CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
chasing love

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THIRD PERSON

Namjoon got out of the Arena where BTS were riding his car in a slow motion. Scanning every place and every road where he could go and look for Nae Din. The tracer said that he is close enough to Nae Din. He looked at his left, then to his right and infront again. And he drove straight. Then ten minutes passed, the tracer beeped three times, signaling that Nae Din is just a few meters away.

Namjoon looked outside the car's window. He thinks he is at a park right now, there are only few people who is sitting and breathing fresh air at the park. He scanned the whole place and his heat beat fast, the world turns into slow motion and the butterflies on his tummy went wild again when he saw.. Nae Din.

She's there, sitting at the grass. It seems like she brought a blanket to sit at. She's peacefully looking at the stars. And Namjoon felt that his heart is being caressed when he saw how peaceful Nae Din is. He chose to stay outside his car for five minutes, enjoying his view; Nae Din. He saw Nae Din held into her knees and put her head on it. It was the time when Namjoon went towards her direction to confront her.

'Inhale, exhale. Inhale, exhale. Namjoon! You can do it. Aish, crazy heart. Why are you making me nervous and why are you beating so fast whenever I see her? Aishhh!' Namjoon said to himself and he is slowly and quietly walking towards Nae Din for her not to be afraid or startled. Then he was about to sit beside her when she spoke.

"Why does love have to be this complicated? Why do I have to suffer like this? I love him.. but I left him. And I don't know if I still have the guts to face him. I hurted the man that I love the most. I.. I was taken away by my cowardness. It hurts so much to see him happy while I am in sorrow. I.. I love him so much that i hurts. He is like a diamond, my diamond, but I made a wrong desicion that I chose a stone rather than a shining diamond.. that I love the most." Namjoon could hear Nae Din's silent sobs. He felt his heart breaking while hearing her, but he can't move at his place. All he could ever do was.. stare at her while his heart were breaking into million pieces.

"If I could only turn back time, I would do that and correct all the mistakes I've done that made me suffer like this. What did I do wrong? I'm just loving. Loving to the point that even his simple gestures can make my heart race, or make my heart break. A win or lose situation in which I decided to pick the lose one instead of a win one. He is my happiness. Yes, I can live without him but I can not be happy. He is my universe, my whole world." Namjoon can hear his silent sobs becoming louder and louder each second.

"I broke his heart while I am breaking mine too. And that was the biggest mistake I ever did. The biggest mistake I regret." She said.

Namjoon couldn't take it anymore and he back hugged Nae Din. The girl seems shocked at the moment but then, she burst out into tears when she smelled the familiar scent of him. The man that he loves. He can feel the familiar scent of Namjoon, back hugging her. "Shhh, don't cry. It hurts me seeing you cry. It breaks my heart seeing tears escape your beautiful eyes." Namjoon said and took of his mask. And he let go of Nae Din, then she stood up and she hugged him tightly. It was the hug of the person that missed the person he/she hugs. And it truly is, she missed Namjoon, and so do Namjoon, he missed her too.

"If I am dreaming, please don't wake me up *sob* I'd rather stay in this beautiful dream *sob* and be with you forever and never wake up anymore than to be live in a sad reality *sob*; the said reality that you weren't there. Wherein you and I was like parallel lines *sob*. The lines that were always close *sob* but never met." Nae Din was extremely crying on Namjoon's chest. Namjoon just hushed her and hug her even more tight. And Nae Din can feel Namjoon's heartbeat. It was fast; like hers.

"Shh, don't cry. I'm here. This isn't a dream. Please, I can't stand seeing you cry and the reason is me. Please, don't cry.. jagiya." Namjoon then said, Nae Din lifted her head, and Namjoon lowered his head. And the next thing they knew, their lips are attached to each other's. Namjoon pulled her tightly to deepen the kiss, and Nae Din closed her eyes as she kissed him back. At that very moment, all that matters was their feelings. Their hearts, and their passionate kiss.

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"You know what, since we seperated our ways, I always cry. I know that this is so gay of me but.. I was always inside my room and suffering from the extreme heartbreak." Namjoon said, they were now laying on the blanket and Nae Din's head was laying on Namjoon's hand while Namjoon is playing with her hair. "I suffered a lot." Namjoon continued.

"Well, who didn't?" Nae Din chuckled, "I also suffered a lot too. Worse than your suffering though I was the one who left you. But you know what?" Nae Din looked at Namjoon, "our heartbreak and our break-up made us a better person." She continued. "I agree." Namjoon said and they both inhaled deeply. "Care to tell me what good thing had happened to you when we broke up? What was your good change?" Nae Din asked all of the sudden.

"Ah, I realised that I really can live without you. But I can't be happy. You know what? Our break up pursued me to work harder and focus more on my carreer. Because that is how I got your heart right? HAHA. I thought of, maybe if I work harder and harder, I will catch your heart again and you'll return to me again." Namjoon said. "How about you?" He asked her. "Nothing really. My life couldn't get any worse when we broke up. But that is how I learnt to be mature, to solve my own problems without needing someone to be there with me. To fight for my dream.. and that dream is you." Nae Din replied and she sweetly smiled at Namjoon.

"Nae Din, honestly, I don't want us to come back again. I don't want us to continue what we started." Namjoon said, and Nae Din felt her heart break. But she still chose to smile, "Ah, I understand. I'm sorry if I hurt you—." Her words were cut of when Namjoon planted his lips on hers and kissed her again. Then after a minute or two, they broke the kiss.

"I don't want us to continue what we had back then because our past hurt us a lot. I want to forget that. I want us to start all over again and build a new love story." Namjoon smiled and a tear almost escaped from Nae Din's eyes as she hugged him. "I want that too." Nae Din answered. And that night was so perfect for the both of them. Way too perfect.

To be continued...