Emily POV

I took the kids to my mom's because she wanted to see them, so Aaron got to work before I did. I stopped by his favorite coffee shop and grabbed him coffee and a piece of coffee cake. I went up to his office and gave him a kiss on the mouth.

"Morning baby." I said giving him his coffee and bread.

"Morning." He said in a not so happy way.

"Ok, what's wrong? What is bothering you?" I asked sitting on his lap.

He rubbed his temple. "My brother Sean called me, he wants to meet you and the kids."

"Ok, so what's the problem with that?"

"Because every time Sean shows up, he brings problems."

"So he's the bad seed of the family?"

"In a way."

"Baby, I know he stresses you out, but you can't hide from him forever. He is your brother. How about you invite him for dinner? I'll cook. That way I can finally meet him, he gets to meet the kids, and you two can catch up. You never know, maybe he's changed. Maybe he's not as bad as you remember."

"Ok."

"Good. I'll see you later." I kissed him on the lips, he kissed me back deepening the kiss.

I got off of him and left him alone with his thoughts.

Hotch POV

I was not happy about having Sean coming over. I know  for a fact that he'd never change. It just wouldn't happen. I didn't want him setting a bad example for my kids. And I definitely did not want him around Emily. Sean is a lady's man. Flirting with one girl to the next. And i know, if Sean started flirting with Emily i'd freak out. And i know i haven't trusted Emily in the past, but i do know. I just don't trust Sean.

Blake POV

I got out of the elevator and walked to my desk. I felt cold and alone. Ethan was running through my mind. This week was the anniversary of his death. And i was handling it worse this year than i did the rest. Maybe because i was with Rossi and he didn't know about Ethan.

That was eating at me, i didn't want us to have any secrets. I hated not telling him. I was just afraid, i didn't want him to get mad.

I sat down and rubbed my eyes, i shut them and took a deep breath. The smell of the hospital filled my senses. The hospital room. Ethan lying there with tubes in his arms. He was so confused, hell i was confused. I had no idea why he was there.

My little boy was dying and the doctor's couldn't even tell me what he had. All they could tell me was that it was some neurological disease. But this disease that my son had, had no name.

I remember yelling at the doctors telling them to find a way to save me son. James had to hold me back from fighting the doctor. My baby boy, he was so young. Only 9 years old when his life was taken from him. He was so smart. He was so small, but at the same time, he was so big. He was almost as tall as me when he died.

I fell apart when Ethan died. I stayed in bed all day, crying. I'd hold a picture of him and just cry. I stopped eating and took time off of work. There was a hole in my heart and my head. I couldn't concentrate, eat, sleep, get up, or even breath without Ethan.

Ethan was my pride and joy. He was my life. And the worst part was i didn't even spend much time with Ethan before he got sick. I was always working. It was around the time Strauss and I had that problem together because i had arrested the wrong suspect in the Amerithrax case.

I worked so hard for Strauss to just put all the blame on me, and after that Ethan got sick. I hated myself for not spending enough time with him. But when i did, he made me the happiest person in the world. With his facts and jokes.

I just wished i could have been there for him, spent more time with him. After he was gone, i lost my reason to smile. His death also affected James. His death tore us apart from each other. We'd just fight and fight. That's around the time he took the job with Doctor's without borders. It was better for us that way. We'd be away from each other for a while, and then when he'd come back we were good. It kept us sane and a 'happy' couple. But there was no fixing a troubled marriage.

I looked up and saw JJ and Reid come in. He had his arm around her neck, and she had her arm around his waist. They truly were the perfect couple. He sat by her desk and kissed her. He reminded me so much of Ethan. I just know that Ethan would have been like him.

Ethan was super smart for his age, and everytime i saw Spencer, i'd think of Ethan. Focus Blake. Focus on your job. Don't mix personal with business, it doesn't make good business.

I saw Morgan and Garcia walk in. It was her first day back. We all hugged her and welcomed her back. Morgan was playing around with a baseball and threw it at Reid. He fumbled but caught it. I smiled.

Hotch came out of his office, "We have a case."

We got up and walked to the round table.

Rossi POV

Call me crazy but something is wrong with Alex. She looks distraught, and unfocused. I wish she'd tell me what's wrong. I would do any thing I could to help. I knew she was hiding something, I just didn't know what. I hoped she'd trust me and tell me.

"Ok, so we have been called in from Seattle. 3 children have gone missing in the past 3 months. All boys, from ages 9-11. This unsub keeps them alive for a week then drowns them. After each child is drowned, this unsub takes them out of the water and carefully lays them down in a park covered in leaves." Said Hotch.

"This takes a lot of work, and patience. I mean how do you drown a 9-11 year old child without a fight? There are no bruises or marks on any of these kids." Said JJ.

"He could have drugged them, using chloroform. Easy way to get a kid to stop fighting." Suggested Prentiss.

"Look at the way this unsub stages the bodies, and the way they are killed. Like if the unsub wanted the kids to go away peacefully." I said.

"It could be a woman."

"We will continue briefing in the jet. Wheels up in 30." Said Hotch.

We all got up and headed out. I grabbed onto Alex's arm and brought her close to me. I had noticed she didn't say a word, and didn't look like she was paying attention at all.

"Are you ok?" I asked.

"Yeah." I knew she was lying.

"Alex, you know you can tell me anything, right?"

"Yeah." She kissed me and left. Something was going on.

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1 Day Later

Alex POV

The unsub had taken another little boy while we were here. I wanted this guy, bad. The boy he took this time was nine, his name was Randy. We had figured out why he took these specific boys, their families were all the same. Distant, workaholics, and never involved in their children's lives.  

After a couple more hours we found the unsub, Carl Johnson. He was apart of a wealthy family. Also a family with problems of their own. Never spent anytime with their children and spent all their time at work. When Carl was 9, his older brother who was 11, they were left alone in the house. The parents had work to get to.

They left the stove on, leaving a pot burning. Somehow a towel caught on fire and ran through the house. The closest room to the kitchen was Carl's older brother. Smoke filled the house, and when they got both Carl and his brother out, his brother was dead.

So when he saw these families. it reminded him of his. He wanted them to hurt and realize that their kids needed them. And they should have been their sooner.

This case reminded me of Ethan, if I would have paid more attention, stopped working. Push it away Alex. We got out of the car and into Carl's home. Pointing guns and went down tot he basement.

"Carl! It's the FBI!" I yelled.

He grabbed the little boy and put the gun to his head.

"Put the gun down!" Yelled Emily.

"Why? So he could go back to that home, where no one loves him or pays attention to him! No, i'm helping him." He said.

"I know you are. And I know that you are just trying to get these families to understand that they should value their children more. But Randy's family miss him very much. And they want him back." I said.

"It's too late."

"No, no it's not. Their is still time. Just give him to me."

"No! His family needs to know."

"They know now. Ok. Carl I know you are hurting, but for a parent to lose it's child is the worse pain in the world. Sometimes parents can be selfish and put themselves first without thinking of their kids. But, having a child taken from you, your baby, is something no body deserves."

"How would you know?"

I sighed, knowing everyone was behind me, and was about to hear what I was going to say. Especially Dave. "Because I used to be that parent." I saw Emily shoot me a confused look.

"What do you mean you used to?"

"Because I spent so long trying to be a good Agent of the FBI and try to make my bosses proud, that I spent more time at work than I did with my own son. My son was 9 when he died. He died in my arms."

"How, how did he die?"

I don't know. Nobody has a name for it. All the doctor's could tell me was that it was some neurological disease. There was and still is no name or cure for it. All I know it that, that horrible disease took away my son. And this exact week, is the anniversary of his death. And I used to spend so much time at work that I had no idea he was sick. But no matter how much I begged and prayed, he was gone. He had no chance. And I miss him every day."

"Did it hurt? Losing him?"

"Like my heart was being pulled out of my chest. He was my life. He meant the world to me. And if you kill Randy, his family will have the same regrets and feel the same way. And they will change and do better. I know I sure would have."

He threw the little boy at me and I grabbed him.

"Looks like you saved on life, but you can't save all of them Agent." He said pointing the gun at his head.

"No!" I ran to him, but he pulled the trigger and blood splattered every where. I got some on my face. I walked out of the house ignoring everyone's words. I fell down on the grass letting tears fall.

Dave ran after me and put his arms around me. He kissed my forehead. Never letting me go.

Emily POV

An hour and a half after the shooting we were on the jet exhausted. JJ and Reid were playing cards. Aaron was on the phone. Morgan listening to music. Alex and Rossi were sitting together. Her eyes looked puffy. He got up to use the bathroom and I sat across from her.

"Hey." I said

"Hi."

"Alex, I am so sorry. I had no idea."

"It's ok. Nobody did. It was something I kept between James and I."

"Still, i'm sorry."

"It's ok, i'm better. It was hard at first but I've made it through. And Dave is being supportive."

"Dave huh. So, what's going on between you two?"

She laughed. "Were fine just how we are. I feel comfortable with him. He makes me feel safe."

"Good."

I patted her hand and got up to go talk to my husband.

"So baby, when shall I start making dinner?" I asked.

"Tomorrow night."

"Good, i'm glad your doing this. It'll do you some good." I said

"Well you know, I was thinking. Since i'm being such a good sport about this, I can get maybe you know, a reward?" He said pulling me onto his lap.

"Oh and what reward would you like?"

He whispered in my ear. I hit his shoulder playfully. "Dirty boy." I said kissing him.

Alex POV

When Dave and I got home I went upstairs and went to bed. He got in with me and pulled me close to him. I could smell his cologne. He hugged me and kissed me.

"Are you mad, that I didn't tell you before?" I asked looking him in the eyes.

"Alex, I am not mad at you. I could never. I love you Alex, and I am so sorry."

"It's ok. I love you to." We kissed again and I fell asleep in his arms.   

(How was my newest chapter? Sorry I haven't updated in so long. I was going to do it earlier but my draft got deleted. Stupid Wattpad.)