.I love you Kyran.... so damn much..." Alec breathed out.. staring at me as he laid on his side. My eyes seemed to widen, surprise in my voice. "Are... are you sure...?" I breathed out in reply. "Are you high?" I added, he laughed, it was genuine for once which was... refreshing.

"No... I'm not... I love you..." Alec Reached out to brush his fingers along my cheek. My face was pink.. "You have to be joking... you don't love me, of all people in our schoo..." I said, confusion in my voice.

"Kyran, stop being insecure.." Alec teased... although he was right.. I knew too.. "I love you!" He grinned, pulling me closer in the grass, the sun beamed down on us... Alec and I have been out a lot more often.. enough for Alec to actually get some color in his skin For once. I sighed, burying my face in the crook of his neck.

present day.

Kyran's POV.

It was around 9PM already... Valentine's night...

I sat there lile an idiot on the concrete stairs.

I was alone of course, I always was was on valentine's day.. I never really have a romantic partner... every girl was basically taken or just reall picky and uh.. men... men are scary.

Okay just shut up and let me stay in denial for a bit longer...yeah maybe everyone I know, including my parent's, can EASILY tell I'm Bisexual but I just... I dont know! I just haven't come to terms with it or thought of actually dating a guy....

I would most likely be single forever anyway so it's not lile it mattered. What mattered was I had been sitting on the soaked stairs for a while now I'm just sitting.. think.. waiting for.. something...

I was just done... I've completely given up on love and trying to find a partner...

No one wanted to be with me so whatever... yeah, whatever....

I guess just... more late night Macdonald's runs and late night talks with the moon for me I guess.
The moons a lot nicer anyway...

but the moon has the sun.. the sun has the moon and their for each other...

The sun might miss the moon during the night but the moon always remembers the sun because the sun always lingers. no matter how much the moon can try to erase the sun from their brain the sun with always linger from how bright memories are...

I've always wanted a sun of my own.. I thought I did when I met Gold.. when I wrote her letters... but I was wrong and she ended up going with Prince which...

I can't be mad, I'm happy for her... I was too self-destructive when I loved her... I was just searching for my purpose.. I still am but I haven't been as desperate which is good...

Although I still long for a sun of my own, for a light if my life, for somebody who can love the mess that i am, I just want someone to be able to tolerate me...

But i don't... I just can sit here on these concrete stairs waiting for a miracle.

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WHY AM I ACTUALLY SORTA GOOD AT SLIGHT ANGST??? WHAT???

I think the only reason I'm good at making Kyran Angst is when I sprinkle in my own mind problems- I can't really call it an insecurity cuz I don't think whatever I sprinkle in takes up my brain a whole lot. It's just lile my social life I've always just could see similarities in Ky idk.

Then I just push it on his Character LOLLL

Have you ever had a character like that?

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