This is the bad version happy ending comes once my angst is gone

He slept holding alex close a smile on his face....he adored alex and he wouldint hurt him

But he kept thinking about what the book had said everything he would do...the stress led to drinking....when he was drunk he would either cry into Alex's arms or be horrible to him....screaming that he wished they had never met or gotten married...and he honestly did sometimes...he knew he would hurt him in the end and he wished that he wouldint

But schlatt had no control over it at this point as he watched himself start drinking in broad daylight and treat alex horribly....he wished alex would leave or anything else!

Soon he noticed tubbo acting funny and he remembered what the book had said...he broke into laughter pain and rage flooding his senses....the fucking kid was betraying him!

So....schlatt wanted to fix things...he could just jail tubbo for treason.... Tubbo would be alive and safe from him

They fixed a festival and he watched tubbo fix it with a small smile.... He actually liked tubbo whennhe was sober...Rare as it was they would get along or talk about small things...he was sober for a fair bit of the festival planning (due to alex begging him to at least stay sober for such a important event)

The day came and he smiled just knowing he could fix things....but his hands where shaking...his nerves where driving him up a wall...so he turned to a bottle of whiskey and had a shot calming himself before going to participate in the fun parts of the festival... Fighting in the ring having a few not so wise drinks wiht citizens

By the time they where at the podium he was fairly drunk and he saw techno a sick idea entering his mind.. Soon he had trapped tubbo and alex was watching him in shock as he called techno up

"Kill him!" He barked at techno faltering some when he saw alex....heatbroken looking at him like he was a monster... That was the straw to break the camels back

Alex was looking at him like he was a monster...so was everyone else...the book said he would be a monster...there was no use fighting it...so he decided to embrace it

He grinned as techno fired he laughed as he was hit by the rocket too...while he lost one of his lives...while tubbo lost one of his
While alex lost one

After the festival when he looked at alex who now had small burns on his face and arm from trying to block the rocket he felt the smallest amount of guilt...he helped alex get patched up trying his best to justify killing tubbo..

Things kept getting worse for them and eventually he demanded they tear the whitehouse down...he fought with alex..and alex left schlatt knew damn well what was happening...he just didint care at that point... He knew they would kill him but if he was gone then alex could be happy...the smp would have peace again so he kept going

Not long after there was a small war...he hid in the drug van...but they found him surronded by bottles and drunk off his ass
He listened to fundy yell at him and grinned ....then he felt a pain in his chest....he had his heart attack his final words being just as cruel as he had been..

After they burried him alex had gone home and went to bed...he had a odd mix of emotions...he hated what schlatt had did and what he had became...but he loved schlatt

In the morning he woke up with a book on the other pillow where schlatt would have slept and he opened it tears growing in his eyes as he thought it was a journal of some sort...but then he read to schlatts death...he couldint have known that would happen.... And things started clicking into place... Why schlatt had broken down in his arms a drunk mess a week after the wedding begging him to leave.... He panicked and read further... The butcher army...all of it terror filling him would he be like schlatt?

Authors note
I was bored and tired so heres the sad one happy wll be some time tonight or tommorow