December 24th.
This is the first year Hayley isn't around, she's in Japan this year for Christmas and I don't have any other close friends I could spend that day with.
Only one, but I won't contact her. Ever again.

"Madison you here?" I hear Matt shouting. He came back home earlier today.

I go greet him at the door. My brother is handsome! Truly the gentleman everybody would wish for.

"You look good today what happened?" I joke

"Shut up" He says "I look good everyday" He chuckles

"Sure"

"How are you spending Christmas?" He asks me

"Probably sleeping on the couch, gonna go shopping too. Why?" I answer like spending Christmas alone was usual

"I wanted to ask you if you wanna see mom and dad this year. They miss you. And I'm not gonna let you spend Christmas alone anyways" He says

Matt was still in touch with our parents. I moved out because they didn't accept me. Although Matt defended me, he still talks to them, and I'm okay with it of course.
He told them he was bisexual, which have been a huge disappointment for them because "this can ruin the family's reputation", but they still managed not to hate him, probably because he has always been the better child. He's just more scared of them than I am. I'm not scared of them at all, actually.

"I won't go there Matt. Sorry" I say

"Madison they just wanna see you. Come on, just once" He asks me again, truly caring

"No Matt! They don't know what they put me through! I wanted to end my life because of them, remember? I'm not gonna face them." I say almost in tears

"I know this is hard for you Madi.. Okey if anything goes wrong or they bother you, I drive you home."

"We're taking my car"

He smiles. It's time for me to face my parents after two years.

After an hour of driving, we're finally here. I'm not gonna call this place home because it isn't my home. Not anymore.

I'm feeling really anxious and nervous about this, but Matt is holding my hand, supporting me. I can do this.

He opens the door with his key and we go inside.

A couple of seconds later, my mom shows up.

She looks shocked to see me here. As I expect the worst, she leads me closer and hugs me.
She was always better than dad, although I will never forgive her for letting him put me through the nightmare I was in.

"Madi, my baby" she cries on my shoulders

"Hey mom" I say

She looks at me, holding my face in her hands

"You've become so beautiful. Such a woman." She smiles

"Thank you mom" I smile back

"Well, look at what we got here." I hear my dads voice coming from the stairs.

I face him, he doesn't seem happy to see me. My mom just missed me, I guess.

"Hello dad." I say more anxious than anything

He comes closer to me and looks at me, sighting.

"We've missed you with your mother, you know." He says, even if it doesn't seem like it

"Missed you too" I say firmly, clearly lying

He takes Matt in his arms after that. Good know he didn't miss me enough for a hug.

"Your mom made dinner, let's sit shall we?" He says

My dad always had so much authority over my mom, which I hated to much. I hate the image of men being dominant in a relationship. Come on people, it's 2018. We're supposed to be past that.

After a couple of minutes of quiet eating, my mother starts talking

"We're really thankful you came this year sweetie" She says to me

"Thank you mom, I appreciate" I smile

"How have you been Madison? Any new girlfriends around?" He says while making fun of me.

"Dad." Matt tries to warn him

"What Matt? She's a lesbian right? I'm just asking. Or is she just fooling around now? I'm not surprised" He laughs. I feel so disrespected, but I don't say anything.

"Dad stop that. Stop ruining the mood. She came back here, it was hard for her." Matt explains

"As if it wasn't hard for us to learn our own child was a lesbian. Was against nature."

That was enough, I get up before they see me crying and go to the door. Matt told me I could leave if something went wrong. Well it did.

"Honey" My mom catches me and I turn around. My dad is far away so he doesn't see my tears, which is great

"No mom I won't stay. I won't stay while he's here. I'm sorry."

"Are you still a lesbian?" She asks. What a question? I thought she accepted me. I thought she was by my side. I guess I was wrong

"Yes mom and I won't change."

She sighs. I can't believe these are my parents

I don't say goodbye and open the door. My phone buzzes and I see I got a text from Matt.

From : Matt

I'm sorry madi:( see you soon I love you

I decide to answer him. It wasn't his fault, even if he was the one wanting to bring me here

To : Matt

It's okay, love you too

I open my car and sit inside. Let's go back.

After an hour of driving and listening to music, I'm a bit calmed down, but still hurt, angry and disappointed by my parents.

I decide to take some food before I go home, since I got nothing to eat. My makeup is ruined from all the crying I've been doing and don't really wanna see anyone I know right now.

I'm not working today, which means I have to pay for my food. Great. (Sarcasm, in case someone didn't get it)

I quickly take a chariot and start shopping.

Once I'm done with the food, I head to the alcohol.

I take many bottles of kinda everything. It's gonna cost me much but I don't care.

"Madison?" A familiar voice says behind me

No, not now. Megan.

I'm afraid to turn around. I'm scared she sees my face. She'll ask me so many questions I will not be able to answer.

I slowly turn around and she looks at me, her facial expression changing at the second she seems me.

"Baby" Her voice breaks "What happened?"

"Megan I'm okay, nothing happened." I lie

"No you're not Madison, tell me. Do I have to do with this?" She asks concerned

"No darling you make me happy" I smile to reassure her

"Then what is it?" She's still worried

"Just my parents. Don't worry about it."

"Do you wanna talk about it?" She asks and I shook my head no.

She comes closer to me and hugs me. Her arms are all I needed. This hug means everything. The love I have for her is too much.
I feel myself crying on her shoulders.

"Shht baby, it's gonna be okay, I'm here" She wishpers

"Thank you" I cry "Sorry for ruining your shirt" I laugh

"It's okay darling, I don't care" She smiles and holds my hand

Then she looks at the chariot with the 10 bottles in it.

"You're having a party?" She asks

"Nop"

"You're by yourself?" She asks again

"Yep"

"Is your brother home?"

"Not tonight" I wink

She blushes when she understands what I'm referring to but then her face turns back to normal

She starts taking out the bottles of my chariot

"What the fuck?" I ask confused

"I'm not letting you drink all of this. It's not healthy." She says

"Megan come on.. I'm not a kid" I say kinda annoyed she considers me as such

"I know you're not but even an adult shouldn't drink this."

"Babe come on" I say as I put the bottles back in the chariot again

She takes me by the collar, angrily

"I'm your teacher and you're doing as I fucking say, understand young lady?" She says with her authoritarian teacher, a smirk playing on her lips

"That was so hot" I smirk back while biting my bottom lip. I'm suddenly turned on.

"Don't make me take you right here" She wishpers seductively in my ear.

"What are you doing tonight?" I ask her

"Dinner with my family." She answers

"Have fun, baby" I smile

She kisses me on the cheek

"And I gotta go. I lov- have a good night" She stops herself before saying this word, this word I've been dying to hear

"Thank you, you too" I smile, looking her while she walks away.

Megan Cole will be mine soon, although I think she already is.