"If I wanted to share what the plans are, then it wouldn't be a freaking secret!" I shout, getting upset really quickly. Gemma was in my room, pestering me about what I meant from my post a week ago. She's not the only one who's been pestering me either. It's my family and my husband's family's. They keep asking and they aren't exactly taking no as an answer. They also don't care if my emotions kick into overdrive because here is my sister asking the same damn question once again.

"But it's a surprise for your husband's. Why can't I know about it?" "Because you fucking can't! Now will you please.leave the fuck alone?! Go play with your nephew or some shit!" I cursed and that's when my bedroom door opened and Lottie was walking through the bedroom door.

"Hey, what's with the profanities? There's a little boy downstairs." "It's you guys. You guys keep freaking asking me what my surprise is and you won't take no as an answer. Then when I show that I'm getting irritated by the damn questions, you continue asking me."

"Well we just don't see as to why you need to keep it a secret from us when we aren't the ones who are getting the surprise," Lottie says and sits next to me in my own bed. "I'm not telling you because it's a secret for only me and other certain people to know. You guys will find out when the time comes," I tell the two and get on my phone. I should've known that posting what I posted was a bad idea. The text messages that I get in a daily is so annoying. My mom is the only one who hasn't asked me about what I'm planning.

The main texts that she has been sending me were check-up questions. She would ask me if the twins are doing well and if I'm healthy. She would even ask me if I needed anything. It just seems like the only reasons as to why my in-laws or even my sister is nearby is to ask me about my secret. They know it's not about trying for more babies because they know that once the twins are here, we are going to go a bit slow. Like we won't be as focused as we were before, but we will go with the flow of the baby making process. We are going to get used to the feeling of being parents of three and parents of twins.

"Baby brother, we aren't going to tell them what the big plan is if that is what you are worried about. We know how to keep secrets," Gemma says and I rolled my eyes. I put my phone in my back pocket before I stood up. "If you two are just going to pester me about something that I obviously don't want to share, then please leave my house. I'm in my third trimester and the last thing that I want to feel is frustration, annoyance, and stress. Now if you excuse me, I'm going to go be with my son," I tell the two and I walk out of my bedroom.

I walked down the stairs and saw my baby in his play pin. He was playing with his Scooby Doo toys and the sight made me smile big. "I'm so happy you can't say full on sentences. I can officially say that you are my escape," I spoke out loud and he popped his head to the sound of my voice. He looked right at me and he smiled immediately. "Momma!" He reached out to me and I giggle. I walk over to his pin and I pick him up and out of it.

He leaned his head on my shoulder and I sighed contently. I walk over to a couch and take a seat. "Baby brother?" "What Gems?" I respond, sounding annoyed already. "Hey, I'm sorry for pressuring you. I just like to know the inside scoop, you know? I really don't mean to make you upset. I should've left it alone when you said no the first time. I don't want to stress you out. Especially while you're this pregnant." I looked at her and I smiled at her.

"Thanks sis. I just want this to be a surprise for everyone, you know? I don't want to surprise them and have you come around and say 'I knew about this a while ago'. Just something nice for us all, yeah?" "Yeah, I get that now. I guess I just didn't see it as a big deal for me." "Well not for you, but something that might make you a little excited." "Yeah, I guess that's a good enough surprise," she says and she takes a seat right next to me. "Gem Gem!" Robin chirps and smiles at Gemma. "Hey little man. Are you ready to turn 2? This is a huge life goal. It's a big deal for your first, but for your second? We have to go big, yeah?" "Yeah! Big big!" He exclaims and I smiled fondly at my little boy.

"So what are your plans for the day?" "Nothing much honestly. I'm just going to be hanging out with Lottie. Maybe we'll go to the beach, I don't really know yet. How about you?" "Well the boys are bound to get back soon, and they planned a rather romantic date tonight. Just for us. Mom is going to be watching Robin and Clifford while we're out too, so we'll be all good." "Hey, I know that you won't tell me, but I just want to know one thing."

"Hmm?" "Will these two be the last?" "Well, I always get check-ups with the doctor to see if I can still carry, so if he tells me that I can, then after I do the surprise, then I will be right back off the red carpets. I really enjoy being pregnant Gems. It's like the excitement and the overwhelming feeling of knowing that you're carrying a little bundle of joy inside of you that gets me. Now of course, I will be stopping further down the road, but no. I won't be stopping after these two are here. Just going to take a little break."

"As you should, this is a lot to handle anyways. This is your first time being pregnant with twins after all," she reminds me and I nodded my head. "That I will do. I feel like we need a break from the babies. Like, we are going to be parents of three and the parents of two beautiful twins, so that will probably take a lot out of us." "It more than likely will. I just know that y'all will do great though." "Thanks Gems. I know that we will too."

I looked at the door when I heard it being unlocked from the outside and I smiled when I saw my husband's walking in. "Hubby's!" I greeted happily and Robin perked up from my joy. "Daddy's!" "Hey loves," Zayn says first. He walks up to the couch and bends so that he can kiss me on the lips. It made me giggle and I pulled away, pecking his lips a few times. "Daddy!" Robin exclaimed and Zayn chuckles, picking out boy up and out of my hold.

"Hey Red. Have you been a good boy for momma?" "Yes!" He chirps and I smiled at him. "Hey Gems. Where's Lottie?" "She's just in the bedroom. She should be out soon," I tell Louis and he nods his head. He walks to the kitchen and as he walks out, Lottie comes down and joins us in the living room.

"Hey guys," she greets as she makes her way to the couch. She lowered herself so that she can whisper into my ear. "I'm sorry about earlier. I'm happy for what you're doing for my brother no matter what it is and I can't wait to see it." I smiled at her words and I looked at her as she lifts her head. "Thanks Lotts." She nods her head and picks up her bag from the front door.

"Well Gemma and I have to head out. Big brother! Come out and say goodbye!" She calls and a moment later, Louis comes back out and walks over to his little sister. He hugs him and they both say goodbye to one another and he does the same to Gemma. The two come over to hug me (probably knowing that I didn't feel like getting up just then). They then walked out of the house and Niall closes the door behind them.

"What did you guys talk about?" "Oh nothing in particular. They just wanted to know what the surprise was." "Did you tell them?" "No. I wanted it to be a surprise for them too in some kind of way," I tell the four of them and I guess that sparked some kind of curiosity within themselves, because they started asking questions about it as well and I was already getting annoyed.

Like... Do people not do surprises anymore?

"Okay, if I tell you on etching about it, will you guys be quiet about the whole thing?" I asked and they each nodded their heads. I thought about what I could say and one obvious thing came to my head at that moment. It wasn't really going to give anything away, but it was going to probably give them a little hint as to what it could be.

"So when it comes to having more babies... I am going to be pumping the brakes for a little while. Which means that these girls are going to be the last kids that we'll have for like a few months or so," I tell them and they were lost. I didn't bother sticking around for another round of questions, I just got up and picked up Robin.

"Now who's hungry?" I asked and walked with Robin to the kitchen. "Wait...what?" Louis asked and I looked back. "What? All I said was that the baby making process is just going to be put on pause for a little while. It's not going to be forever," I told them again and placed Robin in his high chair. I then went around and opened the fridge. I took out one little bag of chopped broccoli and I started to warm it up. In the meantime, I looked to the right and saw .y husband's looking at me with disappointing looks. It made me tilt my head and I looked around.

Wait...

"Are you actually upset?" I asked and they didn't say anything in response. "You are, aren't you. Boys, I didn't say that it was forever. It has something to do with my surprise, so it's only temporary." "But you are doing something that you don't even need to do. You don't need to thank us. Like, you are the who's getting pregnant and who's carrying our kids." "I know what I'm already doing Lima, but this is something that I hope would tell you that I really do appreciate you. I know that you guys appreciate me for this, but it's my turn to appreciate you." "That sounds like sex talk." "It could be, but I want to appreciate you without being sexual."

"But fo you really need to do this?" "Yes Louis. I thought you guys would be a lot more supportive of my decision," I said and grabbed the little bag of broccoli from the microwave. I placed the little pieces on his little kid plate and I walked to sit next to Robin. He looked at me and I smiled qt my little boy. "Momma totally forgot about your fruit, Niall? Can you get his fruit cup for me?" I asked and I was just met with silence. I looked behind me and I saw Niall heading my way. He didn't say anything as he opened the fridge.

He placed the cup in front of me and I watched him walk out of the room. "You can't be serious," I tell him and he looks back and I saw how serious he was taking this.

"It's only going to be a matter of time before I get pregnant again. You can't be taking this so seriously. It's not that much of a big deal. You told me that you would respect me if I told you that I want to stop, but I'm not even stopping entirely." They shake their heads and I watched them head to the stairs.

"We know what you said," Zayn says and the four men walk upstairs to our shared bedroom.

What the fuck just happened?
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