Remember when we met back in high school?

My family just moved to the province because of family problem and my father's job.

My siblings and I attended the same school, I being on 9th grade. I was the type of person who doesn't enjoy much of attention. I like to draw in the sideline and be called weird by students in your year. While you, I really find you somewhat adoring because you're cute, tall, sweet and most attractive of all intelligent.

You're always in the benches, around your peers during lunch breaks, people of different grade but mostly same as yours, while I sit quietly with my friends in the balcony of our building. One day I remember locking eyes with you and I kinda feel weird.

I can't remember exactly how we have gotten into talking, but my guess could be because of a friend that lives near you, or perhaps you just asked me to come over because you're too curious of a person, I might be wrong.

You really like giving me friendly back hugs and I paid no mind to it since I find it very comfortable.
One day, I was sitting in the bench with my sister's friend while we wait for her, and there you are again on your usual place.

"Someone told me she's gay, you should be careful"
my sister's friend said. I gasped as if I don't know, but really I can feel it. One of the things that I realized is that my gaydar is already activated way before I realized that I was gay as well.

We had a few more of interactions some on the same spot and some somewhere in the school or after school in your car service.

It does not took long when my family returned to our hometown. I don't remember seeing you that day or the days before that. It's sad but I have to go.

A few years later we talked again online. We probably had a few online interaction before that, but this time I feel like we are connecting way more than we are before. We caught up and I can't remember how I even went out that I'm gay, maybe I asked your sexuality and I ended up coming out.

So that time I liked you as a woman and not as a friend, but I'm too caught up with my life problems and grief. We stopped talking cause I probably ghosted you but I am kind of aware of your feelings towards me.

A few years later we talked again but this time, you're in a relationship, and I stopped talking to you again since I don't want to confuse you.

One night, I was looking for someone to talk to into that yellow dating app and I saw your supposedly girlfriend. I thought I'd swipe just to mess things up but I did not, and after a few more swipe left I found your profile. I stopped and stared for a while contemplating if I should. And I did, I want to know if you're going to swipe my way as well so we can talk. And you did, I'm happy you did.

Today, you asked me if we should break up because you're hurt. We've dated for 6 months now, and it wasn't that long but I don't want to, I live you too much now, and I know you just need me to be there for you. And one of the main reason why I greatly disapprove is because I feel like we've wasted a few years apart already when we could have been together all this time. I just want us to be together until life ends. I don't mind if we fight along the way, I just love you so much that I ended up always wanting and needing you.