Y/N's POV.

I woke up from a dream where monsters played UNO when the Moon was falling on us. Yeah, typical dream when your psyche could fall any moment. I looked at my phone and I saw it was 10:54. I sighed as I opened the conversation with Frisk, I asked her if she had any means to contact Gaster, she said yes and she gave me his number. I thanked her and I sent a message to Gaster.

<Hello Gaster, I am Y/N. I want to resume our training, that 'curse' is growing on me, and I would like to tame it before it'll consume me. Tell me when you are available. Thanks.>

I turned off my phone and I looked at the ceiling a little and smiled. I censured my incoming laugh as I thought of the events of the day before. I did it, I knew the two moderators who was out there, Jake and Volt. Jake's reveal had surprised me a little, but I knew that the guy was a complete bastard. However, he wasn't as scary as Zackaria. Is there a hierarchy for them ? And I also learned about those assholes' name. Humanity Salvation. Fucking cliché if you ask me. I smiled once again, as it was just a matter of time before they fall with the help of my hands. I couldn't wait to kill them, to feel their blood on my hands, to see their hopelessness in their eyes, to hear their cries of suffering. I couldn't wait to finished them like the pests they were. I couldn't wait to fucking gorge their eyeballs out. I coul-

"Y/N !" My thoughts were interrupted by Chara, I looked at her and I could see fear in her eyes. I tilted my head a little and I figured why. My eyes got the golden filter on and my gauntlet was out. I breathed to control myself from the spiral and I gradually turned off my spiral. "Sorry, got a little crazy." I said as I sighed. She nodded and slapped me slightly on the cheek. "Dummy, I wasn't afraid for me." She said, soon after the slap, she hugged me. I knew that she was scared for me, I couldn't help but to smile as I knew that she wanted me to be better. "I know, I'm trying to control it." I said, which was true, but I needed to know how I'm gonna control it. "Let's talk about it over breakfast." She said, standing up. I stood up as well as I saw her boobs jiggled a little, my inner pervert took over and I touched her boobs. She was surprised but didn't stop me. I realized that she was blushing and trying to control herself. "Sorry, they're too beautiful." I just said, retracting my hands. She nodded and giggled a little. "And they're all yours, just tell me next time." She said, I nodded.

"So, why did you asked Gaster's number ?" Frisk asked me, Chara was at my left and Frisk at the left of Chara, on the couch, eating breakfast. "To flirt with him, obviously." I said, with a monotone voice, Frisk quietly laughed and Chara just frowned at me. "Joking, I asked him if he could train me. And help me control that spiral of mine." I said, the two of them was looking at me, worried and surprised. "You gave a name to your situation ?" Frisk asked. "I mean, a spiral don't stop, and that thing in my head cause it to snowball with my magic, always going down." I said, taking a spoon of cereals. "Make sense for me. I could also help you with it... No, nevermind that." Frisk started, but she seemed to remember unpleasant feelings. "I see why you can't, don't worry about me." I said, Chara looked at me pissed. "You got a AI in your head causing you to go crazy when you use magic, how can we stop worrying ?" Chara said, I sighed as I nodded. "And I'll learn to control it, that's why I don't want you to worry." I said, patting Chara's hair a little. "What if Gaster can't control you when you'll go too deep." Chara said, I felt something entering the house, I summoned a bone as I turned around, only to see Gaster looking at us. 

"Not a nice way to say hello, Y/N." Gaster said, I despawned the bone as I sighed of relief. "Sorry, with yesterday's event, I can't help to be careful now." I said, Gaster looked perplexed. "What happened ?" He asked, going into the arm chair near the couch. Chara explained the events, as I couldn't. "I see, it seems that the speed of your vicious circle is greatly enhanced when the person who helped to your experimentations is near." He said, I nodded as it was true. "Then it could help you control it faster." He said. "How so ? I will be near them and control myself to stop my craving of killing them killed ?" I said, I saw Chara's and Frisk's faces surprised by my words, I didn't need to hide it anymore. "What... What did you say ?" Chara asked me, stunned. "I want to kill them, it became a want, not a need." I just said, getting up and putting my bowl into the dishwasher. 

"Can I check your soul, Y/N ?" Gaster asked, I nodded as I took out my soul. He used his colorful eyes to look at it, and he seemed unusual, Gaster was normally a calm and collected skeleton, but then, his face seemed surprised to say the least. "Y/N... Your stats aren't correct." He said, making Chara and Frisk even more surprised. "What ?" I asked, I knew about the STATS. ATK, DEF, HP, EXP, LV. But I thought that it was just for the Underground. "They aren't stable, to say the minimum about it." He said. I tilted my head a little. "For a human, their STATS increase with their LV, but yours are ... not quite the usual." He started, he showed the menu of my stats, and I was also surprised. They were changing, fast. Going between a one-digit number, to three-digit number. "And humans STATS can't be higher than 99. You're breaking the natural rule of human." He finished, just great. I sighed and rubbed the bridge of my nose. "So I'm just a fucking bug for life ? A fucking anomaly ?" I said loudly, I understood why the previous feeling of that imposter syndrome was in my head, because I wasn't supposed to live in the first place ?

"I don't think that's the case, you told us about a power limiter before if I remember correctly." Gaster said, I nodded as the spiral was increasing. All of that is happening because of them. "Then it could explain that, they put a limiter on you. Making you weaker than normal, but with the rate of your progression, I can only think of your true power when it'll be lifted." Gaster said, I smiled and laughed a little. "That means if I could lift it permanently, I'll be even stronger than now ?" I asked, smiling a little, knowing that their mistakes will cause their deaths. "I guess so, but the sudden change of power cause your soul to be shocked, so you must not use it." Gaster said sternly. I just laughed as I felt my eyes going a little golden. "I don't care, I'll use it to kill every single one of them." I said, giggling. Frisk and Chara was worried by my sudden change. But I didn't care, it was me, I was just letting my darker side out.

"It seems that the spiral is growing on you." Gaster said, grabbing me with gravity magic as he dragged me outside. I smiled as I started to absorb his magic. But I couldn't. I grow frustrated as he put me on the ground. "Release me !" I yelled. I wanted to teach him a lesson. "Control yourself Y/N." Gaster said, I felt heavier than a mountain now, I could feel my breath going heavier. I snapped out of the spiral for one second, and it was bad, I could feel that my hate will blind me. "Y/N, think of something you couldn't hurt, even when you're going berserk." Gaster said, I snapped my eyes on Chara, who was behind Gaster. She flinched a little as my harsh and crazy eyes were looking at her. 

No, I can't hurt her, I won't forgive me if I hurt her.

I summoned my gauntlet and I punched myself at the face, causing me to snap out of the spiral.

"Fucking hell." I said, feeling myself becoming sane again. Gaster smiled and Chara looked relieved. "Sorry about that, it's really growing on me." I said, bowing a little. "No need to apologize, you managed to snap out of it. That's a great step for you. Now, you just need to learn when you want to be in that state." Gaster said, I knew what he meant. "Because when the spiral is on, I'm becoming a bigger threat." I said to myself, I heard Gaster humming in approval. "It's a double-edged sword, you become stronger, but you seem to not care about your state." He said, I nodded as I felt the pain I dealt to myself. "At least, a punch in the face is better than my fist impaling myself." I said, laughing a little. Chara was looking pissed at my joke, and Gaster looked unfazed. "As much as I like dark humor, yours is just a mean to hide your fears." He said, only for me to listen. I was stunned and he quickly talked with his normal voice. "Now, stay calm for the day, in two days we'll start a new approach. Good day to you all." Gaster said, teleporting elsewhere.

Chara rushed at me and slapped me one more time. "That was for the joke, you cunt." She said, I laughed a little. "Didn't know you were Australian." I just said, getting up. Chara rolled her eyes as we got inside the house.

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Chara was sleeping, and I was slowly drifted to sleep myself. I smiled at myself as I let the tiredness take over me.

Their time is starting to go down.