[author's note: Yes, Deacon is a cuddler after intimacy, I just didn't include it in the chapter 🤓]

I hang my head down under the hot spray, every muscle in my body tight and sore. I went through intense training at S.W.A.T academy but Mya just gave their program a run for their money.

I shut off the water, stepping out of the shower and grabbing my towel of the hook and drying my hair. It's just after six and I have to be at work in an hour.

I finish drying off then wrap the towel around my waist before going over to the sink and brushing my teeth. And try not to think about my best-friend's hot, young daughter sleeping in my bed.

Is it really wrong what we're doing? She's single. I'm single. We're both adults. Yeah, there's an age difference but it's not that unusual.

I tell myself that I fought our attraction and her obvious advances from the moment we met. Doesn't that count for something?

I step back into the bedroom, my eyes going over to her on my bed. Asleep on her back with one hand tucked underneath one of my pillows and her hair fanned around her. She sleeps naked, her bare shoulder exposed to me and I have to admit I like seeing her this peaceful.

I walk over to my nightstand and put my watch on my wrist, still looking at her. She's the first one to sleep on my bed since Annie and I don't feel shame or guilt or a sense of betrayal like I expected to feel.

She groans and removes her hand from underneath the pillow down to her stomach. The sheet is down to her navel and she's not wearing a shirt or a bra, exposing her breast and I let instinct take over.

Peeling down the sheet, I see that she's completely bare down there as well. I just needed her one more time. I can repent of my sins after.

I climb over her and place a soft kiss to her lips then her cheek before settling near her ear and whispering, "Good morning."

She slowly peels her eyes open, her eyes twinkle as they settle on me just before her lips curve up in a slow sexy smile. "Good morning."

I kiss her lips again. "Just a quickie okay? I gotta get ready for work."

"Okay." She grins as she wraps her arms around my neck. I take her lips in mine, kissing her hard before trailing down to her neck then to her breast then taking one of her nipples into my mouth.

A few minutes later we're both sweaty and panting, and I'm almost sure I've become addicted.

I look over at the clock. "I gotta go."

I don't want to though. How messed up would it be if I called my boss, also known as her dad, and called out sick so I can fuck his daughter all day?

I stand up from the bed and pull on a pair of jeans and my S.W.A.T shirt and my badge. "I'll see you later."

I look down at her, the sheets scrunched up to her chest, her face still flushed from her orgasm and her dark, youthful eyes gaze on me.

What does she see in me?

"See you later Sargent." Mya replies and the way she said Sargent stirs something hot and primal within me and I have to resist the urge to crawl back in bed with her and make her say it again.

I leave, closing the door behind me and her bedroom too in case Lilah wakes up early and decides to look for her.

Jogging down the stairs, I almost feel the urge to smile even as guilt knots in my stomach. The last girl in the world that I ever thought I'd fall for is quickly turning into the girl of my dreams.

Last night was nothing short of perfection. The passion. The chemistry. I don't remember it being this electric, not even with Annie.

For a moment I let myself imagine I was younger and didn't have kids or she wasn't my best-friend's daughter. I'd spoil her rotten. I'd make sure she knew that she was the only woman I'd ever want.

But as great as the sex was, I knew it couldn't happen again. She was still too young, she was still my best-friend's daughter and still the girl's nanny and I wasn't entirely sure I was ready to start dating anyone again so soon after Annie's death.

When I come home, as hard as it's going to be, I'm going to have to sit her down and explain to her that last night was a one time thing and it could never happen again... no matter how much I wanted it to.

***

I go to work, the team is called to investigate an armed robbery where one person was killed and another in critical condition.

I'm in the locker room getting geared up, the only other person left with me is Luca and if anyone could tell how different I was acting it would be him.

"Everything okay man? You seem happier than usual." Luca comments.

"Yeah, I'm good. I just had a goodnight sleep that's all." I answer, coincidentally leaving out that it was after screwing our boss's daughter two more times and one of those times she was on top right before we both crashed. I can't remember the last time I got a good nights sleep since Annie's death. "I don't know, lately I've been thinking about dating again. It's too soon right?"

"Only you'll know when you're ready Deac." Luca replies. "But if you're thinking about jumping into the dating the pool again, I have the perfect girl for you. Her name is Jannette, I see her all the time at the coffee place near my house. We've talked a few times and I think she'd be perfect for you."

"Oh yeah?"

"Definitely man. She works for the FBI, she's in her early 40s and she loves kids."

"She sounds amazing. So why don't you go for her?" I ask.

"Not my type." And she probably wasn't. Luca liked dating outside of his race.

I think about Mya waiting for me at home. If only I was younger...

"Okay. Give me her number. I'll call her. Maybe she'll want to grab a late dinner or something."

"Sounds awesome. Okay, I'll give you her number." Luca agrees eagerly.

"Yo, Hondo says we gotta roll." Tan pops his head back into the lockerroom to say.

I shut my locker and Luca and I head out.

It's a long day. The next few hours are spent tracking leads, questioning potential suspects, talking to witnesses before we finally get the men responsible for the crime.

At the end of the day, I change into my civilian clothes and start to head out but Luca stops me.

"Yo Deac, wait up!"

I turn to see him jogging up to me. Wordlessly he hands me a piece of paper with a number on it.

"I already told her about you. She's expecting your call." He tells me.

I stare at the numbers, mixed emotions swirling inside of me. Mixed emotions about Annie, Mya and now this new woman I'm trying to add to my life all because the woman I do want, I shouldn't.

I look up at Luca. "Thanks man."

"No problem. Just let me know how everything goes."

I thank him again before heading out.

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