Starting a book

✓ These things will teach me how to write book . I will teach someone that they need to change the way they believe. A lot of people in family we are ready for your book. I'm looking for a key changer : By me listening to  Tony Robbins he is making me realize that , a lot of people need to change the way they think . So I been thinking we'll letting me working on  how  I'm coming through my recovery of pulmonary hypertension, scleroderma, kidney failure , low blood pressure and I am still fighting. I want to tell my fan base , that You have to change and look at God how you do things.

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Hello this this is Tonya  Jackson and I died on January 17, 2017  for eight minutes.  My family called , me a fighter. I didn't believe it , but I needed that motivation from someone, it happens to be God, and my husband, and mom.
It's good to have  someone in your life that can give you a push. But if you  don't have no one, it's ok, believe in God. He will give you a push that will help  with your life , seek in him and look learn and listen . You can find your results. I had to do that , I was so delusional in the hospital I had stop look, listen  to get my recovery and to help change my mind.  I never liked art , Guess what art helps my recovery , by keeping my body calm. I just love to color, paint on  my easel doing abstract painting.  I don't want to give  book away but I want you to listen and take notes by reading  to what I am Hello this this is Tonya  Jackson and I died on January 17, 2017  for eight minutes.  My family called , me a fighter. I didn't believe it , but I needed that motivation from someone, it happens to be God, and my husband, and mom.
It's good to have  someone in your life that can give you a push. But if you  don't have no one, it's ok, believe in God. He will give you a push that will help  with your life , seek in him and look learn and listen . You can find your results. I had to do that , I was so delusional in the hospital I had stop look, listen  to get my recovery and to help change my mind.  I never liked art , Guess what art helps my recovery , by keeping my body calm. I just love to color, paint on  my easel doing abstract painting.  I don't want to give  book away but I want you to listen and take notes by reading  to what I am saying.
Chapter one: how to change what you are thinking right now

Changing what you are thinking  right now , isn't a  hard job.  People say says you have to want to change the the you look at things. I agree at that , but you have  things put in place, take long walks, listen to music,   and do things that you like to do.  It might not be today , but open your hears to the voice of  God. He will show you your outcome to change the way you think ? It might be today but he will show you in due.   Since , I was 22 years old. I was young  I was working  to pay bills and I was like a person , man all I do is pay bills, I can't do things by  myself always complaining to my  friends and boy friend.  Always saying I cleaning up and work all day ,  the house  dirty  , I loved a cleaned.  Look, at mind mind , it was so  negative . Then  on I am diagnosed with scleroderma, pulmonary hypertension, I had to do things very slowly because of my breath , but I was steal working  in my thirties and still complaining. It was hard to channel my  brain  to become positive , I prayed but my eye wasn't on God , I was neglecting him , God is a jealous God , and he don't like that .
On January 17,2017, I died   For 8 minutes , all of  my husband family, doctors, and nurses couldn't believe. A lot what happened is a blur, but , my husband says , I was so delusional hitting and fighting the nurses. I didn't know where I was. I had a feeding tube down my throat and I was super skinny.  My husband were crying , and family members too.   That's the first time I say , thank you Jesus for waking, I am his miracle. My eyes open everyday and I starting say thank you Jesus.  I was depressed, I felt ugly, I couldn't eat regularly, and crying a lot. My husband says, I'm his hero , I didn't have to fight back. I told him u needed me and my parents. God , gave me the gift of coloring for the children in the hospital, nurses, started bringing me things, I was steal scared to sleep at night. The doctors gave me sleeping pills.  I  cherish my family, God, husband because they kept me strong . I was having delusional in the hospital, I was seeing things that wants there. I was hurting myself a lot . I learned that I need to smile and say thank you Jesus for waking me up. That is the devil sneaking bad thoughts , I need to learned to get away from me. So I am telling my readers I dealing with a lot at38 years old , but I need to stop and  let God work and relax. Yes, it hard but God is keeping me though daily. All the   Complaining that I did was so childish, all I have to do is to give it to God.