~Izuku's POV~

When kacchan came over I wasn't expecting him to comfort me. While we were embracing, I had time to think. All the memories came flooding in. All the times we spent at malls, movies, parks, all the kitchen disasters we had, all the fights we had because of her overworking. I can't stay here anymore. It's like whenever I'm at the surface of the water, something always drags ,me down. And I can't take it anymore. I'm tired of drowning in my endless river of tears.

"Zu?"

"H-hey sho..."

I broke down,

Sho: "Hey what's wrong? Why are you crying?!"

Izuku: "They *hic* she *hic* I*hic*..."

Inko: "It'll be okay. Let me bandage you."

Izuku: "O-okay mommy..."

Not this...

Inko: "Hey baby! How are you feeling?"

Izuku: "Better!"

Please...

Inko: "Sh...everything's alright..."

No. it's not! Stop it!

Inko: "Izuku! Dinner's ready!"

Enough!

Izuku: "ARGH!!! STOP IT! GET OUT! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! STOP!"

Sho: "ZU? ZU?! IZUKU?! HEY WHAT'S HAPPENING?!"

I blacked out and when I opened my eyes I was there again, on my back underneath the water with no light. I didn't try to escape, I just smiled and lay there...but something was different. I felt something shift next me. I turn and I see him, an orange haired boy with brown round eyes and he's shining. So bright that when I reached forward that was all I saw...

I woke up gasping for air and drenched in sweat. I looked around, nothing. Everything's still here and I'm alright. Then what the hell was that dream...

Wait. Sho, SHO! I scramble for my phone and see forty-five missed call and a bunch of text from Sho. Guess I blacked out again. I sigh dialing his number.

Sho: "Izuku?! Omg, are you okay?! You had me worried! What happened? Are you hurt? Do you need help? Is it serious?"

Izuku: "Calm down. I'm fine..."

Sho: "Are you sure? Cause it didn't sound like it..."

At this point I was silently crying over the phone but I managed,

Izuku: "Mom's *sniffles* she just *sniffles..."

Sho: "Calm down and breathe."

Izuku: "She's gone. Mom's gone, she's dead..."

That was all I managed to say until I started crying again,

Sho: "W-what? N-no! Y-YOU'RE LYING TO ME!"

He's crying too,

Sho: "She wouldn't just leave!!"

Izuku: "I *hic* I didn't even *hic* I couldn't *hic* I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING! I JUST SAT THERE WATCHING HER SUFFER!*hic* Sh-she looked s-so pale and brittle. I just stood there...o-on the other side of the door...W-WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW HUH?! I-I CAN'T D-DO THIS! I STILL NEED HER! I-I TOLD HER HOLD ON F-FOR ME! W-Why didn't she hold on Sho...? Why didn't she..."

We just sat there in silence over the phone, crying. 

Izuku: "I-I gotta g-go now..."

Sho: "Call me tomorrow okay..."

Then I got up and went in the shower. I finish changing and look in the mirror and once again, all I saw was her. All I could hear was her. I got out of my room and went to hers. I walk in and sat the end of the bed breathing in her scent and crying. Crying so hard that I thought my eyes would explode. I can't take this. Everywhere I turn, everything I see all goes to her. I can't stay here where I'm reminded everyday of my failure to protect the person I love most.

Sho: "Hello? Zu, is everything all right?"

Izuku: "Y-yeah, I-I just need to ask you something...I-I know i-it might be a lot and, and I-I'm not saying you have to i-its just I thought w-with everything, this might be best but of course you don't need to agree, it's just someth-"

Sho: "You're mumbling. Anything you have to say, I'm all ears..."

Izuku: "*sigh* I would like...to come back to America..."

Sho: "..."

Izuku: "I-IF IT'S OKAY OF COURSE! I DON'T WANNA IMPOSE OR ANYTHING! I THOUGHT OF OF IT AND-"

Sho: "Are you kidding?! Of course you can come!"

Izuku: "R-really? Thanks. I'll catch a flight tomorrow."

And then he hung up and I was alone again. I don't want to tell anyone...but what if there's an emergency and people need me? I'll just tell Aizawa and he can tell whoever he wants. I finish pack everything and flop on my bed thinking and processing everything, then my thoughts drift to kacchan. When he comforted me after Shochan- no, Todoroki cheated on me I hadn't been the same. I would often catch myself daydreaming and thinking about how close we were. How he hugged me and comforted me. Ever so often I would feel my face heat up the rare times I saw him. He was so kind, and then once again he was there for me when my mom died. I don't know why he did it but I'm glad that I got to spend time with him. I know he'll come visit sometime so I'll write him a letter explaining everything and hopefully he'll understand. I need some time away, although he was nice to me, I can't have these feelings because I don't think I can take it if somebody else left me, especially him...

~3rd Person POV~

It was Saturday when Izuku left everything and headed to his flight. He went on the plan and sat in his seat taking out his headsets and playing music taking in the view of Japan before he heard the captain start to speak about the safety precautions. 

When Katsuki found Izuku on Thursday, his heart broke at the sight of his crush. His curly, forest green hair was now in tatters, his once bright, sparkling eyes a red puffy mess, his soft red lips now quivering and he himself was shaking. Shaking so hard, Katsuki started to panic at the sight of Izuku. He rushed over and immediately comforted the smaller boy, holding him. Katsuki tightened his grip over the boy and soon enough he started to calm down. Katsuki tried to ask what happened but Izuku was crying so much, he couldn't figure out what he was saying. When Izuku finally calmed down, the words that came out of his mouth broke Katsuki's heart.

Izuku: "Sh-she g-gone...n-now what I gonna do? Sh-she was my rock...-I- don't h-have anyone else."

Katsuki: "I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you, Izuku."

Katsuki couldn't believe his ears. Izuku had been going through so much and he wasn't there for  him not, not once. His deku was going through so much pain and trauma all alone while Katsuki was out with friends hanging out. His deku was crying his eyes out while Katsuki was laughing. His deku had so much emotion he trashed his own house while Katsuki lay comfortable in bed sleeping. There was nothing Katsuki could do except hold Izuku in his arms while he let all his emotions out. After Izuku's break down, they pulled away and Izuku assured Katsuki it was fine, Katsuki left thinking that he needed his alone time.

It was now Saturday and Katsuki had bought Izuku's favorite snack and drinks and was heading over to his house. He didn't go on Friday cause he wanted to give Izuku space. He went into the house called out to Izuku but he didn't hear anything. In a state of panic he rushed up the stairs and into Izuku's room to find everything cleared out. The bed was still made but his closets were open revealing empty shelves, his floor which was usually covered in mess was now cleaned, his bathroom was completely empty and around the walls were his All Might posters, Katsuki looked towards his desk and saw it vacant except for a piece of paper held down my a paperweight that said Izuku's name.

"Dear kacchan,
                                 I hope you're okay, especially after what happened on Thursday. I'm sure you're wondering why my room is empty and I'll come to that but first...I know we didn't always get along but when you comforted me after my breakup something sparked. I can't describe it but I know that I like the feeling when you're around. I like when YOU'RE around. What I want to say is, I think I like you but I don't think I can cope with another person in my life leaving. When you came to me after my mom, I couldn't take it. Everywhere I look, I saw her and that's too much for me. I'm leaving, kacchan and I don't know when I'll be back so I left the paperweight for you along with my favorite hoodie, it's on the bed. I have a message for the class. Tell them I'm sorry for avoiding them, I was just sorting my stuff out. Tell them I love everyone of them and I'm not mad at them. Tell Uraraka and Todoroki I hold nothing against them because their human and make mistakes. Tell them to don't forget about me. I'll miss you..."

                                                                                                                                               Love,
                                                                                                                                              Deku <3