Karin pov

"Karin baby you okay?!" Chris's nurse rolled him over to my bed.

I just stared at him. I'm done fighting.

"Karin?" Chris laid his hand on top of mines.

"He...raped..me" I said sadly. Chris just looked at me like he didn't know what to say.

"Damn. I-I...fuck" "Can you call the kids please? I want to make things right"

"They're already on the way" "Really?" My eyes lit up.

"I told them that you needed them right now and how much you love them and they said they'll come. It didn't even take that much convincing"

I smiled. "I'm so happy" I swallowed back my tears of joy.

"Me too baby. Me too. Did you think about moving back?" "I can't Chris" I shook my head.

"Why not? Don't you want to be a family again?" Chris frowned. "I do but...I can't put my life at risk again" I sighed.

"We need you back Karin. I need you. We love you." "...umm...okay fine"

Chris smiled and and lightly rubbed his thumb on my hand.

Suddenly I felt dizzy and like it was harder to breathe.

My eyes fluttered and I took deeper breaths. "Baby you okay?" Chris examined my face. "Mhm" I nodded.

I don't know what that was honestly. But it didn't kill me so.

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"Mom?" Alana came into the room with tears streaming down her face.

I opened my arms and Alana ran into my arms crying. "I missed you so so so much ma" Alana cried and cried and cried and I just kept her in my arms.

"I missed you too Lani. You don't even understand" I sniffled. "I love you" She said inbetween breaths.

"I love you even more Lani. You're always gonna be my babygirl. Always. You're my best friend" I cried in her shoulder.

Alana pulled away and smiled with tears still in her eyes. "I need to tell you something and I need your advice"

"Damn not even 10 minutes in" We both laughed. "I'm uh...I'm...pregnant"

I just stared at her in shock and then after a few seconds, I smiled big.

"Im gonna be a grandma?! Wow im getting wayyy too old"

She laughed "Well....I think I wanna have an abortion"

"What? No. Nope." I shook my head. "I'm not ready and I don't even know whos the father"

"What do you mean?" "I have a few partners" She mumbled.

"Oh my" I shook my head. "I can't bring a baby into this world ma" She sniffled.

"Look...You were my first. Obviously. I for sure wasn't ready to have you but I did. I did because I knew I was gonna be blessed with a beautiful baby that I could call mine and show them a better life than I was given. I raised you alone with auntie Trin's help at first. I couldn't even go out without being threatened by your father's fans. But aborting you never came into mind. I knew what I was doing. No matter how hard life was at the time, I knew I was gonna be blessed with a gift. And I definitely was" I smiled.

"...Okay. I won't. But can you help me?" "Duhh this is my grandbaby of course ima help" I laughed.

"I'm just scared. What if he or she grows up to hate me? Or what about when they ask me about their father? What about-" "Lani...Theres gonna be A LOT of those days. Do you know how many times you cried to me in my chest asking me about your father?"

"I just don't wanna make mistakes" She sighed. "I'm gonna be here. Okay?"

"...Okay. Ima go get everyone else" Alana walked out my room and I smiled as I watched her walk.

My babies are all grown up. I'm proud of each and every one of them.