-Knock knock-

"AGAIN!"

Things have been going like this for a while, and now I'm annoyed. After Baji's death, I wouldn't leave my house, not even for food. I only went for... Baji's funeral, and even then, I didn't stay long. It's been hard for me, for everyone. I can't even face Ms. Keisuke. Though... A WEEK AFTER THE FUNERAL, MIKEY WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE! He came by every day, and when I pretended I wasn't home, he would find my spear key, WHICH I HAVE HIDDEN 27 TIMES BY NOW. I think he has a copy at this point.

I get up and open the door. "What the hell do you want for me," I said with a tired expression.

"Look at you opening the door for me. I didn't even have to use the copy."

I KNEW HE HAD A FUCKING SPARE! I furrow my eyebrows. "It's too early to be angry," I said in a low voice, pinching the bridge of my nose.

"It's 2 pm. What are you talking about?" Mikey said.

"WHAT DO YOU WANT!"

"I brought food so let me in," he held out a bag of food through the crevice of the open door.

"If that's all, leave it on the ground or eat it yourself. " I tried to close the door when Mikey's pushed it open with brute force.

"Thank you for the warm welcome," he said, taking off his shoes and leaving them by the door. He walked over to my kitchen and placed the food on the table.

I had stopped asking him, 'why are you doing this' because every time I did, he would just ignore the question. Without fail, every day since a week had passed since Baji's funeral, he would visit me. I hate to admit it, but I sort of enjoy the company, and sometimes I even wait for him to knock on my door. But I'd never admit that. Being in this house all alone in my state, it's easy to get lonely.

"You know you don't have to do this anymore," I said, trying to hide the hint of sadness in my voice. "I don't have anything I can help you with. I haven't been working, so I don't have any information I can give you, and ... I'm not a part of Toman anymore, so you can stop treating me like a charity case."

"What do you mean? You're still a part of Toman." He said, taking out the food from the bag, "and you're not a charity case." He looked down disappointedly.

What's with the face?

"You were probably passed out, so I'll remind you what happened. On Bloody Halloween, I quit Toman, and then I teamed up with Baji and fought against other Toman members. I'm pretty much an enemy to you guys at this point."

"Well, why did you do that?"

" I did it for Baji, of course, to...." I looked down at the ground "to keep him safe, and so he knew he wasn't alone."

"Well then, I reject your proposal to quit," He smiled.

"What?" I said, confused. "AND WHY ARE YOU SMILING AT ME IT'S FREAKING WEIRD!"

I wasn't used to this side of Mikey. It was... weird.

" I still need some time before I go back. Gosh, what am I doing?" I said, remembering my sister. "This isn't my sister's fault, yet somehow I managed to punish her in the process yet again. There's so much I haven't done; I haven't talked to Baji's mom since the funeral and I haven't gone by to see my sister either..."

"Why don't we see her today?" Mikey asked.

"Are you serious?"

"Yeah, why not? One step at a time, right?"

"O-ok then?" I replied, confused.

*****

Walking down the street, I couldn't help but wonder my eyes on Mikey. It's sort of unbelievable how close we're gotten. We're not friends or anything, but we act civil and respectful towards each other. Before, we were enemies through n through, but now... something is just different. Reaching the orphanage, I stop.

"Hmm? What's wrong?" Mikey asked.

"What if she hates me," I said, biting down on my lip anxiously.

Mikey walked in front of me and held the door open. "You'll never know until you see her, and avoiding her won't help," Mikey said, looking at the door.

My heart started beating quickly in my chest. Maybe I'm nervous, or maybe I'm sick. But why is Mikey acting like this? Like we're friends? Does he pity me or something?

I walk through the familiar doors and walk over to the front desk.

"Well, I haven't seen you in a while. And oh, look, you even brought in a different boy." The person at the front desk said.

I rolled my eyes. The people here really are asses; that's one thing I didn't miss. "Here's the cash; now bring her out."

"I did not miss that attitude of yours. Sit in the waiting room. I'll bring her out in a sec." The front desk person said, walking away.

"Well, I didn't miss your attitude either," I said, making my way to the waiting room. I let out a sigh once I reached the chair.

Silence filled to room as I waited for my sister. It felt like ages sitting in that silence. It reminded me that I'm not close to Mikey, we may know each other, but that means nothing. Loneliness is a feeling everyone experiences at least once in their lifetime, but humans loathe that feeling the most. The length people go to get rid of that feeling is scary and delusional. Maybe Mikey-

"BIG SISTER!" Nozomi ran to me, tears running down her face.

I placed my hand on her head like a mother comforting their child, but it didn't feel right. It felt like it was an empty action. I don't know how to be motherly or comforting. I just copy what I see. This makes me feel like a fraud. But if it did its job in comforting her, that's all that matters.

"I'm sorry to keep you waiting, Nozomi."

Nozomi buried her face further into me. "I- I thought you were sick, o-or that something happened to you," her cries made it hard to understand her.

I realized how much I affected her life. Something as small as not seeing her caused her this much pain. I truly felt the guilt creep inside of me.

"I'm sorry, Nozomi. Why don't I make it up to you by going to your favorite places?"

"O- ok," She managed to say. "Uh, who are you?" She said with the same snarkiness I remember.

"I'm Mikey," he says, holding his hand out childishly. I couldn't help but giggle at how different he acted around her.

"Hello, mister," Nozomi said, shaking his hand as if she was in a job interview.

-Timeskip-

"Ok, we're here," I said.

"WOW, ITS MY FAVORITE TOY SHOP- I mean, let's go in, big sister," she said.

"You wouldn't be trying to change your attitude because Mikey is here, would you?" I grinned.

I watched as her face turned red because I noticed. "NO! I- it's because maybe my sister hates how I've been acting and that's why she didn't come to visit me... SO NOZOMI IS ACTING GROWN UP NOW!" She said, stomping into the store and pouting.

My heart ached to hear those words. I- I'm not fit to parent Nozomi no matter how much I want to-.

My thoughts were interrupted by Mikey tapping my shoulder.

"Huh?"

"You were spacing out. Your face looked.." he stopped for a second with a sad expression that quickly changed to a happier one, "Weird, please don't do that again," He said jokingly to making fun of me.

"WHATEVER!" I said, covering my face. If he's just going to make fun of my face, I just won't show him my face then!

I walked into the store to see my sister reaching for a toy on the top shelf. When she couldn't reach it, she tried to climb it.

"Nozomi, wait!" I yelled, seeing the shelf about to tip over. I rush to her throwing her to the other end while holding the shelf up.

"Are you ok!" Some customers asked while helping me put the shelf back.

"Yes, I'm fine," I said, bowing to apologize for the disturbance. I looked up to see if Nozomi was ok, but she was gone?

"Nozomi!"

Mikey's POV

As Y/N was getting help from customers, I saw Nozomi run away on the brink of tears. I decided to follow her. I found her outside of the shop, sitting on a bench whipping her tears. I placed my hand on her head to let her know I was there.

"Big sister, I wasn't crying-" She paused when she looked at me, "Oh, it's just you.."

"Yup, just me," I said, sitting beside her. Seeing her cry reminded me of Emma when we were younger. "So... why are you crying?"

"I'm not!" She said, wiping her tears. "Just don't tell my sister, ok."

I was confused about why she didn't want her sister to know. "Can I ask why?"

"B-because what if I'm too much for her and she won't love me anymore."

"I doubt that would ever happen. Your sister seems to love you very much. Anyone would know that by seeing you two. I think you shouldn't worry so much. I don't think someone who didn't love you would save you from a falling shelf." I smiled at her trying to comfort her.

"You're right," she said, giggling and whipping the remaining tears on her face. "I wonder if my sister's ok!" She jumped up, worried.

"Hey, kiddo," Y/N said, plopping a stuffed animal on her sister's head.

Y/N's POV

I stood there listening to the whole conversation. I felt a tinge of guilty when hearing my sister tip toe around everything she did around me. I couldn't listen to it anymore.

"Hey, kiddo," I said, trying to brighten the mood. I plopped the stuffed animal she was looking at on her head. "This is the one you were looking at in the store, right?"

"You didn't have to get me that big sister," she said, lowering her head.

"Are you serious! It looks just like the stuffed animal I got you back when we lived at home. It might not be the same one, but it can still be Mr. Stuffy." I said, extending the stuffed teddy bear to her. In the corner of my eye, I can see Mikey smiling. It looked so sincere and soft. It made me feel embarrassed.

"YOU REMEMBERED MR. STUFFY!" My sister said, her eyes shining while she hugged the bear so tight I thought it might pop.

"Of course I do; you loved that bear. Too bad we had to leave it at the old house." I sighed.

-Timeskip-

After a day of laughs, it, unfortunately, had to come to an end eventually. Throughout the day, I saw a different side of Mikey, and I don't know how that made me feel. I wonder if he has siblings? I started to notice I wondered a lot of things about Mikey. I want to know more about him, and not for some hidden agenda but because I wanted to. Maybe I'm sick or something...

"Alright, Nozomi, we're back," I said, walking into the orphanage. Nozomi looked a little disappointed.

"I wish I could just stay with you forever," she said.

"I know you deserve fun days like this all the time, not just every weekend," I said with guilt. I bent down to hug her before she had to go back.

"Sister, I can't breathe y- you're hugging me too tight!" Nozomi complained.

I let go. "Sorry I... I just couldn't help it." I said, smiling.

She skipped with joy from the day she had. She turned around before leaving. "I had fun, big sister; let's do this again! Bye, big sister! And bye, big sister's boyfriend!" she said, waving and giggling.

"WAIT, HE'S NOT MY! And she's gone," I sighed in frustration. I suddenly hear someone giggling. "HEY, WHY ARE YOU LAUGHING!"

"PFFT- Because," Mikey couldn't even finish his sentence before laughing again.

"Are you implying I'm undateable or something!" I said, which only made Mikey laugh harder.

"HEY!" I yelled.

"I- I'm sorry," Mikey said, trying to stop laughing.

"Whatever, just wait outside!"

I watched Mikey leave the building, and the door shutting behind him. I took a deep breath before doing the one thing I never wanted to do.

"Here," I said, handing the desk person an envelope.

"What's this for?" They said.

"Make sure she gets a good home," I said, pushing the envelope towards them and walking out the doors and never looking back.

I take a deep breath in, still feeling the building behind me judging my choice.

"Is something wrong?" Mikey interrupted my thoughts.

I just wanted to respond with 'nothing, I'm fine, but weirdly enough, I actually told him what was wrong. I just blurted it out.

"Today will be the last day I see my sister."

"Why," Mikey questioned, and I could feel the pinging sadness behind his voice.

"After today, it just confirmed all my fear. I can't be a parent for her. She deserves to go out every day and buy toys, eat ice cream, and play in the playground. I feel so shitty for being the one preventing her from having all those things. I just wasn't really to let her go, but it isn't about what I want; it's about what she needs." I kept trying to hold back my tear. I didn't want to cry in front of strangers passing by.

"But won't you be alone? I feel like you're thinking irrationally, you just lost your best friend, and now you're pushing away the one person you have." Mikey said.

"This isn't because of," I couldn't say Baji's name, "him; it's what Nozomi needs. I can't have her live with me and expose her to the type of work I do! What if I put her in danger!"

"Then quit."

"Quit?" I was irritated with his response. What is with people telling me to quit? "Listen here, when you're done with you're Toman gang, you go back home to your family. I don't have anything. What I do is all I have; I have nobody to rely on but myself! So you don't get to judge me for my choices! And I don't blame anyone for the life I was given or the life I made for myself. But I will spend a lifetime blaming myself if someone else I cared about died because of me."

"Baji didn't die because of you, though!"

"Maybe! Or maybe if I was stronger, maybe things could have ended differently!" I cover my eyes so nobody can see that I'm weak. "I wish every day that it was me instead of him."

Hey guys, this is the end of He hates me🌻, He hates me, not🌻 MikeyXReader (enemies to lovers) chapter 15. Sorry for the long break ヽ(*。>Д<), but I hope you guys enjoyed the new chapter, and thank you for waiting!!!