"Billie I don't know about this." I sighed.

"It's ok, no one really knows I'm here." She said.

"I think we should just say our goodbyes here." I mumbled as she undid her seat belt.

"I'll give you girls some privacy." Maggie smiled patting my shoulder before she got out of the car.

"I'm going to miss you." She said.

"I'm going to miss you too Billie..."

"Please come inside?" I shook my head.

"I'm sorry... I don't want anyone getting the wrong idea."

"Alright." She took a quick glance around and then kissed me. Her security guard already had her bag out so now she just had to leave, the knot in my stomach made me sick... how was I going to do this again? I couldn't. "Bye." She waved as I put down the window.

"Bye." I smiled. They walked towards the door and before I could stop myself I was out of the car my door left open running for her.

"Ma'am you can't park there." A guy shouted. Billie looked back and stopped, I grabbed her wrist and pulled her towards me. "Ma'am."

"I know give me one second!" I yelled at him.

"What are you doing?" Billie asked.

"Be my girlfriend." I more or less stated.

"What?" She questioned. Maggie smiled and looked away, the guy who was still yelling at me started to talk into his walkie talkie.

"Be my girlfriend? I know what I said and I still feel the same way this will be strictly platonic but I just want to know that... I don't know that I can call you mine. Even if it is just between us."

"Ma'am! I'm not going to tell you again."

"Yes." Billie smiled nodding. "Of course." She hugged me tightly and put her lips to my ear. "Thank you." My cheeks felt warm as I ran back to my car and hauled ass to get out of there as two more security guards walked towards me. The whole drive home I couldn't help but smile, when I was about halfway there my phone rang.

"Hello?"

"Are you still driving?"

"You're on blue tooth."

"Ok, so um.... one second." I heard shuffling and then a door close. "So I just wanted to call... I miss you already."

"I know." I sighed.

"By the way, I'm sorry we couldn't have more of a... moment."

"It's ok, I didn't know I was going to do it until the words left my mouth."

"You know you didn't have to right?"

"I know, honestly I want you to be my girlfriend.... it feels weird saying that." I laughed so did she.

"It's weird to think about. Not only am I dating someone, but I'm dating you."

"It's weird." I said again.

"Weird." She mumbled I could hear the smile in her voice.

"I just pulled into my driveway." I sighed.

"I'm getting ready to go through security..."

"Text me when you land?"

"Ok, get some sleep."

"night," I said quietly.

"Goodnight." She said and I pressed end. I walked into the living room and laughed.

"Jesus." Garrett jumped. "I didn't even hear you."

"Who are you sending selfies to this late at night?" I asked.

"No one." He said too quickly. I sat at the foot of the couch and he put his legs over me.

"Garrett."

"Just... this guy."

"What guy?" I asked

"I met him at a coffee shop, and." He shrugged.

"What."

"I don't know, it was the first time I felt something since the divorce." He let out a sigh and ran his hand through his hair. "That'll be interesting when future Ex conversations come up, yeah I'm 23 and divorced!"

"Garrett come on if I can get a girlfriend being a single mom you-"

"Girlfriend?!" He said stopping me. I smiled and nodded slowly. "What! When did that happen?!"

"At the airport. I don't know I just ran after her and asked her to be my girlfriend."

"Your dating Billie Eilish?" He grinned.

"I'm dating a girl, who just happens to sing." I grinned back and he laughed as he pushed me with his foot.

"Go get some sleep."

"You too, put your phone away." I said as I went to my bedroom. I got into bed and as I pulled my blanket around me I took a deep breath and my stomach fluttered, my blankets smelt like her. I felt annoyed with how much I missed her, I wished she was here. Not on a plane flying to god know where to go on tour, she's actually my girlfriend and on tour... I wish I knew how many times I've thought this since we met. What is my life?