"I love you, Taehyung."

I blushed and looked away, not answering.

Jungkook wrapped his arms around my waist.

We were both sitting on his bed. My mind felt empty.

Am I making a huge mistake?

I told Jungkook I liked him back. I accepted his confession.

My heart hurts just thinking about it. I'm getting farther and farther from my goal. My goal is Jimin.

Jungkook grabbed my chin and lifted my head up for our eyes to meet. He kissed me yet again.

When he backed away, Jungkook rested his head on my shoulder.

I immediately burst into tears.

Jungkook looked confused.

"I-I'm sorry- J-Just- I'm thinking about s-something else. I-I love you too, Kook."

I remember him smiling and comforting me.

He is the best boyfriend I could ever have.

But I'm still running after Jimin.

We spent a few hours watching TV in his room.

"Tae."

I looked to him.

"Do you... Still like Jimin?"

I thought about it.

It really is love. I fell in love with someone I knew for one week and disappeared for two months.

I am still in love with Jimin.

My head hurts.

"As friends, I guess. But you know I love you," I lied. I mean, about Jimin.

I think I'm slowly falling in love with Jungkook.

Jungkook wants to say something but is trying to hide it. I can tell.

"T-Taehyung, honey. I-I gotta tell you something, babe."

He held my hand and kissed me on the forehead.

"What? What's wrong, Kookie?"

He bit his lip and looked down.

"D-Did Jimin tell you about what happened to him?"

I started shaking.

"W-What? What? No? He didn't tell me anything..?"

Jungkook held his breath.

"Baby, I- Jimin- He told me what was happening. He said he didn't want to tell you. I don't know why he came to me. I-I didn't want to know, I- I'm sorry for not telling you-"

I felt like I was about to cry.

"What did he tell you, Kook? What did he say?"

Jungkook took a deep breath and opened his mouth to answer, holding my hand even tighter.

"Tell me, Jungkook. Tell me!"

Jungkook paused the show we were watching and hid his face with his hands.

"J-Jimin is... He- I can't tell you this."

I felt tears streaming down my eyes.

"Tell me. Please."

Jungkook shook his head.

"Please! Jungkook!"

"Jimin is showing early signs of hereditary lung cancer. His aunt came from Busan to get him to the hospital next to her house so she could see him more regularly. I didn't want to tell you, you seemed so close to him, I really wanted and tried to further you from him so the impact would be less painful, but then you went to Busan and got hit by a car for him. I couldn't tell you, I'm really sorry. I couldn't. Please forgive me, Taehyung. Please."

My mouth was dry.

I'm sorry, Taehyung. I should have told you.

"I didn't get any news from him, Taehyung. I'm scared. He told me about everything. Apparently, his mother died of lung cancer too."

I froze.

"W-Wasn't it pneumonia..?"

Jungkook shook his head.

I'm so sorry.

"I-I was being so mean to him. That's why I stopped bullying him and you. I felt bad. I'm a horrible person, Tae."

I looked to the floor and burst into tears.

Jungkook held me in his arms the whole time I was sobbing.

Neither of us said a word.

We just held each other and promised to stay together.

Until the end.

But I don't want to stay until the end anymore.

-.-.-

sorry Halima_3 🗿