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I'm always scared to go home... My mom never appreciated me for who I am....  My dad loves me, but he's never there...  My Fiancé John Leach saved me... I was about ready to....... Well.....  Anyways... I stress, I get paranoid, I'm stupid, I'm the worst burden to carry... I'm on the verge of breaking down... Screaming.... Yelling..... Crying..... My life tearing down, walls falling before my eyes

He saved me when he said yes... That's he would go out with me.... Assured me that I would be okay... Forever...  Inside, I feel security... When he holds me I feel the world disappear and we are the only ones in existence...  I would give anything, ANYTHING..... Just to have all my friends surround me and give me one giant hug....

I want my family to accept me as a person... But.....  It's too late now....  They already think the worst of me....  I wish I could just.... J-just....😣😭..... I wish someone could hear my silent cry... My cry for help...
help....Help....HELP!!!!! HELP!!!!!............

help..........

Yet.... No one can hear it.....  I'm lost..... My heart is tearing me... Killing me from the inside.... Eating away my worthless soul into wasted decay.... I miss the old days.. We're everyone.. Including my own mother loved me... When she didn't call me fat, when she didn't call me a slut or a whore... I was just............. Me....... Sometimes I wish I could change what I did wrong.....

But then I remember that I have you guys... I weigh my pearls.....  I count my blessings... And I remember I would never trade or change a single damn thing because it's what lead me to you... Yes... You.... The beautiful people reading this... Willing to take me in and protect me....

So yeah.... To you guys who feel that everyone and everything is against you, just know... And forever know...  That

I, Faith Mackenzie Ward, will forever and always be by your side no matter how mad you think I will get or how much damage you have caused...
I will get you out of it, even if it means my life, than I shall die to serve you...

I look up to you, you guys have truly changed me.... Thank you..... For reading....
I LOVE YOU......