Hello Hello Hello. We met again in here. To the requester, you said that it fine for me to set the plot so this is what I got. Sorry if it's not really into what you want but I hope you can enjoy this. Have a good day reading this.

You sit under a tree, looking at the clear sky and then writing something on your notebook. You're writing a lyric for your song and the song, it means your own song. You like to deliver what you feel by writing a lyric more than writing on a diary or telling someone. You have trust issues and you don't want to trouble anyone you know. The problems you have should be kept to yourself and when you feel like you can't hold it anymore, you will make a lyric and sing it.

Right now, you feel really tired. You just want to look at the sky and wish that you're the birds flying freely without any care. You sighed and continue to write it. While you write it, the melody for it comes with it makes you automatically sing it.

I am tired of this life
I just want to let it out
Please, I need help
Guess no one hears me out

Life is hard
I gotta meet the expectations
Of everyone around
I push myself
To be someone else
Makes me no longer know who I am

You think back how sometimes you want to sleep without any care. You want to shut everything out there and just live alone. But you can't. You know if you keep thinking like that, you will end up destructing yourself. You really need to let it out to someone. Someone that can help you, not just giving a sympathy. You need someone who you can trust, someone who can hear your scream.

So please help me
Anyone out there
Please save me
Save me from these thoughts
That want me to cut myself
That want me to end myself
Afraid, anxiety all comes to me
Please ~ somebody, please
Help me

You already felt the taste of betrayal. You already felt the taste of being hurts by someone you love. You know the way everyone thought, how bad the world is. No, not the world, but the human in the world. You can't say that your life is miserable, but you also can't say that you got a happy life. Everyone always thinks that you're the happy one and you can't deny it. Sometimes, you will be a happier person in the world but, sometimes you will be the most depressed person in the world.

I smile to everyone
To show that I am happy
I laugh with everyone
To hide the problems beneath

Life is hard
To makes, everything looks like nothing
Hiding from beloved ones
Trusting no ones
Makes me wonder what I need to do now

But, you know not everything in this world is bad and the past will always be the past and just make it as a lesson in your life. Right now, in the present, you've met someone. Someone that can hear your scream. Someone that can know your problems, and always be with you when you feel down. You're glad that you're given a chance to met this person, Ushijima Wakatoshi. And because of him too, you can see the world in a whole different view. He introduced you the feelings of love, that someone cares for you, that you're not alone in this world.

He introduced you to the world of volleyball. You agreed that since the first time he introduced you to the volleyball, you got hooked on it and you don't even have time to feel depressed which makes you really happy. Even his friends, his teammates, your own teammates, really make you happy and you can say that he gave you the light you need to keep moving.

I want to scream
I want to tell somebody
All the feelings I feel
All the thinkings I think
But I always choose not
Don't want to trouble anyone around me
But I can't, I can't keep all these things

He is one of the people who is not really showing his emotions, but he is one of the people who knows what kind of emotions other people feel. You smiled thinking about him. How his existence really changes you, sometimes makes you feel really scared but at the same time, you're grateful.

"(y/n), you're here?" you looked at the owner of the voice and smile to see the person who is in your mind right now.
"Wakatoshi" he walked to you and sit beside you.
"You're feeling down again?" you chuckled.
"Not anymore." he smiled at you.

"Remember, we're always with you. I always with you" you smiled and look at the sky.
"Thank you, Wakatoshi." then he patted on your head makes you blushed a bit.
"Do you have any practice after school?" you shook your head.
"But I think our coach will be held a mini-meeting since the third-year asked to excuse them because they want to buy something after school" he nodded.
"Want to come to our practice after your meeting?" you looked at him.

"Is it okay?" he nodded.
"No one really minds it if you come. You're in the team too" you smiled.
"Okay, I will come" you keep smiling while humming the rhythm you thought for your new lyric.
"New song?" he asked and you nodded before showing him the lyric.

He read it through and then he looked at me. He looked so serious makes you let out a little laugh.

"Don't show your serious face, Wakatoshi"
"(y/n), this lyric... "
"I told you, don't worry. The lyric just came and I wrote it. Nothing to worry about." you told him but you can see that he's not convinced at all, makes you let out a sighed.
"Okay, yes I am depressed for a while but then I thought about you, and all those feelings disappear. That's why I told you don't worry" and he still looked serious. You chuckled before closer your lips to his forehead and kissing his forehead.

"Done. Don't look so serious, again" you chuckled when you saw the seriousness in his face change into a surprise.

"Wakatoshi-kun! Ah, (y/n) too! What are you guys doing here? The recess almost finished" Tendou, one of Wakatoshi's teammates calling both of you.
"Let's go, (y/n)" he stood up and held up his hand towards you, which you gladly accepted it.
"Sorry if I disturb your date, (y/n)" you blushed when you heard Tendou words.
"We're not dating. We are just friend" you said

"We are?"

Ushijima's pov

I found (y/n) sat under a tree alone and I can get the feeling that she's not happy.
"(y/n), you're here?" she smiled when I sit beside her. I love her smile and I want it to be forever on her face. I hate it to see her sad. I hate it when she thinks about sad things. I want her to know that I always with her. She gave me the lyrics she wrote and when I read it, my mind comes back to the day I first met her.

Just like the first time I met her, two years ago. I met her at an old park under a tree, she wrote something in her book and then she looked up. I am shocked to see how lifeless her eyes are, make me approached her, which I don't regret it. At first, it's really hard to make her open up herself, but I guess because I always with her whenever she got depressed, she tends to open up her heart and by then, she told me all her problems.

She told me that she is the last child in her family which by always will be the one who got everything but instead, she is the one who always has to give up. Her family at first really happy and love each other but times to times, the love becomes lessen and her family got into financial problems make it worse. Sometimes, her parents will get into fights, her older siblings got into fights and she always will be in the middle. She told me, she's tired to always be the one who accepted and hear everything and she afraid that one day she will be lost herself.

She wants to tell someone, she wants to let it all out but she can't. She can't trust anyone after some incident happened that makes her never trust anyone except herself. That's why she said she express herself by songs, by looking at nature, make a diary and anything but telling someone else. Sometimes she looks at her wrist, wondering how it will feel if she does something. The day she told me everything is the day that I realised I have to take care of her. She is beautiful when she smiles, cute when she laughs but when she is depressed, I can't see any emotions from her. I swear that I will always be with her.

After I finished reading her lyrics, my face becomes serious because I am afraid that if she really wants to end her life.
"Don't show your serious face, Wakatoshi"
"(y/n), this lyric... "
"I told you, don't worry. The lyric just came and I wrote it. Nothing to worry about." which totally can't convince me. She explained again and it still can't convince me but what she did after that really shocked me.

"Done. Don't look so serious, again" she chuckled and I know I am frustrated right now. Thanks to Tendou who suddenly appear and apologized if he disturbs the date.
"We're not dating. We are just friend" she said but I can't agree with that. We are more than a friend.
"We are?" I asked her.
"I thought of us more than a friend" her eyes widen.
"Let me take care of you forever," I told her.

"W-Wakatoshi, are you serious?" I nodded when she asked me.
"Thank you for your pity, Wakatoshi but, I don't need that" she wants to walk away but I grabbed her hand.
"Nothing that I can gain from just pitying you, (y/n). I swear that I will take care of you forever so that you will always be happy and showing me the beautiful smile you have." she blushed.
"S-Since when y-you..." I smiled and hold her face.

"Since the first time I laid my eyes on you" I hugged her and I smiled when I feel she hugging me back.
"Thank you, Wakatoshi. Thank you"

Tendou's pov

"I am happy that they got to be together, but I am here too. Don't ignore me~"

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Yeay! Done for this chapter. Sorry if it's a bit angst but I am serious about this story. Suicidal thought or anything related is really something that can not be ignored. Don't keep it to yourself and if you can't trust anyone, try to do something to express it. Anything that you can do, write a diary, make a song, drawing or anything but please never think about ending yourself even how hard your life is. That's all for this chapter.

Oh, by the way, the lyrics in this chapter is all come from me, so you will never find it on the internet if you try to search for the song. (⌒_⌒;)

See you next time!

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Daishou Suguru x Reader

16/08/2020