I didn't have a father and my mother died early. I lived at my uncle's house, in Daegu, and I lived a life that was neither shabby nor happy. I would never expect myself to suddenly become successful in life. However, I suddenly had a brother that year.

After seeing their numerous evidences and hearing numerous explanations, I suddenly became the illegitimate daughter of the director of a large entertainment company. The director was now dead but he wanted to give half of the company's shares to me who was a daughter he had never seen before.

What was more unfathomable was that the legitimate son of the legal wife, namely my half-brother, didn't try to fight for the inheritance or try to change the will like those seen in historical dramas. He was actually very kind and treated me especially well.

Just like that, Lisa became an artist and I became someone who would dictate her life.

Lisa would never beg someone for her own future but she came to beg me. She asked me to promote Jennie.

Jennie looked very attractive but there were countless good looking people in the world. The company could promote whoever they wanted to and it didn't have to be her. We were very clear of that fact.

My condition was for her to be with me for these years. She agreed.

Lisa already knew that I loved her. She was also prepared to sacrifice herself for Jennie.

We became lovers for these years.

I floated by Lisa's side for a few days and there were times where I shockingly saw a completely different side of her.

She always had that one look when she worked. She was also like this back when I was still hiding at one corner to look at her. It seemed as though she was standing in another world even though she was in the middle of the crowd. I had no idea what she was looking at and her thoughts seemed even more incomprehensible.

She was always elusive and hard to comprehend.

I thought that she would feel happy after I left but I couldn't see as many changes in her mood as I had expected.

She used to be a very expressive person. When she was happy, her body seemed to be shining brightly. When she was dejected, a dark cloud could be seen floating above her head.

It was my fault that she was like this now.

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Jennie started packing up and moving in. Her items were slowly increasing in this house.

When she saw the box of photos Lisa had prepared to dispose of outside the door, this busybody brought it in front of Lisa.

She seemed to enjoy stepping on Lisa's landmines. Holding her head high, she asked, "Lisa, you can't even keep these?"

I knew that Jennie wasn't detonating a landmine this time, it was a torpedo.

Jennie might be a muddle head but she wasn't stupid. She would know if she was stepping on a landmine. If she dared to step in, she must have had a way out. She wasn't like me who had to act lowly before Lisa in order to avoid provoking her sharp anger.

Her anger was so sharp that it would cause pain when it was directed at a person. Lisa must have known that Jennie's skin was much more tender than mine so she didn't dare to point it at her.

Lisa's face darkened as I had expected and a sharp expression froze on her face.

Unlike me, Jennie wasn't fearful of this sight.

"Just what did Irene do that you wouldn't forgive her to such an extent?" She spoke louder.

I clapped loudly. She asked a question that I wished to know the most. Just what did I do for you to hate me so much?

"Can you stop mentioning her?" Lisa continued angrily, "I don't want to hear her name again."

Jennie held the box and stood there blankly for quite a while.

I was disappointed. Jennie finally asked the question but I didn't get to hear the answer.

"Lisa-yah, did she do something... I'm unaware of?" Jennie sat down and gently hugged Lisa.

Lisa didn't break away from her.

What? What's this? I stared at her futilely.

Is this a silent acknowledgement?

I feel so wronged.

I really don't get it. Just what did I do? Was it the ten evils?

Lisa was so capable. Her silence made the righteous Jennie who came to help the weak me become a person sympathetic of the victim and angry at me, the enemy.

For the next few hours, I thought hard about the most terrible thing I had done to Lisa.

I wonder which one was more unforgivable, indirectly causing her to give up music or forcing her to be with me?

Was there anything else that was worse than these? It can't be. I, Irene, had always been kind by nature. I don't remember doing anything worse.

Even if it was regarding music or staying together, would I have had any influence on Lisa if she had actually persevered against me?

It had already been ten years. I served her like a full time mother every day. I helped her find success in her career. I secretly eliminated anyone that was harmful to her. I tried my best to please her, not daring to slack off in any matter. Every day, I would never fail to smile. In the end, I was still not worth her attention.

The only thing that changed from the me of ten years ago to now, was that our pure friendship was no longer 'pure'. Otherwise, there was nothing different at all.

I tried my very best to make up to her even though I wasn't able to make her smile in those ten years.

I had also managed to give her freedom in the end.

Let's say she despised me for wasting her youth. However, she was now 27 years old, the most outstanding age of one's life. Her youth couldn't be counted as being completely wasted by me.

Although I felt that I was wrong to do that, I had also tried my very best.

Human heart is made of flesh. It has been more than ten years. No matter how much I didn't match her, even one would have some feelings for a stray dog after ten years.

Let's say that she was unhappy that I broke up her relationship with Jennie. Although I felt sorry for Jennie, the two of them weren't actually broken up in the past years. Whether I was there or not didn't really matter. Even if I wasn't there to break them apart, were they allowed to date openly as celebrities?

After absentmindedly accompanying Lisa at work for an entire day, I met someone I felt most ashamed of meeting at the car park.

I missed him a lot after I first gained awareness after I died.

I personally felt that Lisa didn't really like him and that she seemed somewhat afraid of him. Lisa would feel uneasy every time she saw him in the past. Today, her face stiffened as usual when she saw him. That person would usually show Lisa a pleasant expression for my sake but his expression today was terrible.

He was actually being very nice by just showing a terrible expression. I had thought that he would launch at Lisa and beat her up.

For some unfathomable reason, he was the person who treated me especially well when I was brought back at the age of 17. He is the son of my father's legal wife and he is my brother, Oh Sehun.

It felt mushy calling him brother since we only began to know each other when I was 17 so I would usually call him by his name.

When I looked at Sehun at a closer distance, I realized that his complexion was bad and that he has gotten thinner.

It's understandable because I had given him a lot of trouble. He was a general manager but he was too lazy to care about the company and was always missing. The whole company was now his. Without any prior notice, I dumped all the important and miscellaneous tasks to him and he also had to handle my aftermath.

I honestly felt very guilty towards him. He treated me well but I must have hurt him.

Since I wasn't around, Sehun had no reason to bother himself with this big shot singer under him. He walked towards his silver Mercedes.

"Mr. Oh..." I don't know what happened to Lisa but she actually called out to him.

Sehun elegantly opened his car door. He stopped but he didn't turn his head around. He was a bigger big shot than the celebrity Lisa.

"May I know if you... are able to contact Irene?"

I was very surprised.

I had invisibly floated about by her side for almost a week. This was the first time she brought me up on her own initiative.

However, I wasn't happy. Based on my understanding, it was probably not for something good.

"May I ask why Ms. Manoban is looking for Irene?" It was then that I noticed that Sehun was in a black heritage trench coat. He slowly turned around as he leaned on his silver sports car. I was so close to giving him a round of applause because he was so stylish and elegant. However, not finding it sufficient enough, he even leisurely lit a cigarette.

If uri general manager Oh had acted in a drama, he would probably earn more than Jennie.

"She... some of her items are still with me. I would like to return the items to her."

My guess was right.

Was it the box of photos that irked her just by looking at it? I started sneering at Lisa. You can just burn it by yourself. What's the point of spending so much effort? Are you trying to take the chance to learn about my whereabouts?

In my will, I had specifically told Sehun not to tell Lisa about me.

I'm kind by nature as I had mentioned before. I didn't want Lisa to feel guilty about my death and end up not being together with Jennie.

It seems to me that I was too conceited. I had thought that a small speck of dust like me would have some sort of impact in Lisa's life.

My failure was a result of my overconfidence. I really despise myself.

Sehun looked very charming as he sucked in a breath of cigarette.

"No need. Just handle it the way you think you should. Irene has no need for those items anymore." He said coldly.

What he was saying was the truth.

Lisa naturally felt targeted and was unhappy. She dared to act arrogantly as well since she was also a big shot. She gave manager Oh a cold glance before turning around to leave.

I looked back and saw that Sehun strongly nipped the cigarette. He crushed it after throwing it on the floor.

I said 'I'm sorry' in my heart three thousand times to Sehun.

Lisa drove as if she was in a car race when she went home afterwards. Her anger from being offended by manager Oh was evident even though she was suppressing it.

Lisa quickly ran upstairs after parking the car. I knew just what she was planning to do since I understood her very well. She resentfully retrieved the box of photos. Rushing to the incinerator downstairs, she threw everything in without the slightest hesitation.

For someone like Lisa who only had a single nerve of patience, this course of action was already very tamed.

The fire shone brightly and floated about with the black residues.

Not bad. The sound of the fire burning the photos had a nice ring to it.

I stood on one side and calmly watched as my memories slowly turned into ashes. I was actually able to appreciate the sight. Lisa, you were so cruel. You didn't give me even the slightest pity.

If I could have been as cool as I was now when I was alive, perhaps I wouldn't look so lowly in Lisa's eyes.

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