with a letter in hand and knocked.

"Father, it's me. I have decided. I'll... marry him. That's all." With that she left and looked for the nearest servant to send her last letter to Rin.

End of Flashback

"Were you arranged?" Rin asked seriously.

"My wedding's in a week and I came here to personally invite you to my wedding." _____ said instead of answering.

"No thanks. Seeing you get married to some guy is a waste of time." He replied and starts to walk away.

He stopped for a moment with his back still facing her.

"You should go back and do your final preparations." He added nonchalantly.

"Idiot." _____ whispered to herself before catching up to Rin and hugged him from behind.

"You're such an idiot." She said not really caring whether her voice was breaking or not.

Rin just stood there in shocked, not because of what she said but because of the sudden nostalgic hug and the feeling of wetness that was forming in his back. He realized these were tears. He was once again speechless and he feels his heart tightening and getting crushed from the tears she was shedding for him.

"You're such an idiot." She repeated.

"Why did you only asked whether I was arranged or not?" She added as she started pounding lightly on his back.

"Why didn't you asked whether or not I was happy?"

"Why didn't you asked whether or not I still love you?"

Rin froze.

"I love you. I still very much do. If forgetting you was easy, I wouldn't have came here to find you. I would've just let you continue your peaceful life. I came here to see you so that I can fully let you go. I wanted to see you happy without me. That's what I want." _____ said as she let go of her embrace and kissed his cheek.

She made him look at her and cupped his face. She didn't care about how she looked, she wants him to see her say her next words.

"I came here to say farewell to the only man I will ever love. My first and last love, that's you, Matsuoka Rin. Goodbye."

She completely let go of his face and ran away, leaving a shocked frozen Rin.