"Meredith, can I talk to you?" Cole says as I greet him on our daily phone call. He sounds worried.

"Um, of course", I say back. "What is it?"

"I'm sorry", he starts.

"For what?"

"For what I'm about to say", he starts. His voice weaken. "So, I've been thinking about this for about two weeks now. With you in Maine, and me in Minnesota, I'm not sure how this is going to work".

I refuse to know where this is going. "Cole. What are you trying to say?"

"I don't want to do this over the phone, you know that", he takes a deep breath. "I think, at least for now, we need to take a break. I hate being so far away from you, and I still can't see you for another month. I hate doing this, but I need to".

"No, Cole. Don't do this", I yell into the phone. Tears stream down my face. "We can figure this out. We have before. Please. I love you too much to let you do this".

"Mere, it breaks my heart to do this, but this is the only solution I've come up with. We've tried to be apart, and I've been close to doing this before because I love you too much. It hurts me so much when I've thought about the fact that you've been so far away from me. I just can't do this anymore".

"If you are doing this out of love, why don't we just get through this next month and we can talk about it when you come to Boston. You already got me the ticket. Please. Don't do this", I plead over the phone to him. There's no way he is going to turn back now.

I sit on the stairs in my condo. I face the front door, hoping and praying something would happen, even though I know it won't. "I have to Meredith. I'm so sorry", he pauses. "I love you".

The phone line goes dead. I throw the phone across the room in anger, it bounces off a couch then to the floor.

He's gone. He broke up with me. He really did. I look down at my hand. The promise ring he gave me three years ago on Christmas. The words engraved on the inside, A promise is forever. Bullshit. I take the ring off and throw it across the room, it lands next to my phone.

I bury my face into my knees and hands, and cry. I cry as hard as ever thought possible. How could he ever do this? He said he loves me, and he's breaking up with me. He's the love of my life. We've been together for almost five years. It would be five in November. November 8th.

I cry, and cry, and cry. I have no one around to talk to right now. I would have gone to Cole. But, oh, would you look at that. He's the entire reason of this.

I think it's been almost two hours since he called. My eyes have dried, but I still feel like crying. No more tears come out. I walk slowly over to my phone. Thank god it's not broken. I unlock it and go through every single picture I have, ninety five percent of them are of Cole and I. I erase them all. All but three. The ones that I will love forever. On the beach, at the public skate, and the one at graduation. I can't get rid of those. No possible way. I change my lock screen and profile pictures on everything I have.

The first real thing I can think about right now is calling someone. But who first? Noah, Terra, or Cara?

"Hello", they answer the phone.

"He's gone", my crying starts again.

"What are you talking about? Who's gone?" Noah questions.

"Cole", I answer. "He broke up with me".

"Princess", Noah's voice goes soft. "I'm so sorry. What can I do?"

"It not your fault, Noah. You didn't do it. I just wish he didn't either. I just wanted to tell you before he did. But, you know you are going to be in the middle. Please, down be mad at either of us".

"I won't. I promise. I wish I was there for you. Do you want me to come up? I don't have practice for another few days. I can stay until Friday. But, my first pre season game is on Saturday"

"You don't need to come. I just thought I should let you know", I run the back of my hand under my nose to wipe away more tears. "I have to call Cara. I'll talk to you later".

"Oh, okay, Princess. Call me if you need anything else" I hang up the phone.

I look through my contacts and find Cara's name, right above His. I almost tap his name, it's just a habit. But, I pull myself away.

"Please pick up", I whisper to myself as the phone rings.

"Hey sister", Cara finally picks up.

"Hi Cara", I answer.

"What wrong?" she asks.

"I lost him. He's gone".

"What do you mean? Who did you lose?" Then Cara gasps. "Oh my god. Cole".

"He broke up with me. He said he couldn't take that fact that we were so far away to keep up the relationship. I tried to stop it, but he said this was the only solution he could come up with", I cry.

"Oh my god. Meredith. I'm so, so, so sorry. I never thought that it would happen to you and him. You two were amazing".

"Way to make me feel better", I say back.

"Oh, sorry. I just thought", I cut her off.

"No, Cara, it's fine. I'm on edge. Sorry", I tell her. "I just needed a girl to tell. I already told Noah and I made him promise not to say anything to Cole until Cole tells him".

"Mere, if I was closer, I would come out to help you. Can I do anything for you? I can go to Minnesota and kick his a$$. I'm close enough".

"No, it's fine. Just, don't tell Mom or Dad. I'm not ready to tell them yet. I can't even imagine what Dad would do if I tell him how it went down. I will tell them within the next few days", I look around the living room. "I have to go".

"Okay Sis. Call me tomorrow or anytime when you need it".

Now, it's time to clean up the mess of my life right now.