and he felt really lightheaded. He was sure he was going to pass out.

them... miss them... her... her her her her HER HER HER HER

"Ngh-" Technoblade tried his best to stay conscious, fighting the inevitable. 

He missed them. 

He missed them so much.

(Y/N's POV)

Something was wrong with Technoblade. 

You carefully dismounted  the horse you had tamed, and slowly approched him. 

He was pressing his hands desperately against his head, making small whimpering noises. 

"Technoblade...?" You slowly reached out and touched his arm. 

He snapped upwards, grabbing your arm in one hand, and reaching for the sword sheathed at his hip with the other. Suddenly, recognition flashed through his eyes and he relaxed. "Are you okay?" You asked, genuinely concerned. 

"Yeah, I'm okay, no need to worry." He nodded, relaxing even further. You weren't entirely convinced. Technoblade released your arm and gestured toward the horse you had tamed.

"So?" He continued, "What did you name her?"

You blinked. You hadn't yet given the horse a name. You looked back at it, and it trotted over to you, brushing it's muzzle against your face. It smelled like sunlight and lilies.

"Lily." You smiled, stroking the horse softly. Technoblade nodded approvingly.

"Fitting." He said, patting your back twice before turning and retrieving the saddle off the ground. He placed it on Lily, who was confused for a few seconds on what he had placed on her back, but she soon calmed down again.

Technoblade then helped you back up onto the horse, and jogged along side you as you headed to the trees where Technoblade had first appeared from. He had said he left Carl, his horse, there.

"Here he is." Techno reached into the forest and pulled out a rope. Attached to the other side of it was a dark brown horse wearing diamond armor. "Oh! Almost forgot." Techno pulled out the extra set of horse armor and soon had it fastened around Lily. She seemed a little anxious about it at first, but after some gentle encouragement, she was mostly okay with it.

Technoblade quickly mounted Carl in one graceful sweeping motion, and beckoned you to follow him. He and Carl disappeared into the forest, with you and Lily following behind.

There was a small path through the forest, which Carl trotted down with ease, you came up beside him and Technoblade. 

Techno looked really regal sitting atop his horse. 

He had a really defined jawline, you noticed. His hair looked really soft. The back of it, instead of being in a braid like he usually had it, was tied back in a small pony tail. The white-trimmed cloak around his shoulders rippled as he rode along, flowing and rolling like a sea of red silk. The golden crown on his head gleamed in the dappled sunlight filtering through the treetops. He looked very stoic and handsome.

Handsome??? You nearly chocked on your own spit. Why did you think that?? I mean not that it was untrue... but why were you getting so flustered? It was fine, it was fine. 

You managed to calm yourself back down and looked back at Technoblade.

You gazed at him for a while until he noticed your staring, to which you looked away quickly, blushing in embarrassment that you had been caught.

Technoblade looked away again, smiling to himself. The blush on your cheeks grew darker. 

Why were you getting so flustered?? You only ever acted this way around Dream, back before you had been a couple, and before he had turned on you.

You didn't think of Technoblade that way...

Did you?